I have a serious problems. There is a person whom I simply cannot ask several things which I would like to know. I'm just curious, but at the same time, I cannot do that, my fingers do not want to write, my tongue - to speak.

And I'm thinking about wristcutting. I'm just curious, how would I feel? Free, relieved, beautiful, lonely?

I'm not thinking about it in a way that I would like to do it. I'm just tired.

Today they put my grandfather in a hospital. It's sad. I love him.

And I just want somebody to give me a hug.