koi's Journal

damn
l'oiseau

fuck. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. i am so mad at myself. please can i just not exist for a bit? or stop time? i do not even feel any panic coming up about the assignments i have not done. i am doing literally anything but studying. i do not think it has ever been this bloody bad. people keep saying "just start" and some other bullshit like that, but what do you mean, just start?? i literally have the attention span of a three year old, i pick up the book and put it down like a minute later. also i am exhausted. literally did this to myself, got no one to blame. this is borderline self harm, by that i mean obviously i am stressed, will not sleep tonight practically at all because i have to do the assignment etc. have been eating shit food as well. why am i like this? what the fuck is wrong with me? help.

Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: worlds away by lil peep