Starp visu, kas notiek apkaart. Man vairs nekad negribas neko atstaastiit. Man gribas aizgriezties, pagriezt muguru. Mani tik ljoti ietekmee, ka es nevaru mieriigi dziivoties ar savu rutiinu sadevusies rocinjaas.
Vaardi un vaardi, un naudas teereeshana un lietas, and spectacles, ai es vairs negribu negribu negribu eksisteet. While nothing is solid enough, it's always too heavy.

Medusa

A suspicion, a doubt, a jealousy
grew in my mind,
which turned the hairs on my head to filthy snakes
as though my thoughts
hissed and spat on my scalp.

My bride’s breath soured, stank
in the grey bags of my lungs.
I’m foul mouthed now, foul tongued,
yellow fanged.
There are bullet tears in my eyes.
Are you terrified?

Be terrified.
It’s you I love,
perfect man, Greek God, my own;
but I know you’ll go, betray me, stray
from home.
So better by for me if you were stone.

I glanced at a buzzing bee,
a dull grey pebbly fell
to the ground.
I glanced at a singing bird,
a handful of dusty gravel
spattered down

I looked at a ginger cat,
a housebrick
shattered a bowl of milk.
I looked at a snuffling pig,
a boulder rolled
in a heap of shit.

I stared in the mirror.
Love gone bad
showed me a Gorgon.
I stared at a dragon.
Fire spewed
from the mouth of a mountain.

And here you come
with a shield for a heart
and a sword for a tongue
and your girls, your girls.
Wasn’t I beautiful
Wasn’t I fragrant and young?

Look at me now.

Esmu paarteereejusi jeegu eedot visaados Gilgameshos un dzerot Gaja Richija barchikos, staaveeju uz tilta kameer zem manis braukaajaas karaliene, pirku pliivojoshas kleitinjas un piipeeju klakshkjinot papeedenes pa lietaino trotuaari. Visa mana Birmingema ir aizmesta pamesta aiz manis. Naktii braukshu uz Itaaliju pa taisno zemestriicees pie draudzeniites. Saiireeju maaju kopaa ar labajaam koleegjiiteem no baara, varbuut pat uz taas pashas ielas kur manu dveeseli saapinaaja stulbais zeens. Tad braukshu uz Latviju, kur man jaaatjauno sirds ritms un jaaizaudzee mati. Driiz jau vasara beigsies un tad buus citaada dziive. Viss shiss maijs un notikumi ir bijusi taada centrifuuga.

Mani kaitina, ka cilveeki get fazed by emotions un izturas pret visu virspuseeji. Es gribu draudzeeties ekskluziivi ar skorpioniem.