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| Thursday, January 7th, 2010 | | 1:57 am |
drained of emotions
so i really thought that today would be a good day. i mean i had a great, realxing weekend and all. i guess i just expected too much. well, in all aspects today was a pretty good day i just was in a lot of pain and then i wanted to cry. i still can't figure out why that is. maybe it's just PMS. i hope so. that would make things a lot easier to explain. i'm just in a depressed state right now which sucks. i hate when that happens. oh well tomorrow's another day. | | Wednesday, January 6th, 2010 | | 1:45 am |
for some reason he knows how to make me feel like crap without even knowing that he's doing it
for some reason he knows how to make me feel like crap without even knowing that he's doing it. | | Monday, January 4th, 2010 | | 9:37 pm |
stupidity
so i just took a quiz to see what friends character i am and my roommates will be pleased to know that...... (drumroll please)I'm Phoebe Buffay from Friends!Take the Friends Quiz here.created by | | Sunday, January 3rd, 2010 | | 6:21 pm |
happiness and bitterness all at once
FINALLY!!!! they shipped my computer! (leaps of joy)"Dear nicole,We are pleased to inform you that your order has been shipped."funny thing though, i went on their website to check the tracking number and it DOESN'T WORK! i've learned one thing from this experience and that is to NEVER EVER order anything from expercom.com again. done venting. now onto other things....last night at crave was so good. i'm really glad that i went. we talked about friendships and the different "levels" of friendship. i learned that most of my friendships are primarily surface level and that makes me sad. the one thing that encouraged me yesterday was that i do have one cherished friend! i've decided that i need to work on making more cherished friends. i know i already said that i needed to hear this message but I REALLY NEEDED TO HEAR THIS MESSAGE! and i think that somehting was stopping me from going becasue before crave started i was stalling so bad. i had the worst attitude toward going to crave. i was really bitter about everything. thinking about that now makes me sad that i could even have feelings like that toward church but i sure did. oh well, not anymore. | | Saturday, January 2nd, 2010 | | 5:07 pm |
ARGH!
so i FINALLY got a response from the people i ordered my computer from and this is what is said: "Hi,I talked with someone about this order this morning and thought I could pushit out the door today and I told them it would ship today. But unfortunatelyI jumped the gun. We do still have a unit allocated for you and you willdefinitely receive it. However, it hasn't come through yet and hopefullywill tomorrow. We will email you a tracking number when it ships.Thanks"that's nice but i'm getting really frusterated by this. my advice: (even though you didn't ask) DON'T ORDER ALMOST OUT OF STOCK THINGS FROM EXPERCOM.COM!!!!! i wouldn't want something like this to happen to you. | | Friday, January 1st, 2010 | | 3:15 pm |
| | Saturday, January 31st, 2009 | | 1:52 pm |
update on the computer
update on the computer: i checked the website again and they still hadn't shipped my product. i called my dad and he called the company and they promised that my computer would be shipped by the end of the day today. i really hope so! besides that today has been almost normal. we have a conference going on right now that we are supposed to be making copies of the messeges for so that's a little stressful. i've been making cds all day long. 100 cds here 200 cds there. that's about it...for now. | | Friday, January 30th, 2009 | | 12:42 pm |
frustration (still) and movies
AAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGG!! the computer i wrote about yesterday well, they STILL haven't shipped it out to me and no one is responding to the email i sent them. my dad also tried getting involved and called the company, they guy was very vague but told my dad that if i had a computer they would ship it out to me today most likely. why is it that no one is trustworthy? it makes me soooo mad. if i don't get a computer from them if doesn't look like i'll be getting one for a long time. FRUSTRATION! on another note, i saw butterfly effect last night and i liked it. i'm still thinking about it. it kinda reminded me of memento (which is my favorite movie) in a way. so twisted and awesome! well i'm gonna finish working and go home now....i need a shower. | | 4:47 am |
boy smells (good ones)
so he let me borrow his jacket yesterday and it smelled soooo good. he's adorable. here's the synopsis of the story. i stole his jacket because it was freezing at work. i didn't ask him if i could borrow it though cuz i coulndn't find him. i wore it for the rest of the day and while he was on his way out and i asked him if he wanted his jacket back. he said no and that i could keep it. so i did. i asked my roommate what cologne it was and she couldn't figure it out. i don't care. it smelled good. boys who smell good are awesome! ps- i'm not psycho because i could smell his jacket from a good four inches from my face if not farther. i wasn't sniffing his jacket all day long or something.... | | Thursday, January 29th, 2009 | | 4:09 am |
so bored!
