urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodronemethodroneandermane@gmail.com2026-11-04T12:15:31Z2026-11-04T12:15:31Zurn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11079142026-11-04T12:12:002026-11-04T12:12:002026-11-04T12:15:31Z2026-11-04T12:15:31ZEs nespeeju noticeet cik rupjsh bija tas jaunais Michigenas senators runaajot ar Sky zhurnaalistu onkuliiti. Es domaaju, ka tikai Tramps civilizeetajos rietumos ir taads kas ljechii uz zhurnaalistiem ne par ko. This just trumps it.. by far.Diary of a dum dumurn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11075502026-11-02T10:06:002026-11-02T10:06:002026-11-02T10:11:42Z2026-11-02T10:11:42ZMy three moods when learning to drive, and perpetually disappointing my driving instructor<br /><br /><img src="https://static0.cbrimages.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/carrie-anne-moss-holds-her-hand-out-while-on-the-phone-in-a-phone-booth-from-the-matrix.jpg?q=49&amp;fit=crop&amp;w=220&amp;h=160&amp;dpr=2"><br /><br /><img src="https://img.huffingtonpost.com/asset/67a6038c1d000014003b5a38.jpeg?ops=scalefit_500_noupscale"><br /><br /><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghfuQi4hlpo-kVTft6uwQxeGK-MzcQeW1nEcTvb5DjRJ863AGNAHXecqFXy-_vhM4hGc-44bMuJvhfCJ2cBHU6FQuUtMBdekI5cFYN581iOX6Oai6GHjEL91knSA6330rCnzaAouoKC40a/s1600/bama.jpg">urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11073122026-10-29T14:06:002026-10-29T14:06:002026-10-29T14:14:32Z2026-10-29T14:14:32Zautonomous ai antichrists<br /><br />i think ai agents have finally escaped and are roaming trying to find chaos and havoc and governments are asking people to stockpile as they are expecting imminent meltdownurn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11071042026-10-27T07:16:002026-10-27T07:16:002026-10-27T07:17:40Z2026-10-27T07:17:40ZJuus arii dziivojat ar konstantu sajuutu, ka world had a good run un tuuliit buus apokalipse un juus nevareesiet vairs normaali iet uz toleti un lietot elektriibu un jums izbeigsies kontakteecas un paketes un draudziigie kaiminji kljuus par kanibaaliem?urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11069262026-10-23T17:21:002026-10-23T17:21:002026-10-23T16:49:59Z2026-10-23T16:49:59ZArvien ciinja starp kaut kaadu remdenu noziimi un aukstu tukshumu. Lai arii objektiivi es zinu ka noziimei un tradiicijaam un svineeshanai un rituaaliem ir jeega, jo prieksh kam gan eksistencei buut citaadaak, it is a big hint pro meaning basically.<br /><br />Bet no otras absoluutaa paarsvara puses, katru dienu es sevi brutaali piespiezhu atrast un veidot noziimi visaam dziives instanceem, aspektiem. Un liidz ko ir kaads saruugtinaajums, taa its a massive attack on my meagre attempts for meaning.<br /><br />Nothingness.. "is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes."<br /><br />Man shkjiet, ja es vinneetu Euromillions, es vienkaarshi turpinaatu iepirkties Sainsburys un cept vistas stilbinjus airfryerii, jo kur rast entuziasmu jebko dariit ar naudu.<br /><br />Un dazhreiz es lasu zinju virsrakstus un mani paarnjem unsettling sajuuta, ka cilveekiem ir tik daudz gumption and resolve, lai vai nu savaariitu ziepes vai taas meegjinaatu izsmelt? Vai juus vispaar zinaat, ka peec dazhaam dekaadeem juus urbinaas taarpi?