Afīna Kedavra
04 January 2009 @ 01:36 am
lamb & lion  
I am quite eager to get New Moon & the rest of the books. Two three days up till delivery. Also I do not know if I will be able to withheld from reading them which is a bad thing since it is exam month currently and I have a lot to do.

I do not do anything besides drowning in self pity and such.

I do not want to go to sleep because staying awake is so much more fun as well as some strange form of torture.

Pink Floyd is not an obsession anymore. Its more of a background sound of my.. I do not know. Existence?

New year, new depression. I guess, soon I will be in constant melancholy or even something deeper. Anyways.
 
 
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: Pink Floyd - The Dogs of War
 
 
Afīna Kedavra
04 January 2009 @ 02:02 am
 
Once I searched the Net, photobucket in particularly, for photos, icons & stuff about "love". I found many, many .jpg and such worth saving / remembering, but one particular umm thing hit my heart or whatever in the centre.

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I want a boy <3
who I can run to;
with tears running
down my face
& the first thing he says is
"whose ass am I kicking, babe?"


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I miss my best [boy]friend. I do not think he was the person I saw in him. It is strange, the ways I am thinking and amplitudes I am forgetting.
 
 
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Rush - Faithless
 
 
Afīna Kedavra
04 January 2009 @ 12:14 pm
Pamodos.  
Indeed, es esmu slima. Jocīgais vakardienas pustransa stāvoklis nav izgulēts, lai gan no sākuma radās tāda ilūzija. Kakls ir jocīgs, galva - smaga vate. Tomēr varu derēt, ka temperatūra man nav, bet minētais stāvoklis ir mani piemeklējis tikai lai kaitinātu. Mani & man apkārt esošos.

Snieg. Snigšana fascinē. Piecēlos, ieraudzīju, ka snieg, tad pāris minūtes sēdēju un vienkārši lūkojos pārslās.

Mūsu dzīvoklis izskatās pievilcīgs ne tikai no iekšpuses, bet arī no ārpuses -- putnu (zīlīšu, zvirbuļu, milzu kaiju) konstantās vizītes piedod kaut kādu raksturu un dzīvību kastītes mājai. Tāpat kā aizvēsturiskas dāmas un pamesta kaķa draudzība.

Par putnie, es gribēju nopirkt prosu vai kaut ko tādu (viņiem) ēdamu, bet tad nolēmu, ka esmu par skopu, lai latu izdotu sava prieka pēc. Vismaz vakar tāda es biju. Ir taču vēl citas dienas.
 
 
Current Mood: awake
 
 
Afīna Kedavra
04 January 2009 @ 01:39 pm
 
Murgoju šonakt patiesībā, nevis sapņoju. Bija man gramatikas eksāmens, es kavēju, neko nejēdzu utt. Sesijas stress. Tādēļ es tagad nemaz nemācos Phonetics. Nožēlojami.
 
 
Current Mood: grumpy
Current Music: Ass - Escape from NY