the last two days atw ork have been ridiculously slow. no one has anything to do and i qualify as no one in this instance. i'm not kidding you, i am bored out of my mind. i'm gonna go and try to find something to do. | | Wednesday, January 28th, 2009 | | 3:28 am |
alfredo pasta
anyone know a great, awesome, fantastic recipe for alfredo pasta? i need to know cuz i'm making dinner for some of my guy friends someday. leave a comment with the recipe. thanks | | Monday, January 26th, 2009 | | 9:46 pm |
the boy.... (sigh)
he's just so darn cute sometimes! like today....here's why: i was helping him put some paneling on some shelves we built and as he's hammering nails our hands keep brushing. the main one that gives me butterflies in my tummy is this one time he was hammering away and my hand was right under his (cue cheesy chick flick music), he moved his hand down to get out of the way of the hammer and he left his hand on mine the whole time he nailed that sucker into the wall. i know, i know really cheesy and hardly anything but still it gives me butterflies. i don't know, he was being really flirty with me today. i have to say i think i know why. i was wearing his favorite jeans. they are really tight jeans that make me look like i have l-o-n-g legs and they slim me down. i was also wearing a pretty tight shirt. i looked cute today and i got attention from it. yeah! :) OH! i remember the REAL reason i wanted to live jouranl today. my co-workers an i were suppose to go to Chuck E. Cheese today for lunch (not because they have awesome pizza! j/k). we have this tradition that every new employee has to have their picture taken at CEC. we've kinda slacked on the tradition so i got everyone together but then the plans got changed and we ended up going to souplantaion instead. still a quality lunch but no Chuck E. Cheese. maybe some other time. | | 2:34 pm |
It's anonymous confession time again
It's anonymous confession time again! Please, feel free to entertain me. No ISP addresses will be recorded, so go for it if you feel so inclined. | | Sunday, January 25th, 2009 | | 12:50 pm |
Pet Food Recall If you feed your cat or dog wet food, please check out the article behind the cut.Pet Deaths Prompt Recall of Pet FoodWASHINGTON A major manufacturer of dog and cat food sold under Wal-Mart, Safeway, Kroger and other store brands recalled 60 million containers of wet pet food Friday after reports of kidney failure and deaths.An unknown number of cats and dogs suffered kidney failure and about 10 died after eating the affected pet food, Menu Foods said in announcing the North American recall. Product testing has not revealed a link explaining the reported cases of illness and death, the company said."At this juncture, we're not 100 percent sure what's happened," said Paul Henderson, the company's president and chief executive officer. However, the recalled products were made using wheat gluten purchased from a new supplier, since dropped for another source, spokeswoman Sarah Tuite said. Wheat gluten is a source of protein.The recall covers the company's "cuts and gravy" style food, which consists of chunks of meat in gravy, sold in cans and small foil pouches between Dec. 3 and March 6 throughout the U.S., Canada and Mexico.The pet food was sold by stores operated by the Kroger Company, Safeway Inc., Wal-Mart Stores Inc. and PetSmart Inc., among others, Henderson said.Menu Foods did not immediately provide a full list of brand names and lot numbers covered by the recall, saying they would be posted on its Web site http://www.menufoods.com/recall early Saturday. Consumers with questions can call (866) 463-6738.The company said it manufacturers for 17 of the top 20 North American retailers. It is also a contract manufacturer for the top branded pet food companies. Its three U.S. and one Canadian factory produce more than 1 billion containers of wet pet food a year. The recall covers pet food made at company plants in Emporia, Kan., and Pennsauken, N.J., Henderson said.Henderson said the company received an undisclosed number of owner complaints of vomiting and kidney failure in dogs and cats after they had been fed its products. It has tested its products but not found a cause for the sickness."To date, the tests have not indicated any problems with the product," Henderson said.The company alerted the Food and Drug Administration, which already has inspectors in one of the two plants, Henderson said. The FDA was working to nail down brand names covered by the recall, agency spokesman Mike Herndon said.Menu Foods is majority owned by the Menu Foods Income Fund, based in Ontario, Canada.Henderson said the recall would cost the company the Canadian equivalent of $26 million to $34 million.___On the Net:Food and Drug Administration: http://www.fda.gov/Article orginially found on newsvine.comThere is a similar article on yahoo.com | | Saturday, January 24th, 2009 | | 8:49 am |
To anyone reading this
