Carpe · Diem

Visrūgtākās asaras ir par tevis paša stulbumu. Muļķīgā jaunība. Un nav pat neviena, ko vainot vai kā dēļ raudāt, izņemot tevi pašu. Bet laikam jau tāpat viss ir vairāk kā skaisti. Kaut vai saņemt tādas rindas... nekad nebiju un laikam nekad vairs nesaņemšu. Jo viņš ir.. nu IR.

Bet ārpus mana dzīves centra - sirsniņlietām,
šajā karstumā esmu Rīgā, divas dienas totāli mājās, vakaros AB un Swedbank Daugavas saulrieti ar dažreiz mierīgu, dažreiz izmisīgu skatu debesīs un domām tik STIPRĀM, ka laikam jānošaujas,
bet pirmdien brauksim pie Anastasijas J. uz vasarnīcu. Pie dabas, beidzot.

Bet kaut kā jau droši vien visa šī ārprāta jēga ir tajā, lai tomēr ko iemācītos. Un te nu atiet mācības visai dzīvei.

Riteņojot pa tukšo Rīgas centru, iebraucu vecajās mājās Tērbatas ielā, vecajā sētā. Fonā playlistē sāka skanēt Prāta Vētras Na Zare. 

Vispār braukt ar velo, kaut kā it sevišķi pa Rīgu, ir baigā meditācija, un es nezinu, ko bez tiem diviem riteņiem šajās brīvdienās iesāktu. Un tā "viss būs labi, un vienalga jau viss IR" sajūta, parādās, tieši līdz ar to fizisko aktivitāti un vasaras vēju sejā.

Nu un šādos brīžos jau tā mūzika par tavu dzīvi pati pie tevis atkal atnāk, tas ir viens no lielākajiem dzīves fenomeniem, kurš vienmēr pierāda, ka sakritību NAV 

I don’t know what to tell you other than the fact that a giraffe’s heart weighs 22 pounds and that somebody once told me when flies fall in love, their entire brain is rewired to only know loving each other. When one of them dies, their memory becomes blank. I hope you never think about anything as much as I think about waking up next to you during a windstorm at 5 am.
Dieva māte, cik skaisti, atradu pie skaistās Soley mūzikas, parastos youtube komentāros,
kamols kaklā

Nu un šis:
"He’s like nobody else in the world. When I’m with him, it’s like I’m split in half. Part of me is on fire, going crazy if I’m not touching him. The other half is calm and peaceful just perfectly content, knowing he is the one for me."
Jēziņ. Palasiet paši. http://quotekiss.com/love-quotes/

Nu un vēl šis, nu kulaks uz acs vai kā tur saka
When it comes to relationships people are always so scared of the what-if’s that they forget the what-is. They spend so much time thinking, ‘What if I get hurt?’ and ‘What if it doesn’t work out?’ that they stop thinking about that things that are already real. They forget the feeling they get when the person they love walks into the room and the excitement that rushes through them when the phone rings because it might be the person they are waiting to hear from. Never let the fear of what-if stop you from letting yourself take a chance on love…because “what if” this is the person you’re destined to spend the rest of your life with?

JĀ.
I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on, replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. I wonder what will happen the next time we’re together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.

Atpūšos pa savu gultu, gaiša, vasaras saules piepildīta istaba, kaut kā tā gaisma mazliet atgādina laikus, kad biju maza, 

Atceroties braucienu uz Beļģiju,

We wanna give as God gives. Without expectations, without wanting anything in return. Just to connect with the other person. To serve in tremendous way. Service to life, to love, peace, beauty, God, joy.
When we do that, when we take our tension off, all of our problems and circumstances and we put it on somebody else. It's the thought that allows us to loose track of ourselves and our problems. It's an act of creation.
/Law of Attraction/

Peace of mind, where I'm not worried what might/could happen, just embracing the presence