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Awkwardness. [Apr. 24th, 2017|09:52 am]
[Sajūtas | nervous]
[Skaņas |Obeson - I think I love you]

It's everywhere. Move along. Move along.
It's going to be all okay.
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What's missing [Apr. 14th, 2017|10:59 pm]
[Sajūtas | surprised]
[Skaņas |Sofi de la Torre - Flex your way out]

How to be really, truly selfish.
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Gastritis is an arsehole [Apr. 11th, 2017|05:50 pm]
Its quite horrible wanting to eat but not being able to eat. The nausea and feeling of ''eww'' is everywhere.
1/3 cup of soup? Somehow.
1 Tiny piece of bread? Somehow.
1 Kiwi? best thing of the day

Kids, never get this.
Its horrible.

Man reāli šķiet, ka tā ir mana organisma atbilde uz: es vairs negribu iet pēc darba iedzert alu. Tā kā kolēģi nekad neļāva atteikties, tad notika šis.
Mīkstčaulības rezultātā ķermenis pats dara savu lietu.
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#NoBantz :( [Mar. 30th, 2017|11:05 pm]
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[Sajūtas | lonely]
[Skaņas |Koda- The last stand]

Seat swap is a horrible thing. My new ''neighbours'' behind me were talking about rugby and how to pick up waitresses.
I always thought it's all about bending the knees and using your back, but what do I know.
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Sorry for not answering. I was too busy trying to fly away. [Mar. 26th, 2017|05:17 pm]
[Skaņas |In love with a ghost]

Dienas klusumā ir vislabākās :3
Hm, bet tikai tad, ja aiz loga ir saule un silda man kāju pirkstus.
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Mammis ciemā [Mar. 20th, 2017|12:55 pm]
Laikam nevaru īsti piecas dienas no vietas izturēt mammi non-stopā, bet tā jau nav ne vainas. Bijām uz pludmali. Ar visu trako vēju un auksto sauli, diena bija lieliska. Skotu zivju zupa vispār uzlika punktu uz ''i''.
Esmu dīvains bērns. Vajadzētu saprast kas un kā.
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I am in no obligation towards others [Mar. 11th, 2017|12:21 am]
[Skaņas |Placebo - Meds]

My opinions of people I deal with are too idealistic. I always believe they will act in a sensible, intelligent way. And then I get hurt and disappointed when they don't.
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Decisions Decisions [Feb. 28th, 2017|09:37 am]
[Sajūtas | worried]

Sigur Ros Septembrī Glāsgovā. Dikti tālu, samērā padārgi, nav pēc tam kur palikt. Wat to doo. Wat to doo

-Bet gribās
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Tower Defence CC [Feb. 18th, 2017|10:19 pm]
[Sajūtas | numb]
[Skaņas |Jaymes Young- Don't hurt me]

Rakstu savu dizaina testu un jūtos kā dūra. Tāda sajūta, ka pirmo reizi dzīvē jāraksta (tas jau nekas, ka gan baķi, gan visu pārējo, ieskaitot desmitiem eseju angliski esmu ar ļoti labiem rezultātiem dzīves laikā 'uzbliezusi').
Pēkšņi nesaprotu kā strādā monetisation, retention un analytic level creation.

Varbūt jāizguļas. Paģirās censties radīt ko skaistu un nopietnu nemaz nav tik labi. Sirdssāpēs arī ne.
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Baby step [Feb. 9th, 2017|10:29 pm]
[Skaņas |As Seas Exhale - Paper Lungs, Broken Bones]

Šodien beidzot saņēmos un aizgāju parunāties ar Design Manager. It kā veras vaļā viena dizaina pozīcija. Nevarēju saprast, vai es drīkstu pieteikties, vai nē.
''Fire away''
So I did.
Mazliet baisi. Negribas jau uz neko sacerēties, bet ar kaut ko ir jāsāk. Every failure is a step to the victory or something.

