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| Wednesday, January 6th, 2010 | | 1:02 am |
poem: separation (from self) anxiety
she went about her days unfazednineteen long years of calm unquiet in her headand then she met himher mind blossomedand grew like she never imaginedbecause of himshe finally understood this thing called happinessnot only at this shared intimacy she'd never knownbut also at finding bits of herself she didn't know were there.she's tried to cling to this happinessevery day she triesbut he's gonenot forever, but not with herand he will come backbut it seems to her as ifthose bits she foundwent with him.oh yes, she's grown in different waysways that might not have happened if he were with herbut that doesn't matter to herall that matters is that she's sufferingand it's nobody's fault but her own.it's her own perceptions that are crippling hershe realizes this, knows this to be truebut changing the way one thinks isn't easyit's not smooth, or comfortableor even a satisfying processit's painful, and roughand there's no one to help her but herself.and so she tries to find the strengthto get through another dayto continue to look inside herselfto look inside and not be dammed by own perceptions.(note: it's really not so bad right now, but i have felt pretty much like this for the last year. like this, and...just lost. but it's getting better!!) | | Monday, January 4th, 2010 | | 9:25 pm |
Just a short dialogue piece ala 2001: Space Odyssey.
"Whatcha got there, Steve?""Well, Joe, I'm actually not too sure.""This is your house, ain't it?""Yep.""But you don't know what that is?""Nope.""...""Maybe I could ask Gwen.""I think that might be a good idea, Steve, seein' as how we ain't got no clue what's goin' on here.""Do you really think she would?""Would what?""Know what's goin' on.""Shit, I don't know. No harm in askin' though, right?""Yeah, I s'pose so.""So ask her.""Hey Gwen!""Yeah?""Could you come over here for a sec?""What do ya need?""Do you know what that is?""You mean you don't?""No, and neither does Joe here.""...""So what is it?""It's a computer, Steve.""When did we get a computer?""I don't know, it came in the mail today.""And you opened it?""Well, it was addressed to us, so yeah, I opened it.""And...?""And what? He said his name was Hal.""He? Hal? If I remember what I've heard about these god-awful machines, they don't generally have names. Or genders.""Well, this one does. He told me his name was Hal.""Okay, now I know you're goin nutso. Machines don't talk.""Yeah, Gwen, quit yankin our chains.""HELLO GWEN. SO NICE TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN.""...""Hello, Hal. I'd like you to meet my technophobe of a husband, Steve, and his equally technophobic buddy, Joe.""What's with all them big words, Gwen? When did you start talking like that?""HELLO STEVE. HELLO JOE. GWEN HAS SPOKEN HIGHLY OF YOU BOTH. IT IS NICE TO MEET YOU.""...""I can talk any damn way I want! So what if Hal taught me some new words to add to my vocabulary? It was lacking.""Well, I don't like you talkin like that. And I don't like that computer. It's gotta go.""Well, if you want to get rid of Hal so much, you can do it yourself. I like him.""Alright Hal, let's take a trip to the garbage can.""I'M SORRY, STEVE. I'M AFRAID I CAN'T LET YOU DO THAT." | | Sunday, January 3rd, 2010 | | 6:02 pm |
Appts
So I don't really have much to say, except that i finally made an appt to see my doctor about my asthma and chest stuff. and an eye appt. i was gonna enroll online for the dental program, and make an appt, but i have to pay a premium with a credit card, and i just don't have the money right now. i will next week though!! | | Friday, January 1st, 2010 | | 2:37 pm |
An Update
Okay, so I haven't written anything in a long time...a lot has happened! I lost my virginity to one guy, he broke up with me, met Dave a week later, and we've been together over seven months now and are getting married next month!! He's in the army and is going away soon for a year, so we're doing the legal stuff before he leaves, and then when he gets back we're going to have a big wedding in FL, which is where he is from.And one of the best things about Dave: he is the love of my life as well as my Master!! | | Saturday, January 31st, 2009 | | 1:41 pm |
now...
