Sometimes I go to most peaceful place I ever know. With no people around. I take cigarette out of my pocket and smoke it, slowly breathing and trying to forget everything. Just looking out of window… looking at the sky.

Sometimes I fill my bathtub with water. I swim away from memories, with head in water. With no sound and eyes closed, thinking till I can’t think anymore. And then I take my head out of water.

Just moment after that, it is whole new world. Without feelings. All alone with myself. And then I see you and it just starts over again.