On a different note>
Sapnī redzēju @snurfis ar vīra kungu. Jūs man rādījāt savas jaunās mājas ledusskapi, kas bija piebāzts ar sushi un groziņiem ar iebiezināto pienu. Hashtag - buržuji.
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I can't bweethe.. [Feb. 3rd, 2017|03:55 pm]
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[Sajūtas | cynical]

Trump and his vision actually have a lot in common with UFO-enthusiast cults. They’re both charlatans, selling snake oil. His appeal lies in the salvific vision he has sold to his supporters, a compelling narrative of paradise past, the fallen present, and a glorious future. For his followers, it is essential to reinterpret apparent facts so they fit this narrative—otherwise they lose the hope it provides and the dignity they’ve invested in its truth.


..False prophets at their best. Doomsday I summon thee!
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How do you know what sad underwear tastes like? [Jan. 30th, 2017|09:37 pm]
Pirmdienas pica. Bija paredzēts kaut kas veselīgs, bet nu neko.
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I finally realised my new years resolution [Jan. 22nd, 2017|03:02 pm]
[Sajūtas | cold]
[Skaņas |Ewert and two Dragons - Sailor Man]

Only to pursue things that make me happy.
No less.
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Best advice I've seen lately [Jan. 17th, 2017|11:36 pm]
Just do eat.
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[Jan. 5th, 2017|02:08 pm]
Būt mājās ir kā būt kāda cita realitātē. Būt mājās ir kā dzert kakao pie kamīna slēpošanas kūrortā, jo zini, ka drīz būs jābrauc atpakaļ uz īsto dzīvi.
Būt mājās, škiet, ir nebūt sev.
Kur īsti ir manas mājas?
I don't know anymore.
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Tik grūti no Skotijas uz Latviju ceļot [Dec. 20th, 2016|02:27 pm]
Kaut kādas ačgārnas lidmašīnas, dārgi un briesmīgi. Ko es 4 stundas Šipholā darīšu? :(

Stulbā Londona. Privilēģijas.
Gr.
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B96 [Dec. 12th, 2016|01:07 am]
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[Sajūtas | anxious]
[Skaņas |Silbermond - B96]

Tāda sajūta, ka beidzot kaut kam ir jāpiepildās. Noslēgumam of sorts. Lēni.
Jāpeld līdz straumes beigām nesākot neko jaunu.
Līdz šim kaut kā pļurinājos pa virsu, no viena krasta uz otru.
Ko es īsti gribu>? Ko es īsti šeit daru>?
Tāds kā no meža iznācis dažreiz.
Hm.
Ja sirds nebūtu tik dumja, varētu klausīt.
Nākamgad gan. Mērķi, mērkaķi, vajadzības, nevajadzības, dzīvības un viss, kas bijis. Jānoliek.
Vienmēr visu līdz nēsājot tikai kājas un sirds sāp.
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Siamese [Dec. 7th, 2016|02:20 pm]
[Sajūtas | jubilant]
[Skaņas |Echos - Gold]

Dzimšinsdiena, param param :3
Izpildīju kaķu testu. Accurate :/ Duno how I feel about that :D

As a Siamese cat you like to dress to impress and look sophisticated like, always.
You are opinionated and talkative. You tell people exactly what you think and you expect them to pay attention and and act on your advice.
You will get upset if people don't take care of you enough. You love to be loved.

Pūks.
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But it's not. [Nov. 30th, 2016|10:55 pm]
[Sajūtas | uncomfortable]
[Skaņas |We Are All Astronauts - Doves]

I feel when we are kids, we know how to be happy. We are happy just like that. Living makes us happy. It's the natural state of being.
As we grow up, we need to learn how to be happy with ourselves and the world again, because somewhere on the way we allowed disappointment to take over. We thought it's natural to be like this.
But it's not.
We simply forgot. And then, with each bit of happiness comes a bit of guilt: do I deserve this? Is this real? What if it all ends?
Disappointment creeps in and again, we feel it's alright, because it's what being an adult is like.
But it's not.
Happiness does not carry guilt or anxiety.
It's the disappointment and the fear that do.
Because we do.
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[Nov. 23rd, 2016|03:25 pm]
Death is a sign to take a rest, leave it alone, forget and be at peace.
That or it will make you.
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