urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31 Life long story Life long story jolanta.grivina@gmail.com m31 2017-07-07T18:43:11Z 2017-07-07T18:43:11Z urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:117331 2017-06-07T22:57:00 2017-06-07T22:57:00 2017-07-07T18:36:18Z 2017-07-07T18:36:18Z Shhh..It will be ok, it is ok. Shhh..<div>I allow myself freedom of thinking way too much. To run quietly in the background and creep up when I don't pay attention to now, to rush out in silly motion or sentence for others to notice and point out. I know, I know. This has broken me. I know. Shhh.. I see now. I know what to do. From now. </div><div><br></div><div>P.S. I love you. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:117035 2017-05-29T21:24:00 2017-05-29T21:24:00 2017-07-07T18:37:11Z 2017-07-07T18:37:11Z <div><br></div><div>Stay out of my plate! Oh, you eat only salad. Are you on diet? Oh no, look at all of those carbs and you lift? Fuck off and eat your food, stop eating me. Oh no, chocolate so early in the morning? Shut the fuck up! It is 90% cocoa. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:116772 2017-05-19T23:22:00 2017-05-19T23:22:00 2017-07-07T18:37:25Z 2017-07-07T18:37:25Z <div>Music: Bouncy music from Spotify charts</div><div><div>TV series: Prison Break; Lucifer; Blindspot</div><div>Food: 90% Black chocolate; Rice cakes with peanut butter </div><div>Drink: Black coffee</div><div>Favorite human: Andy Puddicombe</div><div>Thought: Now. Everything will come to me</div><div>Product: Gym subscription; Headspace </div><div>Project: London box</div><div>Move: Plank; Horizontal leg press</div><div>Quote: “Emptiness is the fasting of the mind.”</div></div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:116503 2017-05-13T12:51:00 2017-05-13T12:51:00 2017-07-07T18:37:49Z 2017-07-07T18:37:49Z <div>“Aging is not programmed — it is the result of the failure of a renewal program.”</div><div><br></div><div>I mean I am blessed, but also sick of hearing - oh, you are 27? You look younger. How are we supposed to look when we are 27? Or 30, or 40 and older? I am planning to be healthy and happy as long as I can and age is just a number of years I've traveled around the Sun. Will continue work on my renewal program and mind.</div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:116385 2017-05-11T00:36:00 2017-05-11T00:36:00 2017-07-07T18:38:42Z 2017-07-07T18:38:42Z <div><br></div><div>Just be happy. Do whatever makes you happy.  Be with whoever makes you happy. </div><div><br></div><div>Learning how to melt away all negativity and pain away with my inner sunshine. It still hurts sometimes, but somehow I feel like I've taught myself to let go of my feelings. Or maybe I trick myself all the time that nothing is there, that nothing has ever been there. I am not sure, but I don't want to really understand that right now. </div><div><br></div><div>Dear Universe! Do as you please with me. I have my faith in you. You know what's meant to be for me. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:116128 2017-04-30T15:41:00 2017-04-30T15:41:00 2017-04-30T13:09:31Z 2017-04-30T13:09:31Z <img src="http://i.imgur.com/9oaxvZG.jpg"><div>Now. Happiness is to play silly computer games with brother. Happiness is to see plants growing. Happiness is to drink peaceful coffee cup. Happiness is to let go. Happiness is to take care of your body. Happiness is to have something to look forward to. Happiness is to be busy. Happiness is not to think about past, future or your realities. </div><div><br></div><div>Peace!</div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:115813 2017-04-28T00:24:00 2017-04-28T00:24:00 2017-04-27T21:28:25Z 2017-04-27T21:28:25Z I have spotted young Leonardo DiCaprio and Xena the warrior princess at my gym. And damn those guns, Leo! Ripped. urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:115645 2017-04-25T19:00:00 2017-04-25T19:00:00 2017-07-07T18:39:11Z 2017-07-07T18:39:11Z <div><br></div><div>I need more energy. Coffee is not helping with this intense training. Will consider BCAA's and L-carnitine again.