"Orangutans nurse their babies for an exceptionally long time, typically 6 to 8 years, with some individuals nursing for even longer, up to 9 years. This extended nursing period is the longest among all non-human mammals.

Orangutan mothers nurse their young for significantly longer than other primates, including chimpanzees (around 5 years) and gorillas (around 4 years).

Orangutans don't have a strict weaning schedule. They may nurse less frequently as they begin to eat solid foods, but then resume nursing more frequently if other food sources become scarce.

Due to the long nursing period, female orangutans only give birth every 7 to 9 years, which is also the longest birth interval for any land mammal."

Interesting! I think its so fucked up, ka pasaule neiedroshina mammas ziidiit beernus, un ilgi, as part of default mothering requirement, un way past 2-3 years.

Es to protams, nekad neteiktu sejaa savaam mom friends, bet tad, kad man kaada mamma staasta, ka "well, i just really wanted my boobs back" vai "it was too stressful" vai "i just don't have the time".. Girl, that's not good enough and you know it! So you had a child and you already can't be bothered? No vienas puses es sparotu, ka shiis mammas nezina neko par what bfeeding is, what human milk is, and what nursing from a mom does to a child, as opposed to drinking chemical mix from a plastic bottle and sucking on a piece of rubber for comfort. To es pati arii reaali iemaaciijos tikai lasot un klausoties lietas, maybe 1 year in? Bet why wouldn't you bother looking up info and prioritizing your child over convenience? I thought that's what motherhood is about.

Baigi kaitina tie lame ierakstu/komentaaru/joku cibas dzheki. It's like a badly written, a tad rude early 00s sitcom, that makes zero difference in people's opinions, as they are void of any sort of..value/substance. Bet tad es atceros, ka es pati in my birmigham bedroom 20s rakstiiju kaut kaadus depresiivus, i-am-so-desperate/drunk-yet-filled-with-superior-tedium-unique ierakstus, so let them have their little joys and dopamine fixes for egos.

Tas, ka cilveeki JP piesienas par overdefining things and word salads is merely a reflection of their own unwillingness to use their brains.

Nu nevar filozofi vainpat religjiozi cilveeki runaat par visiem shiem termini3m kaa 'patiesiiba', 'ticiiba', 'luugshana' kaa par kaut ko pashsaprotamu.

Pati zinaatne mums ir paraadiijusi, ka NOTHING is straightforward, ja mees ieskataamies pashi savos atomos vai meegjinaam aptvert, kas ir kosmoss. Kaapeec gan cilveeki uzskata, ka vaardi un termini ir nodefineeti tik preciizi, kaa tie vareetu buut.

Protams, ka idiotiem ir skumji, ja kaads noraada uz vinju aprobezhotiibu.

Domaat un runaat ir gandriiz futile, njemot veeraa cik daudz veel mees nezinaam un neesam nodefineejushi. Un tas, ka JP meegjina runaat ar atbildiibu un reverenci pret terminiem un vaardiem is the most courageous thing you stupids.

Believing in God is more philosophically correct / superior than being an atheist.

Vai kaads zina, vai Riigaa jebkur ir iespeejams nokristiit beernus, ja nav intereses piedereet draudzei vai iet uz bazniicu?

Guys, juus zinaajaat, ka eksistee taadas Cotton Candy grapes? Ja tas nav pieraadiijums tam, ka debesis ir zemes virsuu, tad es nezinu kas ir.

Tikai tagad dziivee, peedeejos paaris gadus, varbuut tieshi peec beernu piedzimshanas, es esmu saakusi buut normaals cilveeks. Ir tik diivaini tikai gandriiz jau 40 gados saprast, ka pasaule nav briesmiigs baisulis, kas tevi grib konstanti tormenteet.

Es biezhi domaaju par to, kaa buutu mana dziive izveertusies, ja mani buutu uzaudzinaajushi benevolent vecaaki, nevis narcisistiski + avoidant/distant.

