Headlines in 2025...(not Black Mirror)

"Toddler kicked out of nursery for being transphobic

Child suspended from state school for ‘abuse against sexual orientation and gender identity’, official figures show"

Ja man piedereetu zinju meedijs un ja es buutu Chaarlijs Brookers, to sauktu The Daily Black Mirror or something.

Also.. so kursh grib taisiit normaalo cilveeku komuunu kkur dabaa projaam no moral rot?

Man klausoties JP nereti ir sajuuta, ka vinjsh kaut ko elementaaru dveeselei ciinaas paarveerst sarezhgjiitaa praatam.

Praats nekad nespees aptvert dveeseli - lost battle.

Bbc ar saviem nebinaarajiem seskiem..

"After all, little children are by nature extremely inquisitive. So it could lead to some terribly awkward conversations at home.

Just imagine…

“Daddy, what’s ‘non-binary’?”

“Well. Er. Let’s see. How shall I put this… Basically, darling, ‘non-binary’ is a type of gender identity.”

“What’s ‘gender identity’?”

“Good question. Very, very good question. Er… Think of it like a special sort of game, played by grown-ups, and which has extremely strict rules. What happens is, a man says he’s now a lady – and then everyone else has to agree, or they get in lots of trouble and lose their jobs. Especially ladies. Men can sometimes get away with saying they think the man who’s now a lady is still a man. But if ladies say they don’t want the man who’s now a lady to take his, or rather her, clothes off in the ladies’ changing room, everybody gets very cross and shouts at them.”

“I see. But what’s ‘non-binary’?”

“Well. ‘Non-binary’ is someone who says, ‘I’m not a man or a lady.’ Or, in this case, ‘I’m not a man raccoon or a lady raccoon.’ So, instead of calling the raccoon ‘he’ or ‘she’, you have to call it ‘they’, as if it – or rather, they – were several raccoons, instead of just one. And if you don’t call it – or rather, them – ‘they’, you’ll get in lots of trouble, too.”

Wouldn’t be easy, would it? Especially if your five-year-old goes on to repeat your explanation to other children at school. Because the teachers might deem your phrasing to be insufficiently inclusive. In which case, both you and your five-year-old will probably be spending the rest of the year in detention."

"Of course, there are no guarantees for the outcomes of our kids but, to misquote Philip Larkin, it’s better to rest assured that it was you – mum and dad – who f---ed them up, rather than Andrew Tate."

Skaudraakaa peedeejaa seerija muuzhaa.

S ir atsaacis beernu daarzu. Liidz vinju nododu un atnaaku ar K maajaas, vienkaarshi visu laiku gaidu kad vareeshu vinju iznjemt.

Vinjam protams patiik mazliet speeleeties, bet vinjsh tagad shkjiet mazliet depresiivaaks un ir veel vairaak man piekjeeries.

Modernaa sabiedriiba ar savu izolaaciju un eksperimenteeshanu ar beernu dveeseliiteem ir saatana izdomaajums. Ja jau Jeezus kaut kur ir tad kaapeec vinjsh nekad nedod padomu kaa no taa visa izvairiities un dziivot kaa pareiziem dabas beerniem ar sveetu garu.

I feel SAD.

Parenthood just shows you what a child you've been all your life and still are at times.. getting twisted and silly about the most ridiculous normal things.

We are all God's neurotic children.

Man visu laiku ir sajuuta - either all this is normal and too shall pass un mees visi smiesimies kaa gendalfs un hobiti, OR i am seriously messing up lifes of myself, my partner and my kids forever. Who knows what is what anymore. Vismaz pavasaris ir atnaacis. Vispaar dziivee vispienjemamaakaa lieta ir sezonas.

Ja es buutu valdiibas iereednis es izdomaatu AI programmu "Big Brother" kas atradiis un nostuchiis visus kas domaa nepareizi. Tad es vinjus suutiitu uz 101. istabu domu paartrenneeshanaa.

Darwins Nunez tho

Vai kaadam veel Staarmers neatgaadina gadiijumaa Maiklu Skotu no Office?

Hello bummer my old friend. Izskataas, ka esmu back on depression train. How silly for me to think that there is any worth in my approach to life, how silly to expect or hope of people. Anyways, all I can do is happily wait to be abandoned, and it is really fine.