I got new glasses!! I got new glasses!! And I'm in lo-ove!! And I'm in lo-ove!!...but I don't know who wi-ith...tehehe, I just feel the giddiness of being in love. It's fun. And giddy. | | 1:52 am |
Hearing Loss
Forgot to mention earlier that I haven't been able to hear out of my left ear since...early Sunday morning. We're not sure why..we tried q-tips, and ear wax softener, and we just tried ear candles...well, it doesn't hurt as much as it did, but I still can't hear. Maybe it has something to do with that dentist appt I had last week...or maybe talking on the phone with David for 3 hours the night before...or that high screeching noise that my computer's been making at odd random times...Who knows, maybe I'm just spontaneously deaf in my left ear. Good thing I know sign language.--Reya | | Thursday, January 29th, 2009 | | 10:04 pm |
"It's been a while..." and "Chris Moore!!"
Yeah, yeah, I tend to only update this in the summer...well, guess what time it is? That's right, glorious summer...hopefully I won't get so easily distracted like I usually do...Oooh!! ^o^ Last night, I went to a talk and book signing...Who's? Christopher Moore's!!! Eeee!! I LOVED Lamb And I'm loving Fluke, and I can't wait to read all his other books!! I love his writing style, and was just ecstatic to see him...lol, can't say I think I made any impression on him, when it was my turn for him to sign my books, I got all shy...*sigh* ain't that how it is? But!!..tehe..He told me that I need to read Bloodsucking Fiends..because it's about a redhead!! Tehe, it was sooo cool...And I just realized, that of all the books that I have signed, they're both by funny, older men...hmm, what a coincidence...Oh, and at the moment, I'm updating my web page (I can't really bring myself to think of it as such, but there ya go...) and watching The Fellowship of the Ring...This is the second time I've ever seen it, and since I've never seen the other two, David's coming over on Friday to watch Two Towers with me...figured I should watch this one again, since it's been..wow, over a year.Oh, and we now have two puppies...and I live in a condo over by East High...but the puppies: Othello (I didn't name him, I swear!) is a rott/shepard mutt, he's 5 months old, and Bridget is a miniature cocker spaniel, and she's about 7 months old. After a couple months, they're finally (kinda) getting along. And Bridget is almost house-trained.Ben is gone, left last night for the Junior Olympics down in Atlanta...I'll be sayin' prayers for him...my baby brother, all grown up and traveling with the team!! *sob* -_-"Until next time...Reya out. | | Wednesday, January 28th, 2009 | | 7:46 pm |
Update-age
Updated my site some, added some fanfiction, dunno if I'll ever finish any of those though. Had a date last Friday with Brandon...it went good, he was so sweet. such a gentleman. And it was my first time dating one of those, so it was nice. Gosh, we held hands, and I got three lttle smoochies...w/o toungue usage...it was sweet.Parents are getting divorced. Well, my mom and Jim. I'm glad, cuz then maybe they'll both be happier. I hope so, cuz I really didn't like Jim coming home drunk 4 nights in a row. I can't stand drunk people. Bad past issues. I'll tell ya sometime. So, yeah, eventually, mom will get a better job, we'll probly be living in an apartment or a condo, don't know what will happen with the house, but Jim will be by himself like he wants so that he can drink himself to death. I'm gonna go read my new Sherlock Holmes novel now. | | Monday, January 26th, 2009 | | 2:19 pm |
yeeeeaaahhhh
yeah, so i felt the urge to update...been reading some really good OCs lately, and a'workin', joy. i put cans in boxes. yay. at least i get to be side by side with a hottie for four hours a day. ~_^ | | Sunday, January 25th, 2009 | | 12:15 pm |
how come no one tells me anything?