Es esmu dziivee no tik daudz kaa / daudziem izvairiijusies, vienkaarshi no naaves baileem, ka vinji mani kaut kaa ievainos. Un ir tik sirreaali beidzot saprast, ka taas nav bijushas manis pashas domas, bet gan vecaaku iepoteetais, jeb veel vienkaarshaak - vecaaku reakcijas uz mani kopsh beernu kaajas.

Man nekad nav bijushi draugi, jo esmu izvairiijusies no cilveekiem, it sevishkji meiteneem. Deelj taa man nav labi gaajis skolaa (tik labi kaa mans optimaals praats buutu atljaavis), un arii ne universitastee. Es nekad neesmu par sevi pastaaveejusi vai ciiniijusies par savaam ambiicijaam, jo kaa nekaa es tachu visu dziivi esmu bijis dranjkjis, kam nav vietas pie pasaules galda.

Sainsbury's delivery viirietis man paprasiija no kurienes esmu un tad turpinaaja man teikt, cik es esmu skaista. Kaa jau muusdienu sabiedriibas produktam, man praataa uzreiz ir divas domineejoshas domas - astounding, ka vinjsh taa atljaujas mani harrasot, it's 2025 Britain - are you bonkers dude, viirietim izteikt komplimentus sievietei..kur veel zemaak krist greekaa, teju burka jaavelk virusuu! Un otra dominja, ka varbuut es varu tikt pie naudinjas iesuudzot Sainsbury's tiesaa par harrassment? I probably could, jo viena sieviete nesen tika pie 30000 maarcinju par to ka NHS koleegjis vinju nosauca par Darth Vader.

Ok.

Uk atkal aresteets kaarteejais random onkuliitis par tviitu. Tachu shajaa gadiijuma with an exciting twist! Shoreiz vinju aresteeja, jo policija PAARPRATA vinja tviitu. To vinji malaciishi paveica pirmkaart iznjeemot no konteksta un tad pa virsu nezinot kas ir sarkasms, nu bravo dzheki!

It's like.. paarstaajiet rakstiit sociaalajos meedijos tagad. What's the point! Paarstaajiet rakstiit savus ekspozee aviizees. What's the point! World is going to shit no matter what you do and it's irreversible. Es juutos ljoti depresiivi par pasauli un cilveekiem. I just want to live out my days with my family away from this shit, but we're in the midst of it and it stinks every day.

Then again tas ir tikai raksts. Taapataas man vienmeer ir licies mazliet debiili rakstiit tviterii vai baarstiit savus random domu peleejushos graudinjus.

I mean there has to be a case for all these wronged people to claim vindication. But the fact that we live in a world where it is necessary is depressing.

You don't have to care about your feelings when you're disconnected from them - simples.

There is no time for feelings.

Just do your job.

I know it's bad, bet vakar skatoties paavesta iznaakshanu, viss par ko man groziijaas domas bija, cik no visiem shiem padreem ir pedofiili.

Sometimes i feel like JP might just uncover some kind of galactic conspiracy by poking Bible.

We are all aliens basically.

What's so bad about people pleasing? I think its bad not to live in a pleasing way. If done authentically, being a pleasing person is almost magical. Of course if you're not a nice person then don't pretend to be.

All this cheesy nonsense about how women should stop being people pleasers is just another bullshit to turn women into men who only want to assert away one step from starting wars.

I love people pleasing! It makes me feel so glad and even powerful to have made somebody's time easier and lighter. Perhaps even to have inspired them that things they want to achieve next are not as hard since they are now in a good place to commence them.

Blaa blaa no village get over it little bitches and shut up your blasphemous whinging.

Visu laiku meegjinu saprast what's my problem. Jo objektiivi skatoties uz savu dziivi es esmu bagaataakais un laimiigaakais pasaules cilveeks un neviens nepieraadiis preteejo. Taa pat nav probleema - taa vienkaarshi ir kaut kaada debiila 'Fernando Pessoa sajuuta' with a splosh or aging mind.

Varbuut taa kjermenis/smadzenes juutas, kad ir hronisks nogurums un miega truukums un visaadas veseliibas zarazas no taa?

Genius! Jaa jaa - viss kas man atliek ir saakt dziivot veseliigi pie pirmaas iespeejas - peec dazhiem gadiem! Un tad es atkal buushu sevis optimaalaa awkward but sweet and a little bit fit versija.