Vienkaarshi aizveerties un stumt, un paartraukt buut romantiskai un naivai losei. Feelings are so disgusting and pathetic.

Es tieshaam sev riebjos, ja es buutu pljavas pukje tad es buutu pretiiga gundega kura ir maaksliigi dzeltena un kurai taapat nevienam nevajadzeetu pieskarties, lai rokas nesasmeereetos ar indi - useless flower and gross in a Zizek way.

I am actually really bad at conversation, at a calm discussion. Viss ko es daru ir apvainojos, raudu un puushos.

Es saku, ka gribu tikt uzklausiita un ka veelos izrunaaties, bet es nemaz nemaaku logjiski runaat un pakljaujos savaam paarspiileetajaam emocijaam, labi zinot ka it's existential geoengineering and mental chemtrails.

Taapeec jau es uzskatu, ka prieksh manis labaak ir visu manu voblu nokluseet un izlikties, ka viss ir cieshami, liidz vobla aizmirstas uz kaadu briidi un paarnjem aizmirstiigs meerens priecinjsh.

Jo alternatiiva ir taarpu bundzhas un neveiklas, ljuriigas rokas, kas izbaarsta toksiskus taarpus un pashas sevi sagraiza.

Izlikties vienmeer ir vislabaakais risinaajums, that is the ultimate generational trauma breaking.

Just when you thought you're done with depressive 20s angst and hedonistic melancholia, here comes...parental burnout!

And while you can easily snap out of depression just by stopping being an infantile child, you cannot easily not burn out in a world where you are a single available wooden log lol, beacuse the other available log doesn't vibe with perpetual anxiety not only about yourself but now about two extra humans, thus is not really availble to alleviate your anxieties.

Es juutos reaali vientulja, jo man nav neviens, kam pasuudzeeties par savu gruuto sirdi. R kaa jau tipisks viirietis uzreiz piedaavaa risinaajumus, kas ir driizaak ideaalistiski nevis reaalistiski, so I don't even bother. Katru reizi kad vinjam kaut ko meegjinu teikt I feel like feelings are just annoying to him. Mamma mani uzreiz nostrosteetu, ka esmu vaaja un neizdariiga, pasiiva laame. Draugu man iisti nav, ja atskaita A, bet vinja var tikai piedaavaat simbolisku "ah, that sucks girl" over whatsapp message. Ar maasaam man attieciibu vairs iisti nav jo dziivojam dazhaadaas pasaulees. Un teetim pasham probleemu pietiek. Dievs kaa parasti droshivien visu redz bet ignoree un gaida for me to snap maybe.

I feep alone, isolated, mute.

Viss ko es varu dariit ir katru dienu izdziivot.

Which I hate jo, tad kad es juutos shitik vaaja un sabiegta, tad arii es slikti izturos pret R. Bet ko gan es vinjam vareetu piedaavaat, kaa klusumu un vilshanaas vibes. Nav te nekaada romantika un superflirts, not with this human remain that is me. Un lai arii vinjsh nav, es visu laiku kaut kaa domaaju, ka taa ir vinja vaina. Kaapeec vinju neinteresee kaa es juutos? Kaapeec vinjsh man nepaliidz? Kaapeec vinjsh mani ir atstaajis novaartaa?

Then again, vismaz labi ka es esmu pilnasiniigi pieradusi pie vientuliibas jau no beerniibas. So katru reizi, kad cilveeki man uzgriezh muguru, es sev speeju atgaadinaat - luuk, you are in your natural place and state, this is your comfortable and familiar mode of existence, you were always going to end up here.

Vieniigais, es arii gribeeju miilestiibu un uzticeeshanos un kristaalskaidru sapratni. Pipedreams.

How can I be on the right path if I always feel so goddamn unhappy, dissatisfied, anxious, lonely.

Why am I so bad at sucking it up and just rolling with fucking punches.

Eventually my whinging and any amount of tedium is irrelevant and futile, I know this, so it's fine either way.

I am nothing and nobody.

Man gribas noskatiities Nightbitch but i am worried it might hit too close and my already fragile little mind will be shrouded again in a false way.

