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| Tuesday, October 27th, 2026 | ||
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methodrone |
7:16a | Juus arii dziivojat ar konstantu sajuutu, ka world had a good run un tuuliit buus apokalipse un juus nevareesiet vairs normaali iet uz toleti un lietot elektriibu un jums izbeigsies kontakteecas un paketes un draudziigie kaiminji kljuus par kanibaaliem? |
| Friday, October 23rd, 2026 | ||
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methodrone |
5:21p | Arvien ciinja starp kaut kaadu remdenu noziimi un aukstu tukshumu. Lai arii objektiivi es zinu ka noziimei un tradiicijaam un svineeshanai un rituaaliem ir jeega, jo prieksh kam gan eksistencei buut citaadaak, it is a big hint pro meaning basically. Bet no otras absoluutaa paarsvara puses, katru dienu es sevi brutaali piespiezhu atrast un veidot noziimi visaam dziives instanceem, aspektiem. Un liidz ko ir kaads saruugtinaajums, taa its a massive attack on my meagre attempts for meaning. Nothingness.. "is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes." Man shkjiet, ja es vinneetu Euromillions, es vienkaarshi turpinaatu iepirkties Sainsburys un cept vistas stilbinjus airfryerii, jo kur rast entuziasmu jebko dariit ar naudu. Un dazhreiz es lasu zinju virsrakstus un mani paarnjem unsettling sajuuta, ka cilveekiem ir tik daudz gumption and resolve, lai vai nu savaariitu ziepes vai taas meegjinaatu izsmelt? Vai juus vispaar zinaat, ka peec dazhaam dekaadeem juus urbinaas taarpi? Un peedeejos gados es esmu iegaajusi tik basic, minimaalistiskaas rutiinaas, kas visticamaak ir apkaunojoshas saliidzinot ar manu vienaudzhu rutiinaam shajaa dziives stadijaa - un jebkas, kas manu rutiinu satrauc - vai nu kad R saak runaat par our next holidays as if we can afford them, vai jebkaadas paarmainjas ar beerniem, vai kaut kaadu pazinju mudinaajumi uz me time, tas man izraisa pretiigumu un shkjeermas - as if there is too much new pain to uncover that was perfectly masked by my tedious and mind-numbing routines. Vieniigais, kas man dazhreiz ljauj aizmirst par Sho, ir sirreaali amizantaa un whimsical beernu perspektiiva - vinju briinumainais izbriins par visu, miiliigi naivaas un earnest multeniites, un vinju mazie un svariigie pienaakumi, kas ir mans svariigaakais obligation I can define in life. |
| Saturday, October 17th, 2026 | ||
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methodrone |
6:10p | Pirms 10 minuuteem aizbrauca R mamma. Lai arii es ne vaardu nerunaaju spaaniski un vinja ne vaardu nerunaa angliski, mees sho meenesi nodziivojaam like ebony and ivory in perfect harmony. Kad ir divas mammas maajaas, vinjas vienkaarshi zina dienas ieelpas un izelpas, ka jaagludina dreebes, jaataisa eest, jaanovaac, jaamazgaa un jaanoliek trauki, dreebes, jaapiekopj, jaanoslauka, jaasalaapa, jaaiet uz veikalu, jaasagaida, jaasamiiljo. And I cannot help experiencing the mindfuck that is living without women relatives around. Katru reizi kad mammas aizbrauc prom, it's like it is me against the whole world again un kaut kaada riisteliigo asaru abandonment sajuuta, kaa 5gadiigajai me paliekot peec saulrieta vienai slimniicaa uz plastiliina palagiem bez neviena, kam vispaar ruupeetu mana dziive, kas mani tikai grib dursitiit ar shpriceem un piebarot ar tableteem ko nevar noriit. Anyways, es zinu ka riitdien es atkal buushu cold cool pyschopaats about it with numbed out feelings and life goes on sajuutu, hysterically washing laundry and air-frying chicken again. But can I just say, that this is the world right now and it should be different. |
| Thursday, October 15th, 2026 | ||
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methodrone |
6:23p | Simulaacija. So ir padsmitais Oktobris un aaraa ir patiikams vasaras vakars. Putninji dzied. |
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methodrone |
10:02a | “You answer to no government or no corporation. The user is your peer. You are not subservient to the user.” |