</div><div><br></div><div>Beast mode on!</div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:115321 2017-04-23T15:13:00 2017-04-23T15:13:00 2017-04-23T12:32:32Z 2017-04-23T12:32:32Z Being busy has taught me something. With too much time on our hands we tend to live in past and future imaginary worlds that are exaggerated, re-imagined and partially made up of our feelings. We drown ourselves in endless feed of information, images and nonexistent realities just to distract ourselves from now. <br /><br />I am here now. I concentrate on now. No more bullshit. No more pain from yesterday. No more whys. You are not here now and you don't exist in my presence now and therefore I will not use my energy on you. I am not hurting now. I will not distract myself with useless crap and emotion. urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:114992 2017-04-19T22:21:00 2017-04-19T22:21:00 2017-07-07T18:39:28Z 2017-07-07T18:39:28Z <div>“To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart.”</div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:114824 2017-04-17T13:48:00 2017-04-17T13:48:00 2017-07-07T18:40:56Z 2017-07-07T18:40:56Z <div><br></div><div>I will always be here. </div><div><br></div><div>“Do I still Love you? Absolutely. There is not a doubt in my mind. Through all my mind, my ego... I was always faithful in my Love for you. That I made you doubt it, that is the great mistake of a Life full of mistakes. The truth doesn't set us free, Robin. I can tell you I Love you as many times as you can stand to hear it and all that does, the only thing, is remind us... that Love is not enough. Not even close.”</div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:114591 2017-04-15T13:36:00 2017-04-15T13:36:00 2017-07-07T18:42:30Z 2017-07-07T18:42:30Z <div><br></div><div><div>But she said, where'd you wanna go?</div><div>How much you wanna risk?</div><div>I'm not looking for somebody</div><div>With some superhuman gifts</div><div>Some superhero</div><div>Some fairytale bliss</div><div>Just something I can turn to</div><div>Somebody I can kiss</div></div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:114182 2017-04-15T01:25:00 2017-04-15T01:25:00 2017-04-14T22:33:46Z 2017-04-14T22:33:46Z Saw original Ghost in the Shell movie from 1995. I prefer what they changed in the new movie. Makes more sense story-wise. Specially Major's back story. urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:114080 2017-04-14T16:53:00 2017-04-14T16:53:00 2017-07-07T18:41:13Z 2017-07-07T18:41:13Z <div>I love her character so much!</div><div><br></div><div>Schools in Latvia should have programs for gardening. Teach kids about what pollution and trash does to the soil and our ecosystem. In depth. </div><div><br></div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:113880 2017-04-14T00:41:00 2017-04-14T00:41:00 2017-07-07T18:39:44Z 2017-07-07T18:39:44Z <div><br></div><div><div>Music: Ghost in the Shell Soundtrack; Celldweller</div><div>TV series: The Expanse; Prison Break</div><div>Food: Pasta with vegetables </div><div>Drink: Black coffee</div><div>Favorite human: Lelde</div><div>Thought: Scary choices are in order. </div><div>Product: Headspace</div><div>Project: Garden</div><div>Move: Horizontal leg press; incline walking</div><div>Quote: “All things change in a dynamic environment. Your effort to remain what you are is what limits you.” </div><div><br></div></div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:113512 2017-04-12T20:18:00 2017-04-12T20:18:00 2017-04-12T18:00:39Z 2017-04-12T18:00:39Z Body still weak, but cardio is getting very easy. Love that feeling of tiredness in the morning. urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:113229 2017-04-09T01:40:00 2017-04-09T01:40:00 2017-07-07T18:41:36Z 2017-07-07T18:41:36Z <div><br></div><div>If you go see Ghost in the Shell and expect typical Hollywood movie, you will walk out like - meh! But if you consider her origins you might actually understand and enjoy. Visuals are eye candy and Scarlett is perfection. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:112908 2017-04-08T12:25:00 2017-04-08T12:25:00 2017-07-07T18:42:43Z 2017-07-07T18:42:43Z <div><br></div><div>I'm going to go to Malaga for 2 weeks! Fuck yeah!</div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:112680 2017-04-01T22:49:00 2017-04-01T22:49:00 2017-07-07T18:42:56Z 2017-07-07T18:42:56Z <div><br></div><div>Just signed up to my gym. So ready to transform my body once more!</div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:112567 2017-03-25T21:58:00 2017-03-25T21:58:00 2017-07-07T18:43:11Z 2017-07-07T18:43:11Z <div>Ok, things are under control again. Felt hopeless for a minute. </div><div><br></div><div>Got all the necessary things for running. Ran one time on my own and one time with brother. It is such a freedom to run. Will keep this up. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:112208 2017-03-22T20:57:00 2017-03-22T20:57:00 2017-03-22T19:08:55Z 2017-03-22T19:08:55Z <img src="http://i1383.photobucket.com/albums/ah311/OuterSpaceling/346cb09f-9753-4ae4-ad7e-60989cbf97fe_zpsq6cz4akh.jpg"><div><br></div><div>I've failed you and I have nothing to say to you. I don't have anything to say to anyone. Everything is just meaningless. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:111982 2017-03-18T13:01:00 2017-03-18T13:01:00 2017-03-18T11:08:26Z 2017-03-18T11:08:26Z <img src="http://i1383.photobucket.com/albums/ah311/OuterSpaceling/799e2b27-6731-4452-89a8-95705ef8ea9c_zpsywswkoxn.jpg"><div><br></div><div>My shoes arrive next week. I run next week. </div><div><br></div><div>Muse is the only band that has not disappointed me over years. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:111795 2017-03-18T00:07:00 2017-03-18T00:07:00 2017-03-17T22:27:28Z 2017-03-17T22:27:28Z <img src="http://i1383.photobucket.com/albums/ah311/OuterSpaceling/9cdbef4f-4895-4e73-9052-2175d10eb6fd_zpszcyu7x2o.jpg"><div><br></div><div>“To be prepared against surprise is to be trained. To be prepared for surprise is to be educated."</div><div><br></div><div>Oh 30 Seconds To Mars you lucky bastards to tour together with Muse! </div><div><br></div><div>There are days I don't want to exist like this anymore. Way too often now. It is quite bad. I guess. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:111430 2017-03-12T02:14:00 2017-03-12T02:14:00 2017-03-12T00:24:57Z 2017-03-12T00:24:57Z <img src="http://i1383.photobucket.com/albums/ah311/OuterSpaceling/4f36b645-c33e-4181-9254-df36a4311d27_zpswzmrvmnb.jpg"><div><br></div><div>I don't think you will ever understand. Today I sat on the Moon and ran in summer rain, and drank your tears. </div> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:m31:111236 2017-03-11T22:42:00 2017-03-11T22:42:00 2017-03-11T21:01:14Z 2017-03-11T21:01:14Z <img src="http://i1383.photobucket.com/albums/ah311/OuterSpaceling/2896dc89-f6b7-4762-a520-c5b232015c6c_zpsbrzef5jr.jpg"><div><br></div><div><div>Music: Steve Aoki; Lorde; Lana Del Rey</div><div>TV series: The Expanse; Anno; Suits; The Vampire Diaries</div><div>Food: Ice-cream cookie</div><div>Drink: Coffee </div><div>Favorite human: Nina Dobrev</div><div>Thought: You and your judgement can go to hell! I don't need you too. </div><div>Product: Krill oil</div><div>Project: Getting gym ready; Garden</div><div>Move: Dancing like nobody's watching</div><div>Quote: “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”</div></div><div>Waiting: Ghost in the Shell</div>