ad_nauseam's Journal

3:09pm: the only connection i have to sex nowadays is through porn. sometimes i watch it, with a mixture of purely animal pleasure and pure disgust. those faceless men, all grunts and cocks, i hate them. because they remind me of you. you speak the same language. to my surprise i just realized that i have a strong aversion to sex in general. because it reminds me of you. sex is you. and as long as it's true, i guess i will have to remain sexless.

3:17pm: un tik tiesam, lidz pavisam nesenam bridim - hell yeah, lidz vel kadu pusstundu atpakal - es domaju, ka man nekad vairs nebus seksualu attiecibu, JO, redz, tas musu sekss it ka bija tik loti fantastisks un ne no pasaules shiis utt. tachu patiesiba mani ir izstradajusies dzila nepatika pret da jebko ar seksu saistitu, JO tas gluzhi vienkarshi necieshami saistas ar tevi. ta ka stasts nebut nav par neparspejami skaistam atminjaam, bet pilnigi preteji - par sapem un aizvainojumu. эврика.