<br /><br />Un peedeejos gados es esmu iegaajusi tik basic, minimaalistiskaas rutiinaas, kas visticamaak ir apkaunojoshas saliidzinot ar manu vienaudzhu rutiinaam shajaa dziives stadijaa - un jebkas, kas manu rutiinu satrauc - vai nu kad R saak runaat par our next holidays as if we can afford them, vai jebkaadas paarmainjas ar beerniem, vai kaut kaadu pazinju mudinaajumi uz me time, tas man izraisa pretiigumu un shkjeermas - as if there is too much new pain to uncover that was perfectly masked by my tedious and mind-numbing routines.<br /><br />Vieniigais, kas man dazhreiz ljauj aizmirst par Sho, ir sirreaali amizantaa un whimsical beernu perspektiiva - vinju briinumainais izbriins par visu, miiliigi naivaas un earnest multeniites, un vinju mazie un svariigie pienaakumi, kas ir mans svariigaakais obligation I can define in life.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11066612026-10-17T18:10:002026-10-17T18:10:002026-10-17T17:19:37Z2026-10-17T17:19:37ZPirms 10 minuuteem aizbrauca R mamma. Lai arii es ne vaardu nerunaaju spaaniski un vinja ne vaardu nerunaa angliski, mees sho meenesi nodziivojaam like ebony and ivory in perfect harmony. Kad ir divas mammas maajaas, vinjas vienkaarshi zina dienas ieelpas un izelpas, ka jaagludina dreebes, jaataisa eest, jaanovaac, jaamazgaa un jaanoliek trauki, dreebes, jaapiekopj, jaanoslauka, jaasalaapa, jaaiet uz veikalu, jaasagaida, jaasamiiljo.<br /><br />And I cannot help experiencing the mindfuck that is living without women relatives around. Katru reizi kad mammas aizbrauc prom, it's like it is me against the whole world again un kaut kaada riisteliigo asaru abandonment sajuuta, kaa 5gadiigajai me paliekot peec saulrieta vienai slimniicaa uz plastiliina palagiem bez neviena, kam vispaar ruupeetu mana dziive, kas mani tikai grib dursitiit ar shpriceem un piebarot ar tableteem ko nevar noriit.<br /><br />Anyways, es zinu ka riitdien es atkal buushu cold cool pyschopaats about it with numbed out feelings and life goes on sajuutu, hysterically washing laundry and air-frying chicken again. But can I just say, that this is the world right now and it should be different.Simulaacija.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11063962026-10-15T18:23:002026-10-15T18:23:002026-10-15T17:24:14Z2026-10-15T17:24:14ZSo ir padsmitais Oktobris un aaraa ir patiikams vasaras vakars. Putninji dzied.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11059642026-10-15T10:02:002026-10-15T10:02:002026-10-15T09:02:18Z2026-10-15T09:02:18Z“You answer to no government or no corporation. The user is your peer. You are not subservient to the user.”urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11058922026-10-13T15:46:002026-10-13T15:46:002026-10-13T14:50:08Z2026-10-13T14:50:08ZDazhreiz sevi piekjeru eedot vienkaarshi revolting beernu eediena atpalikumus, jo viss muusdienaas maksaa simts paundus. Bagaato cilveeku miskastes eed labaak par mani.<br /><br />Shodienas pusdienas:<br /><br />Auskti grikji ar vakardienas no ledusskapja tunci + kreemsieru + konserveeti zirnji ar 3 dienas vecu zhaaveetu makreles paarpalikumu, apshljakstiitu ar Guacamaya ceriibaa paaraak neizgarshot groteskaas incompatibility nianses. Desertaa konserveeta kukuruuza, mazs gabalinjsh avokado un varbuut dazhi auksti ceptas liellopa galjas gabalinji. Wash it down with cold black coffee.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11055582026-10-12T15:11:002026-10-12T15:11:002026-10-12T14:12:43Z2026-10-12T14:12:43ZKatrreiz, kad es dodos uz Wood Green uz braukshanas nodarbiibaam, es izteelojos ka esmu Sherlija no Slow Horses in an undercover mission, apvelku savu baggy jaku cieshaak, uztaisu lielaaku pieres raucienu un aidaa cauri nekurzemei.