septiņjūdžu zābaks' Journal

2:28pm: why do i keep seeing this old plum tree? i hope i will get there
somebody was trying to cheat me i don't know, maybe it was just a trick , they do not listen to me when i tell them i am a fool all the time

2:22pm: floating in air, it is so full of life right now

2:10pm: note to remember

1:57pm: omg it is sooooo good getting your ultimate sleep

10:33pm: maybe all this is just a very bad literature

10:07pm: irrational longing for good literature right now
but my hard drive is full of Jung's books (not in mood right now) and millions of unnecessary pictures from past i would probably never look at again

3:26pm: did you create the content of my sentence? ok good luck with digestive system, but don’t say it is my responsibility

2:01pm: as i got it:
you can torture a person just by being alive and doing your own business
as the hate of this person for you is so great , it is killing them
on basis of this fact everyone else also got the rights to kill you

wtf, where am i? and more importantly do i want to be alive here?

9:07pm: i don’t know what most of my posts mean actually
but i love the feeling when i can say something with my spine only

3:17pm: Ma Beshbaa Mennek
mah thortehsh habaa egedeen
sukjiih biith
hahna musha ehnet maniih

1:00pm: i could scream how much i love coffee

12:54pm: when i close my eyes, i see lots of gray and gray-ish-ly pastel-ish yellow. also something broken, little bit of pastel-green. reminds me of some surreal painting . i dont know what this means

12:10pm: on the ground, where used to grow the old apple tree (children were climbing in the summer and filling pockets with apples in the fall) now were lying just two fresh graves of pets, one of them was with a boston terrier picture, other with small yellow rain lily

12:49am: my skin is too sensitive, i have to maintain myself at 0 degrees or lower
this is ridiculous
but at least i will not visit anyone uninvited

6:35pm: things you can't
you can't control anyone's feelings
you can't control anyone's choices
you can't control anyone's life

6:05pm: each night i dream of my exes, each night of different one
all those untold words that should have been said but were not

1:28pm: omg i'm so grown up

7:39pm: все не так уж важно
все не так уж важно

1:13pm: elephants are afraid of crossing bridges

5:21pm: он пришёл в себя -
у кровати было натоптано

3:46pm: men are supposed to be demonised and put in cages. later we are scattering them with graceful snowflakes and rose petals, addressing our prayers upon heavenly blue-gold face of decapitated god

11:40pm: your wounds’re caused by your own armour only

9:06pm: she is the sweetest girl in universe lightly waving boxing gloves in her hair looking cool as jazz

8:52pm: my heart is full of love
don't wanna see no one
pa pa para pa pa

5:41pm: you have to look with eyes closed if you want to see me