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| Monday, July 20th, 2026 | ||
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7:44a | esmu Dieva bērns. MI saka, tev nav jānes tēva smagums, un es neesmu empāts. es vnk redzēju, cik smaga bija visa viņa dzīve, kas beidzās ar suicide, un es nebiju tēva gribēts, pat atklāti pateikts man tik slikti, ka turpināt dzīvot ir smagi, es piecēlos un gāju. viņam pašam bija tik grūti. tik smags liktenis. kurš vēl viņam palīdzēs. es paņēmu viņu uz pleciem. es neesmu spīdeklis. man pašam iet pietiekami slikti. un esmu depresīvs kā Laura Palmere, bet es smejos. citu iespēju nav |
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7:14a | par tēvu jau ir teikts, es no viņa vārdiem neizdzīvotu. tik smags liktenis, un esmu pieteicies Dievam, mēs iznāksim kopā, jau 1993, kad viņš aizgāja. es domāju, tāpēc man ir tik smagi, kā 4 laurām palmerēm kopā. es redzu lielu gaismu dēļ mammas bezgalīgās mīlestības, un milzīgu tumsu dēļ tēva (nē, es neesmu bijis izvarots, bet mentāli). es gribu tēvu iznest gaismā. un te ir tikai 2 varianti. der tikai viens, mēs ar tēvu iziesim gaismā. mission possible, bet tik hardcore. tikai man, kam ir tik milzīgs spēks, tas var izdoties, un tas būs eposos rakstīts |
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6:58a | I can add, holding of that stupid theory, because, I am stupid. I havn't read any wisdom theories. books, "if earth father is mirror of real God. I will be best for him. drunk, indifferent, such nonsense that I really am, but pocketful of love, with those stupid small pennies I got". "son, it's only I got for you" |
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6:19a | I've been visited night bar tonight for three times with serious intentions, And as far u know me, as best kindest person, just give me a drink, and telling them details, usually people don't share. Not to abuse them, bet tell, u don't have to be afraid of me. I last, now. barreely could stay stood, I was holding to every car on street, many times crushing down, and choked my teeth "i still can go". And my mind is so bright no matter what my legs can offer". There is psychology fancy theory. Earth father is mirror, how your son will perceive real God." I am so drunk, and I see – it's absolute bullshit. I am much more clever than some grand philosophes. My Earth father hated me, in words said such ugly things about me beeing alive, I don't want to repeat, total death destination, his attitude. But my love with God, only one real God, is absolutely opposite. I love God, and I feel every second, he loves me |