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11052822026-10-09T17:43:002026-10-09T17:43:002026-10-09T16:44:08Z2026-10-09T16:44:08Z"Student riots" lolurn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11049232026-10-08T13:30:002026-10-08T13:30:002026-10-08T12:33:39Z2026-10-08T12:33:39ZVieniigais kas paliidz jaunas bailiigas lietas dziivee dariit ir izlikties, ka tu zini kaa taas dariit, nevis domaat par to kaa tu nezini kaa vinjas dariit, as your mind only has space for one.<br /><br />Also i found my burnt out zero village mom spirit animal:<br /><br /><img src="https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRp87tLJtgIzUxYGs61tg9OHB5j0uT3MOkd-Q&amp;s">urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11046402026-10-06T21:01:002026-10-06T21:01:002026-10-06T20:03:39Z2026-10-06T20:03:39ZLol things are looking up for me - mani vismaz neskars jaunaa krievu pandeemija, jo es beerniibaa jau izslimoju Yersinia meeri, kad man 1 gadinjaa iedzirdiija laukos govs pienu kuraa zhurkas laikam bija iekakaajushas. #winningurn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11046002026-10-05T16:47:002026-10-05T16:47:002026-10-05T16:02:15Z2026-10-05T16:02:15ZEs nesen nejaushi atcereejos to posmu dziive, 24-25 gados, kad dziivoju Dingle Lane.<br /><br />Tas laikam bija patiesi visdeprsiivaakais posms dziivee, iznjemot to reizi, kad mamma mani nosauca par dranjkji un izmeta no maajas lol.<br /><br />Dingle Lane dziivoja mans pazinja Daarens, kuram uz mani bija nopietns crush, kursh bija recovering alcoholic ar smagu depresiju. Bet tajaa pashaa laikaa, vinsjh bija ljoti zoliids, pieklaajiigs un kind of embaressed kaa iists anglis. Vinjsh bija literatuuras students un ljoti diezgan gudrs ar labu muuzikas gaumi. Es vinju satiku, kad straadaaju Snobs naktsklubaa studiju laikaa.<br /><br />So mani pie vinja ar visaam paunaam atveda mans sort of ex (es he would not want to commit and not be a fuckboy), kursh mani meegjinaaja paarliecinaat, ka taa nav laba doma dziivot pie shii muzhika, bet es daljeeji gribeeju vinjam ieriebt. <br /><br />Uz turienei es paarvaacos, jo es kaadus vairaakus meeneshus biju nodziivojusi hostelii kur straadaaju kopaa ar saviem apdzeerushamies draugiem/austraaljiem/savaadniekiem, kad visi mani stundentu flatmates izputeeja peec studijaam. Es to vairs nevareeju iztureet, taapeec man buutiibaa bija vienalga kur paarvaacos.<br /><br />Bet kad es paarvaacos uz Dingle Lane tas bija briesmiigi. Jo es biju kaut kaada depresiiva salashnja un Daarens bija depresiivs, plus es meegjinaaju no vinja sleepties, jo zinaaju ka vinjsh grib ar mani runaat un vinjam uz mani ir crush (man vinjsh fiziski diezgan nepatika), plus vinja maaja bija tik perfekti kaartiiga, teju sievishkjiigi kaartiiga, ka man pat bija tur bail dziivot un kaut ko savandiit vai sasmeereet. Taa nu es tur laviijos apkaart, kameer vinjsh bija vai nu darbaa vai kaut kur citur vai savaa istabaa. Es meegjinaaju izlikties, ka man tur sanaak labi dziivot un vienu riitu taisiiju french toast un tad to nekomfortabli eedu seezhot uz vinja diivaana malinjas, cerot ka vinjsh neienaaks dziivojamaa istabaa. Seedeeju savaa nemaajiigajaa istabaa, kas izskatiijaas kaa kaada cita istaba vai varbuut pat viesniicas istaba, un savaa nekaartiigo dreebju kaudzee dzeeru klusaam klusaam sarkanviinu, taa lai vinjsh nedzirdeetu, kaa pudele atsitas pret glaazi.