I wanted to write something. Too many things came across my mind:

1. Well...first of all - I am happy again! After half a year of unreasonable depression, I'm back on track. My one and only, my real "ME" is Happiness! I do have a clue, what made the change to take place over the past weeks, and I hope to recall the lesson next time the "devil" comes around the corner.
2. My BIG dream of 2003 is COMING TRUE! I've been willing to spend a month in Spain ever since, but every summer something stopped me from fulfilling this dream. Well - best things come at the best time - my Santa Claus is knocking on my door!
3. I have been loved so much I can't handle it. I am SO HAPPY for having all these people around me! Dear God, I THANK YOU for showing me, how loving people can result in a miraculous flow of love that's bigger than the Niagara Waterfall! I'm all wet (yeah, I know what you thought of! :D) by love being showered all over me. Thank you. Thank you, thank you!
4. I am getting old. I feel old. I am getting unattached. I have quit caring for the material things. I have quit caring for my survival... My life has been so great and fulfilled I could die today with no regrets. Except for maybe not telling you all enough how much I have loved you.

I love you all very much!

Yeah, and now I'm throwing a party at my friends house! Too bad - he said "mi casa es su casa" :D He knows me well enough though...he should have imagined I wouldn't behave :D He is from Hungary. The invited friends are from all over Europe. Life has changed much...My parents didn't know there is a whole world behind "the wall" until they were married. I have the world in my home... (sun)