To anyone reading this, leave an anonymous comment. It could be about anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a crush, a fear, or just your personal thoughts on anything. The comment can be about anything but just make sure it is anonymous.Ok...reposted. Maybe this time it'll work... | | Friday, January 23rd, 2009 | | 6:40 am |
Thanks to renoir_girl
Thanks to renoir_girl, I have a new way of showing my geekitude in the science areas. Behold! There is an Order of the Science Scouts of Exemplary Repute and Above Average Physique. Below the cut are the badges I hold with a brief explanation of why.The "talking science" badge.Required for all members. Assumes the recipient conducts himself/herself in such a manner as to talk science whenever he/she gets the chance. Not easily fazed by looks of disinterest from friends or the act of "zoning out" by well intentioned loved ones.-You read this journal right? Do I have to explain this one? Thanks though to those that lovingly deal with my talking about all things science...even when they don't want to hear about it. Again.The "I blog about science" badge. In which the recipient maintains a blog where at least a quarter of the material is about science. Suffice to say, this does not include scientology.-I don't think I have to explain this one.The "arts and crafts" badge.Because you can't have a bunch of badges without an arts and crafts badge. This one assumes the recipient has all manner of "craftiness" with a sciencegeek twist.-Well...I do sometimes theme my journal around diseases. Oh, and I've made icons that are science based. Yeah.The "I'm pretty confident around an open flame" badge.Recipients have demonstrated proficiency around open flames in laboratory settings.-I have Micro lab...we have to flame everything with a bunsen burner.The "destroyer of quackery" badge.In which the recipient never ever backs down from an argument that pits sound science over quackery.-Intelligent design? Um...no.The "I may look like a scientist but I'm actually also a ninja" badge.Lethal when in combination with the "destroyer of quackery" badge.-I would explain this one...but then I'd have to kill you.The "sexing up science" badge.In which the recipient has had experience with things such as selective breeding, crossing, mate selection, prokaryotic conjugation, fertility studies, STD related microbiology, and/or any other acceptable interpretation of the badge.-I used to work in a lab where I had to plate genital swabs to see if the patients had STDs. I also have to inoculate plates in Micro lab to get the prokaryotic conjugation, so I earned this one.The "I can be a prick when it comes to science" badge.In which the recipient can be so passionate about things of a scientific nature, that he/she may appear surly, rude, and/or unpleasant.-This one is self-explanitory.The "I've touched human internal organs with my own hands" badge.In which the recipient is "hopefully" doing something that is somehow related to human health.-I used to be a surgical tech. You don't want to know what I've seen and touched.The "I've done science with no concievable practical application" badge.There are probably more who are deserving of this badge than you would expect.-I'm alive, aren't I?The "experienced with electrical shock" badge (LEVEL II) In which the recipient has had experience with the electrical shocking of a human.-Ehehhee. I've shocked my sister and, while I didn't personally do it, I have seen people get shocked with the paddles on a defib machine.The "experienced with electrical shock" badge (LEVEL III) In which the recipient has had experience with the electrical shocking of himself/herself.-Who hasn't shocked themselves? | | Wednesday, January 21st, 2009 | | 12:37 am |
Bisexuality is Real
Bisexuality is Real. & Depression is NOT shameful(Previous three colorbars made by bubbly) (First two blinkies made by unique_thesame, third made by jiffner)Made by katmaej@sassy_graphxs | | Monday, January 19th, 2009 | | 10:01 pm |
Book List of 20071) Dress Your Family in Corduroy and Denim by David Sedaris2) The Thirteenth Tale
Book List of 20071) Dress Your Family in Corduroy and Denim by David Sedaris2) The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield3) Party of One: The Loner's Manifesto by Anneli Rufus4) Meditation For Busy People: Stress-Beating Strategies To Calm Your Life by Osho5) Easy Prey by John Sandford6) Silent Prey by John Sandford7) The Varieties of Scientific Experience: A Personal View of the Search for God by Carl Sagan8) Twelve Sharp by Janet Evanovich9) Complete Idiot's Guide to Yoga by Joan Budilovsky and Eve Adamson10) Awakening to the Sacred by Lama Surya Das.11) Shopgirl by Steve Martin12) Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows by J. K. Rowling13) Invitation to Holistic Health: A Guide to Living a Balanced Life by Charlotte Eliopoulos14) Guilty Pleasures by Laurell K. Hamilton15) The Judas Strain by James Rollins 16) The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini17) Eaters of the Dead by Michael Crichton18) Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton (re-read)19) The Serpent of Lilith by Margot VilliersReading list '06My LibraryThing Profile | | Sunday, January 18th, 2009 | | 6:39 pm |
