Andromeda

Wed, 07 Jun 2017 20:21:45 GMT

Shhh..It will be ok, it is ok. Shhh..

I allow myself freedom of thinking way too much. To run quietly in the background and creep up when I don't pay attention to now, to rush out in silly motion or sentence for others to notice and point out. I know, I know. This has broken me. I know. Shhh.. I see now. I know what to do. From now.

P.S. I love you.

Mon, 29 May 2017 18:41:21 GMT

Stay out of my plate! Oh, you eat only salad. Are you on diet? Oh no, look at all of those carbs and you lift? Fuck off and eat your food, stop eating me. Oh no, chocolate so early in the morning? Shut the fuck up! It is 90% cocoa.

Fri, 19 May 2017 21:50:50 GMT

Music: Bouncy music from Spotify charts

TV series: Prison Break; Lucifer; Blindspot

Food: 90% Black chocolate; Rice cakes with peanut butter

Drink: Black coffee

Favorite human: Andy Puddicombe

Thought: Now. Everything will come to me

Product: Gym subscription; Headspace

Project: London box

Move: Plank; Horizontal leg press

Quote: “Emptiness is the fasting of the mind.”

Sat, 13 May 2017 10:27:14 GMT

“Aging is not programmed — it is the result of the failure of a renewal program.”

I mean I am blessed, but also sick of hearing - oh, you are 27? You look younger. How are we supposed to look when we are 27? Or 30, or 40 and older? I am planning to be healthy and happy as long as I can and age is just a number of years I've traveled around the Sun. Will continue work on my renewal program and mind.

Wed, 10 May 2017 21:48:55 GMT

Just be happy. Do whatever makes you happy. Be with whoever makes you happy.

Learning how to melt away all negativity and pain away with my inner sunshine. It still hurts sometimes, but somehow I feel like I've taught myself to let go of my feelings. Or maybe I trick myself all the time that nothing is there, that nothing has ever been there. I am not sure, but I don't want to really understand that right now.

Dear Universe! Do as you please with me. I have my faith in you. You know what's meant to be for me.

Sun, 30 Apr 2017 13:09:31 GMT

Now. Happiness is to play silly computer games with brother. Happiness is to see plants growing. Happiness is to drink peaceful coffee cup. Happiness is to let go. Happiness is to take care of your body. Happiness is to have something to look forward to. Happiness is to be busy. Happiness is not to think about past, future or your realities.

Peace!

Thu, 27 Apr 2017 21:28:25 GMT

I have spotted young Leonardo DiCaprio and Xena the warrior princess at my gym. And damn those guns, Leo! Ripped.

Tue, 25 Apr 2017 16:21:16 GMT

I need more energy. Coffee is not helping with this intense training. Will consider BCAA's and L-carnitine again.

Beast mode on!

Sun, 23 Apr 2017 12:27:33 GMT

Being busy has taught me something. With too much time on our hands we tend to live in past and future imaginary worlds that are exaggerated, re-imagined and partially made up of our feelings. We drown ourselves in endless feed of information, images and nonexistent realities just to distract ourselves from now.

I am here now. I concentrate on now. No more bullshit. No more pain from yesterday. No more whys. You are not here now and you don't exist in my presence now and therefore I will not use my energy on you. I am not hurting now. I will not distract myself with useless crap and emotion.

Wed, 19 Apr 2017 19:24:23 GMT

“To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart.”

Mon, 17 Apr 2017 11:19:56 GMT

I will always be here.

“Do I still Love you? Absolutely. There is not a doubt in my mind. Through all my mind, my ego... I was always faithful in my Love for you. That I made you doubt it, that is the great mistake of a Life full of mistakes. The truth doesn't set us free, Robin. I can tell you I Love you as many times as you can stand to hear it and all that does, the only thing, is remind us... that Love is not enough. Not even close.”

Sat, 15 Apr 2017 10:43:33 GMT

But she said, where'd you wanna go?

How much you wanna risk?

I'm not looking for somebody

With some superhuman gifts

Some superhero

Some fairytale bliss

Just something I can turn to

Somebody I can kiss

Fri, 14 Apr 2017 22:33:46 GMT

Saw original Ghost in the Shell movie from 1995. I prefer what they changed in the new movie. Makes more sense story-wise. Specially Major's back story.

Fri, 14 Apr 2017 14:00:53 GMT

I love her character so much!

Schools in Latvia should have programs for gardening. Teach kids about what pollution and trash does to the soil and our ecosystem. In depth.

Thu, 13 Apr 2017 22:07:53 GMT

Music: Ghost in the Shell Soundtrack; Celldweller

TV series: The Expanse; Prison Break

Food: Pasta with vegetables

Drink: Black coffee

Favorite human: Lelde

Thought: Scary choices are in order.

Product: Headspace

Project: Garden

Move: Horizontal leg press; incline walking

Quote: “All things change in a dynamic environment. Your effort to remain what you are is what limits you.”

Wed, 12 Apr 2017 18:00:39 GMT

Body still weak, but cardio is getting very easy. Love that feeling of tiredness in the morning.

Sat, 08 Apr 2017 22:47:16 GMT

If you go see Ghost in the Shell and expect typical Hollywood movie, you will walk out like - meh! But if you consider her origins you might actually understand and enjoy. Visuals are eye candy and Scarlett is perfection.

Sat, 08 Apr 2017 09:31:46 GMT

I'm going to go to Malaga for 2 weeks! Fuck yeah!

Sat, 01 Apr 2017 19:52:23 GMT

Just signed up to my gym. So ready to transform my body once more!

Sat, 25 Mar 2017 20:02:21 GMT

Ok, things are under control again. Felt hopeless for a minute.

Got all the necessary things for running. Ran one time on my own and one time with brother. It is such a freedom to run. Will keep this up.

Wed, 22 Mar 2017 19:08:55 GMT

I've failed you and I have nothing to say to you. I don't have anything to say to anyone. Everything is just meaningless.

Sat, 18 Mar 2017 11:08:26 GMT

My shoes arrive next week. I run next week.

Muse is the only band that has not disappointed me over years.

Fri, 17 Mar 2017 22:27:28 GMT

“To be prepared against surprise is to be trained. To be prepared for surprise is to be educated."

Oh 30 Seconds To Mars you lucky bastards to tour together with Muse!

There are days I don't want to exist like this anymore. Way too often now. It is quite bad. I guess.

Sun, 12 Mar 2017 00:24:57 GMT

I don't think you will ever understand. Today I sat on the Moon and ran in summer rain, and drank your tears.

Sat, 11 Mar 2017 21:01:14 GMT

Music: Steve Aoki; Lorde; Lana Del Rey

TV series: The Expanse; Anno; Suits; The Vampire Diaries

Food: Ice-cream cookie

Drink: Coffee

Favorite human: Nina Dobrev

Thought: You and your judgement can go to hell! I don't need you too.

Product: Krill oil

Project: Getting gym ready; Garden

Move: Dancing like nobody's watching

Quote: “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

Waiting: Ghost in the Shell