11:44 pm"I dont want to be in the band anymore. Unknown pleasures was it. I was happy. I never meant for it to grow like this. When Im up there, singing. They dont understand how much i give. And now it affects me. Now they want more..Its like its not happening to me but..someone pretending to be me. Someone dressed in my skin. Now were going to America. I have no control anymore. I dont know what to do. They expect me to give more. And I dont know if i can."