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Decembris 19., 2005
![[info]](http://klab.lv/img/userinfo.gif) coda | 19:54
i just told some people what my day was like, so.... it's out, not here anymore.. although i could tell you a story a bit more interesting [in my girly way] that i've been telling just about anybody who's up for listening and even those who are not..
alright.
saturday morning.
i'm done with the night shift, i may now go home and sleep... yet i dont. i hang on for an hour, then go to say bye.... the girl's alone in there so i stay to have a chat with her... i find out there are two guys dining, oh wow.. this early.... whatever. so we talk.... i decide to buy something little and sweet.. take my wallet out, pay... find out i've got too many receipts in my wallet.... throw most of them out, find the two tickets i had for a show on sunday evening.... we start speaking about them and the guy and whatever will be there....
then we continue about music, she asks me what music i've got with me.... hmm.. the ark b-sides, david gray and OK Computer...
"let's put ok computer on!"
"no you cant because there are people in!"
"who cares!"
"so she puts the cd on... but she's looking for a certain song. so she only lets the beginning of song play...
suddenly you can hear an excited "yes! yes!".... nothing changes though. she still goes on looking for the certain song.
in a moment, the guys are about to leave and while they pass us, the smallest of them says to us "ladies, you just tried my nerve"
well.. um..... :dunno:
then he pops out of the door.. and just as that happens...
"wasnt that goran gora?!"
i dont know because i havent seen him......
we find out that was.
oh wow.
:)
sunday night
i went to see Goran Gora play..
[and i never forgot the link when i tell this story:
http://www.gorangora.lv/index5
^there you can have a song of his *]
which was absolutely awesome, i loved it...
i couldnt remind myself who he reminded me of, but now i've come to conclusion that he sometimes sounds like Kings Of Convenience and.... mostly like himself. and sometimes like Damien Rice and what's more, as an artist, he has the feeling of Damien Rice.
yes indeed.
this is him.
oh and alright... here's the story i mentioned i already put out somewhere else..
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i had a cool day at school, that guy sat next to me, borrowed a pen.. and today was the only one i didnt have one blue or black myself, so i gave him green and had myself red... i loved the next class better though because then i could watch him, which i cannot if he sits beside me. but that's sweet as well.
and then.... then i dont reply another call and decide not to ignore the text message asking to call. i dont know him,.... so i just ignore it.
then i read that book on the train on my way home... arrive in this empty house, feel it just like i feel myself.. we're both vast and empty.... grandma shows up. we cook ourself supper, have a chat... make a lot of phonecalls but we'll be waiting for the most important one when i go to her which is where i'll be sleeping over... i want to be alone. but i dont mind sleeping in a house that's not quite empty. absolute silence scares the day out of me.
and i heard my mom's angry voice again. she doesnt mean it. she doesnt mean it.
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and the call i didnt answer or reply later....
i just received another one. this guy who's much older than me and somehow seems a tad bit okay.. he's inviting me for a massage.. he knows my back is bad.. damn... i.. i.. i first talked to him sunday morning, he told a lot of true things about me, but i already knew all of that, every bit of that, but that doesnt change anything.....
and now he invites me to his place which i dont want... i dont want to go with men [or ladies] that i dont know anywhere..! not to their houses! damn i'm scared, i really am.. why do i always agree with whatever he says? and of course i dont talk much and i feel fine with that [this time] and that scares the hell out of me...
somebody, please, help... take me out of here, far far far away..
i beg you *** on my knees..
i'd promise anything for a lift. and i'd give it, you know me..
like netherlands..?
*wishful sigh*
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