Gribeejaas atkal pierakstiit kaut ko angsty and self deprecating par motherhood.. bet all I can say, man shkjiet es leenaam paarveershos par Lois no Malcolm in the Middle, it sevishkji mana balss, kad adreseeju S palaidniibas. Bet tad citis momentos es arii mazliet paarveershos par Hal, it sevishkji, kad haoss sit augstaakos viljnjus un mana psihoshanas speeja ir izsmelta.

Izvarotaaju bandu balss bija vairaak nekaa vienkaarshi nobalsoshana par izmekleeshanu, taa ir nostaaja par taisniigumu un probleemas sakni. Nezinu, kam jaanotiek, lai valdiibas kritushie beidzot atziitu, ka bezdieviiba un saatana "veertiibas" nedriikst buut civilizeetas sabiedriibas repertuaaraa.

Tas vienkaarshi ir ljoti kaitinoshi, kad cilveeki noliedz kaut ko aciimredzmu. Un ja patiesiibai nav nekaada speeka, tad kaadas gan mums visiem ir izredzes?

Aizsuutiiju darbaa atluugumu.....

It's been 11 years yalls. Es vairs neesmu Sartra oficiants yalls.

Ko es vispaar tagad iesaakshu? Am i crazy and deranged?

Noskatiijos Agneses interviju - kaa vienmeer, nekas aarkaarteejs netiek pateikts, tikai absoluuta apzinjas gaisma, kas greeciniekiem (mums visiem), protams, kremt. Un triumfs visam, protams, ir, ka Agnese neveelas iet politikaa, kas pasviitro gaismas patiesiigumu. Tas ka shaadas intervijas notiek, par laimi noziimee, ka cilveeki veel tomeer grib dzirdeet patiesiibu.

Manas pashas dominjas voblinjas-, protams, ka baileem nomirt vai sajukt praataa, nevajadzeetu buut par iemeslu nedzemdeet, jo taas ir mere intrusive thoughts. Kaa vienmeer cilveeki nespeej noticeet savam speekam un grit.

Un jaa, feministes (vismaz tradicionaalaas, nevis crazed Insta 5 children crunchy moms) noteikti ignoree sievieshu biologjiskaas un gariigaas realitaates/vajadziibas/suutiibas, kaa Agnese saka - prioritaates.

Anyways, Agneses izteiksmes speejas ir pure logosy joy for me, taads pats aukstasiniigs un brave vaardu kareivis kaa JP. No trick questions or ideological innuendos stand a chance, this mind is clear and pure.

Having kids is weird.. you kind of bring human souls into the world and maintain legacy of mankind, yet you constantly feel like guilty shit, you're covered in shit and people treat you like shit.

Anyways es ceru ka shogad man izdosies atrast jaunu darbu kaa divu beernu mammai kas nav straadaajusi vairaak kaa gadu, un kuras ieprieksheejaa buutiiba, smadzenes, un jebkaada speeja uz logosu ir anihileetas. Es ceru ka mums pietiks naudas eedienam. Es ceru ka mani beerni buus kaa mazi Tarkovskiji, kuriem nevajag mantas bet vieniigi bumbuleet starp miglainiem kokiem un kriptiskaam peljkjeem. Es ceru ka es izdziivoshu fiziski, neguljot un neruupeejoties par savu veseliibu.
Jo vispaar katra diena kur ir veseliiba un eediens un reekjini nomaksaati ir dzidra oaaze un paradiizes eleksiirs - paldies, tev Dievinj, mums tachu arvien ir deep understanding, so no words are required.

Ik pa laikam arvien gribas kaut ko ierakstiit, not to feel lonely in my thoughts. Bet tad uzreiz praats burkshkj "Nav ko shitaadas voblas gvelzt!"

Taa it kaa visi teikumi buutu kjeceriibas un maanjticiigi apdraudeejumi. Tas it kaa Visums uzreiz atbildeetu "Taa ja? Tu tam tiesham tici? Ok tad es tev paraadiishu siikaa lose."

I'm just really scared of God all the time, or rather that force prompts one to transcend lies.

