munjlait | 17. Aug 2006 15:28 I feel very human, only in the wrong way human.
and all of the things I'm doing - none of them is good enough for me.
and I cannot take myself. I cannot take myself.
and I tell things I don't know.
and I have nothing to say when I should talk.
and I say nothing when I should say just anything.
and - god! - I wish I ... at least knew how to...
I'm not even asking 'why?' anymore. what's the use. I wouldn't know what to do with the answer.
and yes, I don't really like myself. it's like that love&hate type of relationship. I cannot leave myself, but hate myself dearly.
and I always have to generalize things! (bitch...)
just shut up, SHUT - UP !!! that's what I tell myself. but I don't really listen. like I could listen to a person like that. ha.
and there you are. there I am.
f..k, I hate myself.
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