Yesss!

Bet ko es dariishu liidz tam? Liidz tam vai tieshaam ir tikai katru dienu izdziivoshana knapa?

Visvairaak man besii, ka no taa ne beerni ne R netiek pie manas optimaalaas versijas (LOL). Man arii kremt ka R nekad nesapratiis, what's it like to do all the things i do. Doma ka varbuut vinjsh domaa ka es vienkaarshi esmu slinka, mani nodarbina tik biezhi. Tik biezhi es arii pati domaaju, ka mana probleema ir tas ka esmu slinka, jo ja buutu chakla, tad man nesagaadaatu probleemas neguleet un tad visu dienu stumt un tad atkal neguleet.

I just wish i could stop being such a miserable looser and start thinking morw optimistically.

My confidence is super low right now and i really despise myself a bit too.

Yellowstone is good.

Es tieshaam nesaprotu tos trans cilveekus.

Pirmkaart es nesaprotu kaapeec tikai gar trans sievieteem ir visa azhiotaazha. Kaapeec trans viirieshi nepieprasa savas tiesiibas paargjeerbties kopaa ar viirieshiem un sacensties viirieshu sportos un ta taalaak? Kur ir true equality of outcome?

Un tad es nesaprotu, kaa var saglabaat tik pristine blind faith, lai nesaprastu kas par probleemu teiksim trans sievieteem paargjeerbties ar regular sievieteem?

Vai tieshaam cilveeki var noticeet ka biologjija ir miits un pietiek ar vaardiem lai izmainiitu fizisko realitaati?

Dudes........ senaak logjika un zinaatne bika stiliigi, bet tagad atkal pestelji un magical thinking ir stiliigi?

It's an assault on a healthy, empathetic mind. And an assault cannot arise from anything that is true or good. Saatan, is that thou?

Vai varat juus atpisties no religjijas? Dazhi pedofiili ir kristieshi (protams ne patiesi) nevis visi kristieshi ir pedofiili. How can you guys be so willfully silly and dumb to claim otherwise.

I am really impressed with Hungary passing a law against Pride! Klausiijos no riita zinjas un nobriiniijos, ka kaut kas labs un pareizs veel pasaulee var notikt.

It sevishkji aizkustinaaja citeeju "The key provision declares that children’s rights for their “proper physical, mental and moral development take precedence over all other fundamental rights,” except the right to life, AP explained."

Tas ka kaadam veel ruup beernu pasargaashana un labklaajiiba. I am total crying Jordan Peterson when it comes to children and fucking up lives of children these days.

If you want your blood to boil, tad palasiet komentaarus pie jebkura "Wokes have come up with this new embarassing and painful bullshit.." tipa raksta.

Tas tieshaam ir grotesks fenomens, man ir jaapaarstaaj tajaa gariigi iesaistiities..

Ok, Mareja reakcija Rogana podkaastaa makes total sense in a context of war. And I think we are in it maybe :/

Marejs ir mans great intellectual crush.

New Black Mirror is goood.

Ok, viirieshiem ir JP, uz kuru klausiities un sasniegt savu potenciaalu - great. Bet uz ko lai klausaas sievietes? Psihopaatu elite ir sadirsusi ne tikai viirieshi esiibu bet arii sievieshu esiibu. Ja viirieshi vairs nevar buut viirieshi, tad sievieteem tagad ir jaaizliekas ka vinjas ir sievietes bet iisteniibaa jaabuut viirieshiem.

Varbuut es esmu izkritusi no self help zeitgeista, bet sievieteem ir kaut kaada nefeministiska iedvesmojosha figuura inteligjencee?

Happiness is an ethical imperative.

Kopsh S saaka martaa iet daarzinjaa, vinju ir sakodushi 3 dazhaadi autistiski beerni. Nonverbal 3 un 4 gadnieki! Plecaa, sejaa un rokaa..+ viens iemetis ar speelju mashiiniinu pa galvu.

I dread what school in UK will be like.

