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Tue, 08 Apr 2003 14:24:18 GMT

was really excited about my new (old) job yesterday. not today. dont like to wake up this early. at least they will pay me good. and free stuff. mmm..

no breakfast today. no, no, no. leaving now. wont be back untill late.

(A. called. yay!) not that I am too excited about this fact. ( he did, he did, he did call!! :))

damn, it is so cold. oh, spring, where are you?

bye

Tue, 08 Apr 2003 07:18:43 GMT

sleep! lots of sleep now.

got a job. for 2 weeks aproximately. love it. and I will do it as long as I dont get too old for it. 28 max.

goodnight

good morning!

Mon, 07 Apr 2003 13:12:06 GMT

monday mornings...love them...hate them too. I love this one!

I am going for a long walk today. job, you know. damn, this city is too huge for me. probably I am too tiny for it... will be back in 8 hours, bloody tired, not able to speak or move or type or watch TV or do anything else.

food? who needs food?

bye for now!

Sat, 05 Apr 2003 20:56:44 GMT

put a pic up! finally.
this is how I look!

Fri, 04 Apr 2003 06:46:44 GMT

p.s. wow, I just noticed that I am having this journal for a month already!! congratulations on my 1st aniversary! going to buy cake and throw a little party!

Fri, 04 Apr 2003 06:44:17 GMT

well here I am again...always updating at night. strange me.

deleted my journal because I got bored and saw no sence. not that I do now.

wow. long time since last update. had a busy time. now I am more or less free of all the jobs and responsibilities. but not for long! as usual....

it is damn cold here. it snowed again. people look black and empty. actually- they always look that way but I noticed that only now. I have become notic-cholic. I notice everything. I look and observe. as an obsession. weird.

sleeping time- 3am
waking up time- nobody knows when (like 10am)
eating time- 3pm (one meal in a day)
going out with friends time- 8-9pm
coming back time- 1-2am

no working time for now!

bye diary! love

Fri, 07 Mar 2003 14:50:12 GMT

yaaaawn....

just came home from breakfast! I dont remember when was the last time I ate breakfast at home...or any other meal. thats what I love about this city - EVERYONE eats out...well, not everyone but I do...it isnt that expensive and literally I have no kitchen at home...

I was alone to breakfast today...spooky feeling...like solitary or something...

oh, I bought flowers, not those what I wanted but still flowers! yay!

I am having a day off today. I will only do what I really want... is that possible?

dating people from NY isnt that bad..

Fri, 07 Mar 2003 07:16:23 GMT

it is 2am now...18 hours without sleep...go me!! I wonder how long can I do this....

had a boring day, walked about 10 miles, bought new shoes, went on a date with the shoes I bought, came home now.

A. is very nice actually but I doubt that I want a serious relationship with him....

I think I will move....this part of the city I know too well...hehe..who am I cheating? the thing is that they want more money for this stupid place. I am paying too much already but they want even more...grrr...I hate moving around....this will be the 6th time since I came to NY.

going to sleep now, goodnigth...

Thu, 06 Mar 2003 11:53:19 GMT

I cant sleep any longer..my body is going weird lately...it is 6am and I feel nothing! I should feel tired, my bones should ache but no...

it is comparatively silent outside. I even opened window. And it smells good. there is no chinesse food smell in the air this morning...strange...maybe that damn restaurant has died finally....actually I can smell spring in the air and that is even more strange...

but maybe my senses are benumbed...

I remember me when I was little..I used to visit my granny who lived on countryside... I hated all those scents around....there were just too many and I couldnt appreciate each one of them....

here I can wonder about every single thing...a bird on my sill, autumn leaf on the pavement, flowers....

I will buy flowers today...they are so expensive but definatelly worth it...may-lillies most likely...

Wed, 05 Mar 2003 13:17:09 GMT

just woke up! I slept for 13 hours I think..last few days have been too hard for me! But I will survive like I always do!

Spring is comming! yay! I will drive to Manhatten today..havent been there for a while...I will look for spring and hopefully find it. There are no trees around here....sad sometimes....but no - there are some trees like 3 min away from here...

I will meet C. and W. for breakfast in 30 min so I got to go now.... they are such a nice couple...they love and care about eachother so much...I wish I could find a man like C....

bye diary...lol