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Aug. 10th, 2014|04:09 am |
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This is merely to comment my own representation of that velvet acid christ song, but I always feel like there's a lot of sadness/weakness covered up by resentment for one's existence in it. It's like a yearning for home that can never be satisfied because there's no will to revisit home... I feel this sadness for my existence here. In the same time I know that I came here for a reason. But I always tried to escape through religion, drugs, dreams, movies, music, everything. I am not happy here. It's hard being here, I think we all have our own style of sadness being here, some more than others, and/or some more aware of it than others. I've never felt I belonged here as human... well I mean I learning to accept it though. As I see how I'm learning from all of this, as hard as that is, I am able to release myself from the dread more and more, through principly being sick of myself not choosing to be happy regardless of the situation... to lighten up about it all really. But anyway. It's an... interesting.. journey that's for sure.. a pretty badass one in a way :O |
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