Just Like A Pill--PinkAllegretto--BondSanteria--SublimeBeverly Hills--WeezerSuite in D--BachAdagio f
Just Like A Pill--PinkAllegretto--BondSanteria--SublimeBeverly Hills--WeezerSuite in D--BachAdagio for Strings--BondShe Is Beautiful--Andrew W.K. Cochise--Audioslave I Am the Highway--Audioslave Concerto in D Minor for Two Violins - Vivace--BachPachelbel's Canon in D major--BachThe Shining--Badly Drawn BoyCrazy In Love--Beyonce and Jay-Z Song 2--BlurArabian Pleasure--BondDalalai--BondStrange Paradise--Bond Fire--BondStorm--BondHeart Chakra Meditation - Karunesh - Tibetan sound bowls - Unk--Buddhist Monks Gregorian Chants--Benedictine Monks Of St.Michael's Smack My Bitch Up--Prodigy (Fatboy Slim Mix)Chinese Bamboo Flute--Daha (Higuchi Taizan)Clair De Lune--DebussyFur Elise--BeethovenCrush--Dave Mathews Band Independent Woman--Destiny's ChildBook of Days--EnyaEnigma Sadness--EnyaEverything To Everyone--EverclearHemorrage (In My Hands)--FuelBad Day--FuelShimmer--FuelI Stand Alone--GodsmackYou're Beatiful--James BluntMeditative Gregorian Chants-Capella Gregoriana-ANTIPHON-Pueri HebraeorumMozart Cello Quartet--MozartGet Over It--Ok GoDon't Let Me Get Me--PinkStupid Girls--PinkBroken Phone Booth--Primitive Radio Gods Irish Meditation II--UnknownLove is What I Got--SublimeWrong Way--SublimeWonderboy--Tenacious D Got You Where I Want You--The FlysBittersweet Symphony--The Verve Friends and Family--Trik Turner Elevation--U2Smile--Vitamin CPerfect Situation--WeezerDiva Dance--Inva Mulla TchakoDrops of Jupiter--TrainNookie--Limp BizkitBreak Stuff--Limp BizkitFaith--Limp BizkitParty (Up in Here)--DMXOnly Happy When It Rains--GarbageSolsbury Hill--Peter GabrielBlue Monday--OrgyClint Eastwood--The GorillazMillennium--Robbie WilliamsIt Feels So Good--SoniqueBy Your Side--SadeYellow--ColdplayBest I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)--Vertical HorizonExplosive--BondVictory (1812)--BondLullaby--BondPretty Fly (For a White Guy)--The OffspringCowboy Take Me Away--Dixie Chicks (and this is the ONLY country song you'll ever hear me listening to willingly)Closer--Nine Inch NailsHallelujah--John CaleBrown Eyed Girl--Van MorrisonSexy Thing--Hot ChocolateDancing Queen--ABBANumber One--BlondiePicture--FilterLearn to Fly--Foo FightersBroken Glass--Anne LennoxCloser to Fine--Indigo GirlsWatershed-- "Shame on You-- "Strange Fire-- "Least Complicated-- "Secure Yourself-- "Prince Of Darkness-- "Dyer Maker--Lep ZepplinMagic Carpet Ride--SteppenwolfCDs I ownBeetle's Greatest Hits The Eagles Greatest Hits Moulin Rouge SoundtrackAll three LOTR SoundtracksMaster and Commander SoundtrackAll three Matchbox Twenty CDsThe Fall Out--Default Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels Imported SoundtrackSnatch SoundtrackEnrique--Enrique Iglesias Songs About Jane--Maroon 5 Unwritten--Natasha Bedingfield Celtic Woman, self-titled CDBachBeethovenMozartTchykovsky.....and more to be added as I think of them..... | | Saturday, January 17th, 2009 | | 3:19 pm |
I am ME My Self-Esteem StatementIn all the world
I am ME My Self-Esteem StatementIn all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. There are persons who have some parts like me, but no one adds up exactly like me. I have some parts like others but I don't add up to be exactly like anyone else. Therefore, everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I alone chose it. I own everything about me -- my body, including everything it does; my mind, including all its thoughts and ideas; my eyes, including the image of all my eyes behold; my feelings, whatever they may be -- anger, joy, frustration, love, disappointment, excitement; my mouth and all that comes out of it....words, polite, sweet, or rough....correct and incorrect; my voice, loud or soft; and all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. I own all my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears.Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. Being very well acquainted with me, I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts.In being well-acquainted with myself, loving myself, and being friendly with myself, I can then make it possible for all of me to work in my best interests.I know that there are aspects about myself I do not know, and there are parts of me that puzzle me.As long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for the solution to the puzzles and continually look for ways to find out more about me -- how I look and sound, what I say and do, and how I think and feel.No one else looks and sounds, says and does, and thinks and feels exactly like me.However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment is me. It is authentic and represents where I am at that moment in time.When I review later how I looked and sounded, what I said and did, and how I thought and felt, parts may turn out to be unfitting and I can discard that which is unfitting and keep that which proved fitting and learn something new for that which I discarded.I am me and I am okay.I own me and therefore I can engineer me.I can learn all the new things that I need and discard all the things that no longer fit. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I will then have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.I am Me and I AM OK. ~ Virginia M. SatirDesiderata Go placidly amid the noise and haste,and remember what peace there may be in silence.As far as possible without surrenderbe on good terms with all persons.Speak your truth quietly and clearly;and listen to others,even the dull and the ignorant;they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons,they are vexations to the spirit.If you compare yourself with others,you may become vain and bitter;for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble;it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.Exercise caution in your business affairs;for the world is full of trickery.But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;many persons strive for high ideals;and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself.Especially, do not feign affection.Neither be cynical about love;for in the face of all aridity and disenchantmentit is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years,gracefully surrendering the things of youth.Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.Beyond a wholesome discipline,be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe,no less than the trees and the stars;you have a right to be here.And whether or not it is clear to you,no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God,whatever you conceive Him to be,and whatever your labors and aspirations,in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,it is still a beautiful world.Be cheerful.Strive to be happy. --Max EhrmannThe Walking SongThe Road goes ever on and onDown from the door where it began.Now far ahead the Road has gone,And I must follow, if I can,Pursuing it with eager feet,Until it joins some larger wayWhere many paths and errands meet.And whither then? I cannot say.The Road goes ever on and onOut from the door where it began.Now far ahead the Road has gone,Let others follow it who can!Let them a journey new begin, But I at last with weary feetWill turn towards the lighted inn,My evening-rest and sleep to meet.Still round the corner there may waitA new road or a secret gate;And thought I oft have passed them by,A day will come at last when IShall take the hidden paths that runWest of the Moon, East of the Sun.--Bilbo & Frodo Baggins."Things must happen when it is time for them to happen. Quests may not simply be abandoned; prophecies may not be left to rot like unpicked fruit; unicorns may go unrescued for a long time, but not forever. The happy ending cannot come in the middle of the story."--The Last Unicorn"You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down." Mary Pickford"This is what you shall do: Love the earth and the sun and the animals, despise riches, give alms to every one that asks, stand up for the stupid and crazy, devote your income and labor to others, hate tyrants, argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgences toward the people ... re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book, dismiss what insults your very soul, and your very flesh shall become a great poem."--Walt Whitman."...It never occurs to Mirabelle to observe herself, and thus she is spared the image of a shy girl sitting alone in a bar on Saturday night. A girl who is willing to give every ounce of herself to someone, who could never betray her lover, who never suspects maliciousness of anyone, and whose sexuality sleeps in her, waiting to be stirred. She never feels sorry for herself, except when the overpowering chemistry of depression inundates her and leaves her helpless. She moved from Vermont hoping to begin her life, and now she is stranded in the vast openness of L.A. She keeps working to make connections, but the pile of near misses is starting to overwhelm her. What Mirabelle needs is some omniscient voice to illuminate and spotlight her, and to inform everyone that this one has value, this one over here, the one sitting in the bar by herself, and then to find her counterpart and bring him to her."--Shopgirl by Steve Martin.Lo, there do I see my father. Lo, there do I see my mother, and my sisters, and my brothers.Lo, there do I see the line of my people back to the beginning.Lo, they do call to me. They bid me take my place among them.In the halls of Valhalla, where the brave may live forever. |
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