Headlines in 2025...(not Black Mirror)

"Toddler kicked out of nursery for being transphobic

Child suspended from state school for ‘abuse against sexual orientation and gender identity’, official figures show"

Ja man piedereetu zinju meedijs un ja es buutu Chaarlijs Brookers, to sauktu The Daily Black Mirror or something.

Also.. so kursh grib taisiit normaalo cilveeku komuunu kkur dabaa projaam no moral rot?

Man klausoties JP nereti ir sajuuta, ka vinjsh kaut ko elementaaru dveeselei ciinaas paarveerst sarezhgjiitaa praatam.

Praats nekad nespees aptvert dveeseli - lost battle.

Bbc ar saviem nebinaarajiem seskiem..

"After all, little children are by nature extremely inquisitive. So it could lead to some terribly awkward conversations at home.

Just imagine…

“Daddy, what’s ‘non-binary’?”

“Well. Er. Let’s see. How shall I put this… Basically, darling, ‘non-binary’ is a type of gender identity.”

“What’s ‘gender identity’?”

“Good question. Very, very good question. Er… Think of it like a special sort of game, played by grown-ups, and which has extremely strict rules. What happens is, a man says he’s now a lady – and then everyone else has to agree, or they get in lots of trouble and lose their jobs. Especially ladies. Men can sometimes get away with saying they think the man who’s now a lady is still a man. But if ladies say they don’t want the man who’s now a lady to take his, or rather her, clothes off in the ladies’ changing room, everybody gets very cross and shouts at them.”

“I see. But what’s ‘non-binary’?”

“Well. ‘Non-binary’ is someone who says, ‘I’m not a man or a lady.’ Or, in this case, ‘I’m not a man raccoon or a lady raccoon.’ So, instead of calling the raccoon ‘he’ or ‘she’, you have to call it ‘they’, as if it – or rather, they – were several raccoons, instead of just one. And if you don’t call it – or rather, them – ‘they’, you’ll get in lots of trouble, too.”

Wouldn’t be easy, would it? Especially if your five-year-old goes on to repeat your explanation to other children at school. Because the teachers might deem your phrasing to be insufficiently inclusive. In which case, both you and your five-year-old will probably be spending the rest of the year in detention."

"Of course, there are no guarantees for the outcomes of our kids but, to misquote Philip Larkin, it’s better to rest assured that it was you – mum and dad – who f---ed them up, rather than Andrew Tate."

Skaudraakaa peedeejaa seerija muuzhaa.

S ir atsaacis beernu daarzu. Liidz vinju nododu un atnaaku ar K maajaas, vienkaarshi visu laiku gaidu kad vareeshu vinju iznjemt.

Vinjam protams patiik mazliet speeleeties, bet vinjsh tagad shkjiet mazliet depresiivaaks un ir veel vairaak man piekjeeries.

Modernaa sabiedriiba ar savu izolaaciju un eksperimenteeshanu ar beernu dveeseliiteem ir saatana izdomaajums. Ja jau Jeezus kaut kur ir tad kaapeec vinjsh nekad nedod padomu kaa no taa visa izvairiities un dziivot kaa pareiziem dabas beerniem ar sveetu garu.

I feel SAD.

Parenthood just shows you what a child you've been all your life and still are at times.. getting twisted and silly about the most ridiculous normal things.

We are all God's neurotic children.

Man visu laiku ir sajuuta - either all this is normal and too shall pass un mees visi smiesimies kaa gendalfs un hobiti, OR i am seriously messing up lifes of myself, my partner and my kids forever. Who knows what is what anymore. Vismaz pavasaris ir atnaacis. Vispaar dziivee vispienjemamaakaa lieta ir sezonas.

Ja es buutu valdiibas iereednis es izdomaatu AI programmu "Big Brother" kas atradiis un nostuchiis visus kas domaa nepareizi. Tad es vinjus suutiitu uz 101. istabu domu paartrenneeshanaa.

Darwins Nunez tho

Vai kaadam veel Staarmers neatgaadina gadiijumaa Maiklu Skotu no Office?

Hello bummer my old friend. Izskataas, ka esmu back on depression train. How silly for me to think that there is any worth in my approach to life, how silly to expect or hope of people. Anyways, all I can do is happily wait to be abandoned, and it is really fine.