Ok, seksisti. Varbuut juus ljech8ijay par nabaga feministeem, kas negrib viir8eshus un gjimeni bet vienkaarshi grib chilot un pelniit un celjot un justies kaa cilveeki. Bet juust n3zi at kaa ir justies kaa mazajai pelnrushkjiitei kalponiitei, kura jau 2 meeneshus domaa vai buut tik reckless and bold, lai sev beidzot nopirktu leggingus pir.o reizi pa 2 gadiem. Vai kalponiitei, kurai nav laika labot gramatikas kljuudas, jo jebkuraa momentaa siiks overlords izraus telefonu no rokaam, lai atgaadinaatu par naakamo chore kas tev jaarukaa. Vai pel rushkjei, kurai ir aizaugushi auskaru caurminji jo peedeejo reizi liki auskarus 2023. Gadaa un nagus esmu uzlakojusi tiwshi 1 reizi kopsh 2021. Gada vasaras.

Anyways, feministes vienkaarshi grib buut cilveeki.

Kaapeec maateem tik slikti sanak buut cilveekiem? Maybe I am just not cut out for hard work.

Shodien R prasiiju vai vinjam kaadreiz ir dad guilt.. vinjsh, pilniigi identiskaa manieree kaa dads of Instagram atbild, ka 'what's that?'. Tad es njemos vinjam skaidrot un atstaastiit, kaa maates juutaas vainiigas par pilniigi visu, ko dara vai nedara, un vai vinjam kaadreiz ir taads moments par jebko when it comes to kids.. vinjsh protams, tajaa pashaa manieree atbild 'huh, no?'

Is that a mom thing or just a woman thing in general? Taakaa my brain has been damaged by not having slept in 3 years, es nekaadi neatceros vai es jutos tik bezdibeniigi vainiiga par visu arii pre kids as well?

Then again, mr brightside says, when you have too much guilty feeling it turns into unfeeling it too intensely, and it sort of numbs itself out. And then if you manage to steer clear of being all cynical and bitter and aesthetic pathetic about it, you become just a tiny bit more productive and fine in your heart.

2 slimi beerni un pati slima is my Aquarius retrograde. Neesam bijushi aaraa nedeelju, but i have a new lust for life jo ir atgriezusies garsha un smarzha. Tagad tikai gaidu kad chunky izveseljosies, kad smart pants beigs punjkjoties un kad R turpinaas buut strong male that gets no virus.

Plus muusu eekaa vakar bija ugunsgreeks. Looks like we need to buy a lottery ticket.

Cik ilgi cilveeks var izdziivot, mostoties ik peec stundas. Liidz ko mana saapiigaa galva iegrimst miikstaa, smarshiigaa spilventinjaa gultas kaajgalii, taa kaads kunkst un vaid un spaarda un prasa, lai es nakts viduu atkal seezhu un sintezeeju asinis pienaa, vientulji lasot bezjeedziigi banaalus tviitus par Trampu vai visaadiem muusdienu AI spokiem. I feel drained and lonely and everything hurts. Labi, man taa buutu paradiize mosties 5 no riita ja vien es vareetu paguleet 3 stundas no vietas. Bet mosties ik peec stundas, taa nav zoliida situaacija.

Kaapeec citas mammas ir normaalas un speej izveidot veseliigus grafikus kameer es esmu muuzhiigaa self inflicted cieteeja.

Es senaak biju cilveeks ar domaam un kaut minimaalu bet esoshu praata coherence. Tagad es esmu kaut kaads tireklis, saapiigs receklis, un mans ieksheejais eksistenciaalists ir vispaar aizgaajis groteskaa AI stila Pessoa demonaa.

Protams, ka parenthood ir laime pilniiga ar kafiju rudeniigaa parkaa, kad tu esi izguleejies un kad visi ir veseli. Bet kad tu esi notriecies ar saapiigaam, vientuljaam smadzeneem then you know that I'm no good.

PHEW

Tas kaa visas lielaas slaveniibas atbalsta Kamalu ir sheer creepy. Un es pat nezinu kaapeec, it just gives me weird shudder and a sense of doomy reconfirmation?

Iedomaajieties dziivi, kur viena domineejoshaakaa doma dienu un nakti ir, ko naakamo vajag sakaartot. Taa ir mana dziive, bezgaliiga nekaartiiba, ko es vaargi meegjinu katru dienu, katru stundu, katru minuuti kaartot, and mostly it is all relentlessly futile. Protams es tikuntaa esmu laimiiga. Vieniigais, man ir jautaajums - vai citus cilveekus nekaartiiba arii tik dramatiski ievaino?