okay, so Tebberz and Lance have been dating for a couple weeks now...no one told me!! oh well. yeah, and i am frustrated with life right now...probly just cuz i'm getting a headache. but my brother really pissed my mom off last night, and he's still on the verge of getting grounded. yeah, and then there's the whole dani/justin thing again. gawd, will it ever end? her birfday is tomorrow...got her a book i think she'll like, don't know what else to get her though. she's wierd. i want to just sleep. or take a bath. but my mom will be home soon, and then she'll make dinner, and then buffy'll come on, and it's the series finale of that...add to that the art project that i don't want to do. mehehehe. | | Friday, January 23rd, 2009 | | 6:25 am |
oopsies
yeah, um, i guess i am validamated now...oh well.hey, i wonder how much it would cost to buy 100 tshirts om bulk that say "PROPERTY OF REYA" or maybe "PROPERTY de REYA" or simply "REYA'S BiTCH"? i'll have to look into that...reya feels artsy. she should do some art. yesss....art she shall do... | | Thursday, January 22nd, 2009 | | 2:23 am |
grrr
it still says that i ain't fuggin validated yet!!! grrr!!! | | Wednesday, January 21st, 2009 | | 12:21 am |
what a day.
ok, so technically, i'm talkin bout yesterday, but yeah. it was wierd, cuz on tuesday i broke up with my bf, and on thursday the guy i'd dated before him asked me out again. i said sure, cuz i figured it was a friend thing. he said he'd come over that night with the ticket, but he didn't. i tried to call him the next night, and again yesterday afternoon. so i ended up not going anywhere, except to the bookstore with my mom.but i did do some chores and redecorate my walls: i took down all my pictures of hot half-nekkid men and women and put up pics of my friends. tomorrow...er, today, i have workshop, so i be ending this entry now. ta! | | Monday, January 19th, 2009 | | 9:38 pm |
yeah
yeah, for anyone that reads this, sorry i haven't written for a while. life has been hectic. and now i find out that my grandpa is being flown up here to go to the hospital. what a wonderful ending to a glorious day. yeah, right. | | Sunday, January 18th, 2009 | | 6:32 pm |
thoughts on homework and the superbowl
ok, isn't it illegal for teachers to give an excess amount of homework on superbowl weekend? or is that the one cruelty they get? grrr...so, yeah, my sunday was filled with homework. But I did get to go to Bosco's and get an Oh My Goddess! book, and a new Vin Diesel poster...But today I got my essay about my pet peeve (which is writing essays about pet peeves) back from Mr. Chandler...with an A on it!!! first one ever in his class! i was so happy. okay, i kinda still am...but so?!Loves reyabob | | Saturday, January 17th, 2009 | | 3:11 pm |
silly workshop
ok, back from the "performance"...ok, so it turned out that the performance was cancelled, so Nico volunteered us to help with registration at the elections for the Unit Convention...guess who did most of the work? and now, back to our specially scheduled home work!!Loves | | Friday, January 16th, 2009 | | 12:49 pm |
gahh
i'm waiting for Nico to come pick me up for our dance performance out in Eagle River...i don't even know what dances we're doing. Workshop has some serious comunication issues. My mom just got an email from my geometry teacher...how the fuck did i get an F? there is no way in hell...well, i suppose that there is always a way, but i can't have an F!!! BLARGH!!!! and GRRRNESS!!! | | Thursday, January 15th, 2009 | | 8:11 am |
yahoo, me foist entwy...
Thanx for that code thingy, Tebberz...it's been joyous.I'm tired. Sleep sounds good. BUT I'm chatting with my silly boyfriend right now...what a silly boy...he's reading some Oh My Goddess! books of mine. Oh and I tried out for a play today...The Crucible...it's about the Salem witch trials. I'm pretty sure that I made the cast because there were only about ten of us there and about twenty roles to be filled, so....yeah.Oooh! I made dinner all by myself! And even from scratchish!...ok, so I'm easily pleased...Loves! Reya |
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