Vienkaarshi aizveerties un stumt, un paartraukt buut romantiskai un naivai losei. Feelings are so disgusting and pathetic.

Es tieshaam sev riebjos, ja es buutu pljavas pukje tad es buutu pretiiga gundega kura ir maaksliigi dzeltena un kurai taapat nevienam nevajadzeetu pieskarties, lai rokas nesasmeereetos ar indi - useless flower and gross in a Zizek way.

I am actually really bad at conversation, at a calm discussion. Viss ko es daru ir apvainojos, raudu un puushos.

Es saku, ka gribu tikt uzklausiita un ka veelos izrunaaties, bet es nemaz nemaaku logjiski runaat un pakljaujos savaam paarspiileetajaam emocijaam, labi zinot ka it's existential geoengineering and mental chemtrails.

Taapeec jau es uzskatu, ka prieksh manis labaak ir visu manu voblu nokluseet un izlikties, ka viss ir cieshami, liidz vobla aizmirstas uz kaadu briidi un paarnjem aizmirstiigs meerens priecinjsh.

Jo alternatiiva ir taarpu bundzhas un neveiklas, ljuriigas rokas, kas izbaarsta toksiskus taarpus un pashas sevi sagraiza.

Izlikties vienmeer ir vislabaakais risinaajums, that is the ultimate generational trauma breaking.

Just when you thought you're done with depressive 20s angst and hedonistic melancholia, here comes...parental burnout!

And while you can easily snap out of depression just by stopping being an infantile child, you cannot easily not burn out in a world where you are a single available wooden log lol, beacuse the other available log doesn't vibe with perpetual anxiety not only about yourself but now about two extra humans, thus is not really availble to alleviate your anxieties.

Es juutos reaali vientulja, jo man nav neviens, kam pasuudzeeties par savu gruuto sirdi. R kaa jau tipisks viirietis uzreiz piedaavaa risinaajumus, kas ir driizaak ideaalistiski nevis reaalistiski, so I don't even bother. Katru reizi kad vinjam kaut ko meegjinu teikt I feel like feelings are just annoying to him. Mamma mani uzreiz nostrosteetu, ka esmu vaaja un neizdariiga, pasiiva laame. Draugu man iisti nav, ja atskaita A, bet vinja var tikai piedaavaat simbolisku "ah, that sucks girl" over whatsapp message. Ar maasaam man attieciibu vairs iisti nav jo dziivojam dazhaadaas pasaulees. Un teetim pasham probleemu pietiek. Dievs kaa parasti droshivien visu redz bet ignoree un gaida for me to snap maybe.

I feep alone, isolated, mute.

Viss ko es varu dariit ir katru dienu izdziivot.

Which I hate jo, tad kad es juutos shitik vaaja un sabiegta, tad arii es slikti izturos pret R. Bet ko gan es vinjam vareetu piedaavaat, kaa klusumu un vilshanaas vibes. Nav te nekaada romantika un superflirts, not with this human remain that is me. Un lai arii vinjsh nav, es visu laiku kaut kaa domaaju, ka taa ir vinja vaina. Kaapeec vinju neinteresee kaa es juutos? Kaapeec vinjsh man nepaliidz? Kaapeec vinjsh mani ir atstaajis novaartaa?

Then again, vismaz labi ka es esmu pilnasiniigi pieradusi pie vientuliibas jau no beerniibas. So katru reizi, kad cilveeki man uzgriezh muguru, es sev speeju atgaadinaat - luuk, you are in your natural place and state, this is your comfortable and familiar mode of existence, you were always going to end up here.

Vieniigais, es arii gribeeju miilestiibu un uzticeeshanos un kristaalskaidru sapratni. Pipedreams.

How can I be on the right path if I always feel so goddamn unhappy, dissatisfied, anxious, lonely.

Why am I so bad at sucking it up and just rolling with fucking punches.

Eventually my whinging and any amount of tedium is irrelevant and futile, I know this, so it's fine either way.

I am nothing and nobody.

Man gribas noskatiities Nightbitch but i am worried it might hit too close and my already fragile little mind will be shrouded again in a false way.