Jau atkal, atliek no riita izdzert bloody kafiju, un esiiba ir vieglinja un skaistinja kaa omuliiga ozolziiliite oranzhiigajaas rudentinja lapaas dusot. No riita pirms izdomaataas probleemas atkal izdomaajas.

Es sort of gribu izlasiit Borisa Dzhonsona memuaaru.

Having children is the biggest fear and anxiety and dread there can ever be. The key is to realize fear is a natural and a necessary part of existence, especially of motherhood. It is a perilous mission to be survived.

Dahzreiz man vienkaarshi gribas raudaat no taa, cik smags slogs ir konstantas bailes par vinjiem. Cik daudz bailju smadzenes vispaar var iztureet?

Es laikam beidzot saprotu, kaapeec vairs nevaru paskatiities shausmenes vai jebko remotely a tad too spooky. Mans praats ir tik piesaatinaats ar baileem, ka its just brutally way too much to consume any extra fear voluntarily.

Dudes, don't watch the Substance tho.

"Love isn't something natural. Rather it requires discipline, concentration, patience, faith, and the overcoming of narcissism. It isn't a feeling, it is a practice."

Esmu aizvadiijusi teju 7 meeneshus dekreetaa, un veel 2 meeneshi palikushi ar pabalstu un 3 bez pabalstiem.

Domaashana par darbu man shkjiet tik absurda it kaa es buutu 5gadnieks kam tagad jaaliek LinkedIn savs rezumee un jaapretendee uz poziicijaam lol.

Es esmu tik intensiivi un ilgi pavadiijusi savas ikdienas esot beerns + apkopeeja, ka es nezinu vairs kaa buut pieaugushais vai straadaat vai lietot datoru. Man pat knapi sanaak buut sievietei un sievai. Es juutos kaa yucky dumb apkopeeja, kuras vieniigais skillset ir deranged loving and servitude for tiny humans.

Es atkal esmu taa kokosriekstu bulcinju paardeveeja no Zaaliishu pagrabinja kafejniicas.

Es visu laiku naivaa kristieshu manieree flirteeju ar sveeto garu, ka varbuut es vinneeshu loterijaa un nebuus jaatgriezhas darbaa?

Atstaat beernus childcare lai ietu pelniit naudu ko maksaat childcare lai tiktu pie ekstra paaris simtiem maarcinju par ko var nopirkt basic paartiku un toletes papiiru 2 nedeeljaam, shkjiet banaali un visvairaak - cietsirdiigi.

Basically if you want to be caring natural present mother don't be poor.

Also amn ir bail kad S un K paaugsies un ieraudziis ka vinju mammai nav karjera and she is not intellectual therefore they will dismiss my authority and pity me.

Buut laamei citu aciis is a kick but having children makes everything for real and emotionally painful, all your shortcomings and faults and sins.

Es galvenokaart juutos kaa slikta maate, jo nespeeju iedot beerniem vairaak par miilestiibu un loloshanu, un unlimited breastmilk on tap. Es neesmu intelektuaala un aizraujosha, taapeec visu laiku ir sajuuta ka neattiistu S potenciaalu, jo vinjsh ir tik gjeniaals un pashapziniigs jau 3 gadu vecumaa. Miilestiiba vien ir garlaiciiga un neiedod neko, lai staatos pretim pasaulei.

dudes, Slow Horses tho

Ok, so es Latvijaa nebiju bijusi 2 gadus. Un tagad sheit esot man atkal jaaraud un jaatripo bumbas, protams.

Pirkaart jau nolaizhoties - saldais Riigas gaiss ir kaa dzidrs eleksiirs, kas glaasta Anglijas suuri noplikjeeto vaigu.

Naakamkaart, pilniigi viss ko acs skata ir attiistiita, civilizeeta, zoliida valsts, kameer Anglija ir dabiski treshaas pasaules valsts.

Drogas always hits differently.

Rimi hits differently.

Everything hits my soul differently.

