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Sunday, April 13th, 2003
| Time |
Event |
| 3:00p |
Latvija Sarauj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE HOCKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RULEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS!!!! THAT`S THE BASE OF IT`S APPEAL!!! WIN WIN WIN | | 3:10p |
the question
people are full of questions, right ok, i get it, full and full of questions, what else, can we answear them? yeah we can. but try to figurev out the answear is a nother question,a question of time, but still a question. just like my mind is a question.....hmmm...
i`m tryin to find an answear to a question that i`m afraid to ask........ i`m afraid of the truth and the hurtin that i can have after finding the answear to the question.....oh shit fuck it, i can try yeah, sure, damn, help, Jesus i`m a stupid jerkoff!!!!!!!!!! my mind is lost, it has stopped thinking about the meanings in my life! Why so, huh? Why? i wanna think about my friends and my family, my cat, not about my fucked up life with full of shit and bullshit or whatever! i`m just a lost soul tryin to find a place where i can stay forever! where i can be happy, without the pain and hurting! no more pain that the thought of my fucked up life causes me, NO! i wanna change, i wanna change the people around me, just that i can save myself, save ny soul! that`s all i want, i wanna save myself, save my soul! I want to set my mind free! | | 5:31p |
somethin i found today, lookin through the old stuff of mine
~Life sux as it is on it`s way of living it. why do people try to make their lives be much better, but howcome they do it as it`s already said that it has its path already walken! it`s not necesserally to try to make it longer, it`s not needed! you smoke, you drink, you do drugs, you listen to the most depressing music you can find! Try, try, try and try to make it! DAMN YOU SHIT! people are born to suffer, to realize that it sux as the other half of you, the depressed one!
Kill me! Kill me! Kill me! No, you can`t kill me because it`s against your rules! it`s against all the things you have ever learned! they just tell you "Yeah, i hate you, i wanna kill you, plus you make me sick!", but when it comes to killing you, they stop and tell you that they were just jokking around! yeah, sure it`s against your own rules! The FUCKED UP RULES, that humans have made just to keep us under control! God, i wish there were no rules, no rules, that everyone would be able to do what they wanna do and be able to do what they are asked for!
No pain, no suffering, just pure living! i try to do it, but it`s impossible, cause my mind doesn`t work, it`s dead - but unfortunetly the body still works! Leave it! Let me go! It`s out, it`s done! |
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