Gribeejaas atkal pierakstiit kaut ko angsty and self deprecating par motherhood.. bet all I can say, man shkjiet es leenaam paarveershos par Lois no Malcolm in the Middle, it sevishkji mana balss, kad adreseeju S palaidniibas. Bet tad citis momentos es arii mazliet paarveershos par Hal, it sevishkji, kad haoss sit augstaakos viljnjus un mana psihoshanas speeja ir izsmelta.

Izvarotaaju bandu balss bija vairaak nekaa vienkaarshi nobalsoshana par izmekleeshanu, taa ir nostaaja par taisniigumu un probleemas sakni. Nezinu, kam jaanotiek, lai valdiibas kritushie beidzot atziitu, ka bezdieviiba un saatana "veertiibas" nedriikst buut civilizeetas sabiedriibas repertuaaraa.

Tas vienkaarshi ir ljoti kaitinoshi, kad cilveeki noliedz kaut ko aciimredzmu. Un ja patiesiibai nav nekaada speeka, tad kaadas gan mums visiem ir izredzes?

Aizsuutiiju darbaa atluugumu.....

It's been 11 years yalls. Es vairs neesmu Sartra oficiants yalls.

Ko es vispaar tagad iesaakshu? Am i crazy and deranged?

Noskatiijos Agneses interviju - kaa vienmeer, nekas aarkaarteejs netiek pateikts, tikai absoluuta apzinjas gaisma, kas greeciniekiem (mums visiem), protams, kremt. Un triumfs visam, protams, ir, ka Agnese neveelas iet politikaa, kas pasviitro gaismas patiesiigumu. Tas ka shaadas intervijas notiek, par laimi noziimee, ka cilveeki veel tomeer grib dzirdeet patiesiibu.

Manas pashas dominjas voblinjas-, protams, ka baileem nomirt vai sajukt praataa, nevajadzeetu buut par iemeslu nedzemdeet, jo taas ir mere intrusive thoughts. Kaa vienmeer cilveeki nespeej noticeet savam speekam un grit.

Un jaa, feministes (vismaz tradicionaalaas, nevis crazed Insta 5 children crunchy moms) noteikti ignoree sievieshu biologjiskaas un gariigaas realitaates/vajadziibas/suutiibas, kaa Agnese saka - prioritaates.

Anyways, Agneses izteiksmes speejas ir pure logosy joy for me, taads pats aukstasiniigs un brave vaardu kareivis kaa JP. No trick questions or ideological innuendos stand a chance, this mind is clear and pure.

Having kids is weird.. you kind of bring human souls into the world and maintain legacy of mankind, yet you constantly feel like guilty shit, you're covered in shit and people treat you like shit.

Anyways es ceru ka shogad man izdosies atrast jaunu darbu kaa divu beernu mammai kas nav straadaajusi vairaak kaa gadu, un kuras ieprieksheejaa buutiiba, smadzenes, un jebkaada speeja uz logosu ir anihileetas. Es ceru ka mums pietiks naudas eedienam. Es ceru ka mani beerni buus kaa mazi Tarkovskiji, kuriem nevajag mantas bet vieniigi bumbuleet starp miglainiem kokiem un kriptiskaam peljkjeem. Es ceru ka es izdziivoshu fiziski, neguljot un neruupeejoties par savu veseliibu.
Jo vispaar katra diena kur ir veseliiba un eediens un reekjini nomaksaati ir dzidra oaaze un paradiizes eleksiirs - paldies, tev Dievinj, mums tachu arvien ir deep understanding, so no words are required.

Ik pa laikam arvien gribas kaut ko ierakstiit, not to feel lonely in my thoughts. Bet tad uzreiz praats burkshkj "Nav ko shitaadas voblas gvelzt!"

Taa it kaa visi teikumi buutu kjeceriibas un maanjticiigi apdraudeejumi. Tas it kaa Visums uzreiz atbildeetu "Taa ja? Tu tam tiesham tici? Ok tad es tev paraadiishu siikaa lose."

I'm just really scared of God all the time, or rather that force prompts one to transcend lies.