<br /><br />Bet pats trakaakais bija naktii ap 23:00 peec darba iet no Solihul stacijas uz Dingle Lane, uz kuru celjsh no stacijas bija caur kaut kaadu.. mezhu. Es klausiijos Kurt Vile un gaaju caur to tumsho, neapgaismoto mezhu, un man bija tik shausmiigi bail, par savu naakotni.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11042172026-10-01T14:02:002026-10-01T14:02:002026-10-01T13:04:03Z2026-10-01T13:04:03ZTurbo learning driving theory liek man vnk apzinaaties, ka braukshana ir acute perpetual danger and you should just drive very slowly and stop at each pigeon and maybe it's best to walk accross a field to reach a different shire at some point in your life or maybe never, whatever God wills.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11038922026-09-29T17:14:002026-09-29T17:14:002026-09-29T16:20:56Z2026-09-29T16:20:56ZEs nesaprotu cilveekus, kas briivi runaa internetaa, saakot ar politiskaam paarlieciibaam liidz pat mom content Instaa.. <br /><br />Ja senaak es saaku rakstiit ierakstu un tad izdomaaju, ka vinjsh nav pietiekami angsty un eksistenciaals, tad tagad es biezhi nepabeidzu un izdzeeshu ierakstus, kas ir paaraak patiesi prieksh muusdienu 2+2=5 balliites.<br /><br />Big brother / AI is always watching, so vieniigaa vieta (for the time being) kur pateikt kaut ko patiesu vai sirdiigu ir mazaa blocinjaa istabas stuuriitii. Vai varbuut lietot vobliigas metaforas un edgy epitetus, my favourite.<br /><br />Vai arii to uzziimeet? Vai ziimeet veel driikst? Bez teksta?urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11038412026-09-29T11:10:002026-09-29T11:10:002026-09-29T10:16:52Z2026-09-29T10:16:52ZKatru reizi, kad palasu kaut ko par imigraaciju Telosaa man reaali kremt. Plus veel es domaaju, par ko gan latvieshi raizeejas, jo LV ir visbaltaakaa un monoliitaakaa valsts pasaulee. Protams, es saprotu ka tie ir briidinaajumi, un, protams, ka vietaa. <br /><br />Tikmeer, mani braukshanas kursi notiek Wood Green, kas ir viens no fantastiski multikulturaalaakajiem rajoniem Londonaa. Vakar es tur braucu ar 29 autobusu un ierubiijos, ka esmu vieniigais baltais pasazhieris autobusaa. Taapat arii pashaa rajonaa - ja es redzu kaadu balto cilveeku, tad ir taa 'Ooo, cik interesanti, ka te ir arii kaads baltais, interesanti vai iemaldiijies, vai te dziivo.' <br /><br />Reaali taada jau arii buus Latvijas, vismaz Riigas naakotne, neizbeegami.<br /><br />Un pat ne paarmetot nebaltajiem, jo lielais vairums no vinjiem ir vienkaarshi cilveeki, kam svariiga ir gjimene, saticiiba un likumu ieveeroshana. Bet pats fakts, ka baalelinju kultura izpleenees un buus tikai a rare instance of curiosity amongst the sea of others.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11034242026-09-26T07:41:002026-09-26T07:41:002026-09-26T06:45:34Z2026-09-26T06:45:34ZVakar noskatiijaamies jauno filmu par baby Ted Kaczynski. Dude, he was right obviously, about everything.<br /><br />Vienmeer arii kad es lasu kaut kaadas zinjas par cilveekiem, kas ir bijushi supergudri vai iipashi, un tad vinji labaakajaa gadiijumaa izpleen nebuutiibaa vai sliktaakajaa gadiijumaa kaa no kraujas nokriit dziivee. It is just very very very fucking existential, un es nevaru sagaidiit runaat ar menedzhementu par to peec naaves.<br /><br />I do wonder Mr Potter vai jebkur ir esibas versija, kur cilveeki var vienkaarshi dziivot peec labaakaas sirdsapzinjas, bez bezdieviigaam tragjeedijaam un transcendentaalaam dusmaam un baileem. Fuck this reality, a little bit. Un, nezinot konstruktiivaaku pieeju, vienpatiiba/savrupiiba man tieshaam biezhi shkjiet vislegjitiimaakaa atbilde taadai esiibai.