Bet pavisam transcendentaali un eksistenciaali nopietni - cilveeki te ir tik skaisti un kustaas un dziivo kaa viens organisms. Deelj taa arii gaisa energjeetika ir gluda un viegla un dziedeejosha, bez psihiskiem trauceejumjem un saraustiijumiem, un draudiem, kaa Anglijaa.

Atrasties Riigaa. 1. (2.) Septembrii pavisam ir gariiga gavile! Tik daudz zoliidas un gliitas jaunaas paaudzes ar pukjiiteem redzeet vienuviet - naakotne, ceriiba, Dieva uzvara un muuzhiigais apsoliijums!

Es nevaru aptvert sho gariigo bagaatiibu, kas arvien rada Latviju. Es varu tikai saldseeriigi izsamist un samierinaaties!

People are insane not to cherish every tedious moment of their life, not to feel grateful for the smallest simplicities, not to feel completely rich with roof, food and few loved ones. Every such given moment is heaven on earth.

Dazhreiz man ir tik ljoti bail no vaardiem, ko tie vareetu noziimeet, izraisiit, no to speeka, noburtiibas. Klusumu vismaz neviens neredz.. tikmeer kameer par to nepazinjo.

Shodien playground satiku fellow mammu kura vispaar pateica, ka it's nurseries that cause autism. Ka mazam beernam pavadiit laiku ar totaaliem sveshiniekiem ir pietiekams trieciens psihei, lai ko taadu izraisiitu.

Tad ieguugleeju par mother's gaze for infants development, and how non-maternal care deprives of it.

Tad ieguugleeju kaa autism rates are most prevalent in feminist countries that "supports" working moms and have have pronounced nursery - non-maternal care trend.

Whoa, papinj!

Is God a permissive/coddling parent?

"There is a pleasure in the victory and wonder of being simple."

"There is a victory in the pleasure and wonder of being simple."

Tik biezhi man ir sirdij svariigas atzinjas ko pierakstiit, bet dziive ir tik neatkariiga no manaam domaam un speeji pluustosha, ka visas atzinjas kaut kur maznoziimiigi aizripo. Bet tas ir labi, ja dziive ir galvenaaka par praatuljojumiem.

"So, the more you try to change people, is a reflection of your ego avoiding to make a change within yourself."

The one where abuelita burns a pot of beans on the stove, house is consumed by smoke demons, your partner stays up all night jamming with ozone machine, and you and the kids take shelter with friends who give you gnochi and coffee and toast and unconditional help." :')

Taa kaa beerni kopee pieaugusho visu, tad peedeejaa laikaa, ja es izdaru kaut ko kas S neshkjiet pienjemams, vinjsh saka "mamma, naughty boy!"

Par trigger warnings teaatros..bet arii par eksistenci innit:

"'Don’t come if you are worried’
He told an audience at London South Bank University: “How do you do [content warnings] for Titus Andronicus? You just don’t come. Don’t come if you are worried, if you are anxious – stay away.”"

Es nogalee pirmo reizi pa daudziem gadiem aizgaaju uz karsto jogu, jo R mani piespieda (laikam domaa ka es esmu resna taatad, kas es dabiski esmu, nodziivojusies liidz ekstra 8kg peec K piedzimshanas).

Un man palika jautri, jo es atceros kaa pirmo reizi uzsaaku karsto jogu Birmingham pirms kaadiem 14 gadiem I think!? Kad biju piipeejosha, dzerstosha, staigaajosha depresiiva boheema. Parstaa rutiina bija pagjiraina punishment joga pecpusdienaa, un tad uzreiz uz baaru dzert liidz oblivion.

Tagad esmu slobby, fluffy divu beernu mamma, kur mana vieniigaa doma uzreiz peec jogas ir paspeet maajaas, lai nenokaveetu K ik 3 stundu breastfeeding window.

What people don't understand is that motherhood is an ongoing operation, which you simply cannot take a coffee break from, forever!

It's like telling Muad'Dib to take a break from Harkonens and Fremen drama to go have a chill late and watch a movie or pamper himself or something.

Just as any operative you have a suitable uniform which is milk or food stained chavy clothes, and there is no 'me time', that is unprofessional and delusional, and possibly harmful.

And you are forever drained and depleted and barely alive, as you have drank the worm poison and there is no going back, love.

The lisan al gaib dude :D - my concise spiritual aspiration.

Seriously, how do people afford food?