Ok, seksisti. Varbuut juus ljech8ijay par nabaga feministeem, kas negrib viir8eshus un gjimeni bet vienkaarshi grib chilot un pelniit un celjot un justies kaa cilveeki. Bet juust n3zi at kaa ir justies kaa mazajai pelnrushkjiitei kalponiitei, kura jau 2 meeneshus domaa vai buut tik reckless and bold, lai sev beidzot nopirktu leggingus pir.o reizi pa 2 gadiem. Vai kalponiitei, kurai nav laika labot gramatikas kljuudas, jo jebkuraa momentaa siiks overlords izraus telefonu no rokaam, lai atgaadinaatu par naakamo chore kas tev jaarukaa. Vai pel rushkjei, kurai ir aizaugushi auskaru caurminji jo peedeejo reizi liki auskarus 2023. Gadaa un nagus esmu uzlakojusi tiwshi 1 reizi kopsh 2021. Gada vasaras.

Anyways, feministes vienkaarshi grib buut cilveeki.

Kaapeec maateem tik slikti sanak buut cilveekiem? Maybe I am just not cut out for hard work.

Shodien R prasiiju vai vinjam kaadreiz ir dad guilt.. vinjsh, pilniigi identiskaa manieree kaa dads of Instagram atbild, ka 'what's that?'. Tad es njemos vinjam skaidrot un atstaastiit, kaa maates juutaas vainiigas par pilniigi visu, ko dara vai nedara, un vai vinjam kaadreiz ir taads moments par jebko when it comes to kids.. vinjsh protams, tajaa pashaa manieree atbild 'huh, no?'

Is that a mom thing or just a woman thing in general? Taakaa my brain has been damaged by not having slept in 3 years, es nekaadi neatceros vai es jutos tik bezdibeniigi vainiiga par visu arii pre kids as well?

Then again, mr brightside says, when you have too much guilty feeling it turns into unfeeling it too intensely, and it sort of numbs itself out. And then if you manage to steer clear of being all cynical and bitter and aesthetic pathetic about it, you become just a tiny bit more productive and fine in your heart.

2 slimi beerni un pati slima is my Aquarius retrograde. Neesam bijushi aaraa nedeelju, but i have a new lust for life jo ir atgriezusies garsha un smarzha. Tagad tikai gaidu kad chunky izveseljosies, kad smart pants beigs punjkjoties un kad R turpinaas buut strong male that gets no virus.

Plus muusu eekaa vakar bija ugunsgreeks. Looks like we need to buy a lottery ticket.

Cik ilgi cilveeks var izdziivot, mostoties ik peec stundas. Liidz ko mana saapiigaa galva iegrimst miikstaa, smarshiigaa spilventinjaa gultas kaajgalii, taa kaads kunkst un vaid un spaarda un prasa, lai es nakts viduu atkal seezhu un sintezeeju asinis pienaa, vientulji lasot bezjeedziigi banaalus tviitus par Trampu vai visaadiem muusdienu AI spokiem. I feel drained and lonely and everything hurts. Labi, man taa buutu paradiize mosties 5 no riita ja vien es vareetu paguleet 3 stundas no vietas. Bet mosties ik peec stundas, taa nav zoliida situaacija.

Kaapeec citas mammas ir normaalas un speej izveidot veseliigus grafikus kameer es esmu muuzhiigaa self inflicted cieteeja.

Es senaak biju cilveeks ar domaam un kaut minimaalu bet esoshu praata coherence. Tagad es esmu kaut kaads tireklis, saapiigs receklis, un mans ieksheejais eksistenciaalists ir vispaar aizgaajis groteskaa AI stila Pessoa demonaa.

Protams, ka parenthood ir laime pilniiga ar kafiju rudeniigaa parkaa, kad tu esi izguleejies un kad visi ir veseli. Bet kad tu esi notriecies ar saapiigaam, vientuljaam smadzeneem then you know that I'm no good.

PHEW

Tas kaa visas lielaas slaveniibas atbalsta Kamalu ir sheer creepy. Un es pat nezinu kaapeec, it just gives me weird shudder and a sense of doomy reconfirmation?