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viss pagalam.
un viss no sakuma.
noberztas delnas un cauri dzinsi. domas runaa parak skalji. vinjas dzied par chetram gjitaaru stiigaam, kas griezh miesu.. joprojam horizontali, mes neesam izaugushi liidz naaveejoshiem griezienam.. vai varbut gluzhi otradi esam izaugushi no lelleem un zhileteem.. tachu es joprojam dzirdu kaa taas speelee. nepiepildiitaas atminjas grib savu un sauc pec slaktinja. vinjas grib asinis un dazkart spele sho dziesmu. cigaretes vairs nekad nespelesies ar manu skaisto augumu. un tapat shie neredzamie stiigu pieskaarieni paliks virtuaali. ejot pa ielu jusu balsis caururbj mani.. saasinati, sakaapinati teikumi.. shkjobiigas sejas izteiksmes.. kartejie parpratumi un ciinjas. bet vinjs gulj tur zaalitee. kruutis nespeej pacelties, jo, redz, alveolas saplakushas zem dziives nastas un paviisam maziitinja daudzuma smeekju.. tik vien klusa elpa mieriigi turpina savu celju.. laimiigs. vinjsh tajaa nemanjaa, kur atradis sevi.. bet vinja klusums nav dzirdams Tavaa kliegshanaa peec sava.
reizem domaju vai shii atkartosanaas mums neapniks. mes esam tik aiznemti ar sevi, ka nemanaam dazkart ka ejam uz apli. round and round and round... vina teica miil.. nemiil. miil.. nemiil.. miil.. ne.. pareizi. es nezinu cik ilgi tas var turpinaties. vai attieciibu skaita kaapums nepadariis muusu dziives seklaakas? ja taas juuk un juuk ir jaabuut tachu izskaidrojumam? mamma staastiija aarstu konferencee profesoram uzdots jautajums, bet vinjsh neesot iisti atbildejis kaut runajis gari. tas tika pateikts. jaa, juus tieshaam neatbildeejaat!juus izskaidrojaat kadi ir tie audzeji, un atskjiras par tik un tik centimetriem, bet ka tad mums, gimenes arstiem riikoties? cik cm lielam jabut audzeejam vairogdziedzerii lai suutiitu pie specialista? vinjsh nostostiijaas un teica-
°tas ir atkariigs no individuaalaa gadiijuma.
kaut ko stulbaku pateikt vairs.. jaa, ja nav ko teikt tad shis teikums musu aprindaas ir ka glabejzvans. bet ne par to.. izskaidrojuma joprojaam nav.
"wait, i'm not sleeping!"
vismaz kads. vel.
piektdienu var uzskatiit par gulosho mudzhekli.
ka skudras musu kermenji iet so nedroso celu. neskaidriem praatiem, censamies atrast to,kas mums ir zem deguna. klubi ir parpildiiti nedroshiem soljiem. ka aizmigusi zjelejveidiiga masa mes plustam turp kur vejsh mus shovakar puutiis..un man arii neseezhas maajaas.. ziimeeshu, grieziishu kjermenju sejas.. krasas flakons gaida musu shiis nakts tikshanos.. un es buushu |
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[Mar. 30th, 2007|10:20 pm] |
I am awake, a lonely dreamer
I think of your face
Cause you take me with you, And i drift away
I can not escape
You lift me up
My eyes to
Forever
I'll see you.......awake
And I'll sing la da da dum
La da da dum
La dum da dum da dum
Cause you are the fire, and I am the rain
Love is our way
How is it now that I carry on
Without your face
And when you died, I sang, I cried
The words a song in place of your eyes
To fare these days and dreamless nights
I want you back
But all these thing are careless things
I want them
But always night, I close my eyes
I want to run
Run to you...........in dreams
And I sing la da da dum
La da da dum
La dum da dum da dum
We were in love, so fearless and true
Love is always
So I'll carry on in memory of you
Until that day
And when we die, we'll sing, we'll dine
Tonight we'll see what all this means
The time will come when I will run to you
I'll run to you
But all these dreams are careless things
I want them
But always night, I close my eyes
I want to run
Run to you
My god had it right
For you tonight
And you will see
And you will see us.........again
And i will sing la da da dum
La da da dum
La da dum da dum....... |
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