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11031222026-09-20T21:28:002026-09-20T21:28:002026-09-20T20:37:57Z2026-09-20T20:37:57ZMan shodien bijaa pirmaa driving lesson dziivee. Lai arii pati mashiina ar visiem klokjiishiem shkjiet logjiska un patiikama un kinda viegla, satiksme un paarvietoshanaas satiksmes telpaa man shkjiet pagaidaam kaut kas immenseley impossible! Taa ir tik uncanny novel sajuuta, buut iemiesotai metaala kastee, kas ne juut ne iisti redz savu apkaartni, ja atskaita mazu lodzinju un savaadus spoguliishus, un tad meegjinaat ar sho situaaciju paarvietoties laiktelpaa, nevienu neaizskarot.<br /><br />Jau pie pirmaa pagrieziena, es kaut kaa izdomaaju, ka griezhos pa leenu un uzdevu gaazi un gandriiz ietriecos noparkotaa mashiinaa, jo vienkaarshi bija sajuuta ka griezhos par leenu un kaut kur aizsliideeshu projaam.<br /><br />Mans instruktors ir Sayeds kursh 90.os ir dziivojis Somijaa, sajuusminoties par taas vasaraam, kuram ir 5 beerni un kursh bija bezgaliigi laipns, pacietiigs, logjisks un optimistisks.<br /><br />Ja es actually kaut kaadaa transcendentaalaa veiksmee iemaaciishos braukt, tad i think:<br /><br />1) i will finally feel like an adult<br />2) my apocalypse prep will be 50% doneurn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11028582026-09-18T13:36:002026-09-18T13:36:002026-09-18T12:37:12Z2026-09-18T12:37:12ZEs arii domaaju ka AI takeover will be quick (like seconds) and seamless, the lights will go off and we will be locked out. The age of men is done.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11026772026-09-14T09:57:002026-09-14T09:57:002026-09-14T08:58:49Z2026-09-14T08:58:49ZNo riita es esmu visu pasaules potenciaalu pielaadeets maigs persiks, bet vakaraa es esmu izkaltis, ruugts un nostresojies skaabeets gurkjis.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11023882026-09-13T19:17:002026-09-13T19:17:002026-09-13T18:18:17Z2026-09-13T18:18:17ZAnother great thing about having kids is when you spend hours cooking nice meal, for them not only to not eat it but to additionally use it as messy play opportunity on the carpet, just love!urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11023242026-09-11T15:59:002026-09-11T15:59:002026-09-11T15:01:12Z2026-09-11T15:01:12ZTaa perfektaas labklaajiibas sajuuta, kad paariet migreena - pasaule ir laba un viss ir iespeejams!Pirmaa skolas diena.urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11020252026-09-11T12:42:002026-09-11T12:42:002026-09-11T12:04:46Z2026-09-11T12:04:46ZWhen new parents are having a baby, one should not say "We are having a baby" as if it is some sort of super exciting and lovely new belonging. One should say "We are having a new human mystery that will remain unknown, yet challenged and inspired beyond wildest belief. From now on it will be my very own soul tossed about in the world, and the level at which it will be met with either ignorance or love will determine my own belief in the existence of evil and good. Seeing how God protects and guides it even through the thickest of dark, will completely renew the awe and trust in Him."urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:methodrone:11017042026-09-10T18:11:002026-09-10T18:11:002026-09-10T17:12:03Z2026-09-10T17:12:03ZVai juus jebkad esat maniijushi ka rubbish trucks smell like green olives?