Paris


29. Septembris 2003

Tas ir par tevi mans miiljais .................. @ 14:38

The kiss sweetest
And touch so warm
The smile kindest
In this world so cold and strong

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely

The arms safest
And words all good
The faith deepest
In this world so cold and cruel

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely

 

(bez virsraksta) @ 14:37

I'm crying everyone's tears
And there inside our private war
I died the night before
And all of these remnants of joy and disaster
What am I suppose to do

I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul
But nothing would change, nothing would change at all
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder if this grief will ever let me go
I feel like I am the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I suppose I could just walk away
Will I disappoint my future if I stay
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder will this grief ever be gone
Will it ever go
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I'm crying everyone's tears
I have already paid for all my future sins
There's nothing anyone
Can say to take this away
It's just another day and nothing's any good

I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow

 

28. Septembris 2003

(bez virsraksta) @ 21:32

(bez virsraksta) @ 03:34

Garastāvoklis:: cold
Mūzika: Evanescence - My Immortal

Cik sausmigi ka cilveks var nodzeties lidz nemanjai, ta ka vairs pat nevar neko pateikt un pieceties no gultas, kapec tam ta jabut, kapec man uz to jaskatas, kapeec ............................................
 

(bez virsraksta) @ 03:23

Garastāvoklis:: apathetic
Mūzika: Holly Valance - Down Boy (Radio)

Teevs shodien pateica ka nekad nav milejismanu mati aprecejie un nodzivojis 17 un nekad nav miilejis........ ka cilveks vispar var kaut ko tadu nodarit sev un citam tuvam cilvekam, vinjs tak izpostiija dzivi gan mammai gan sev .......... par mani nerunajot..... ja tu cilveku nemili vienmer ir jadod vinjam briviba jo ja tu nespej dot visas tas izjutas ( all the tweight) tad tas nav to verts ne tev ne vinjam tam otram........labi vinjs pamocisies gadu divus....bet ne jau visu dzivi veltis kaut kam neesosam........ es pat neavru iedomaties kads sitiens zem jostas vietas tas buutu manai matei..............kaut kads murgs .................sausmigi.........es TAA NEKAD NERIKOSOS
 

ES @ 01:51

esmu briiva kaa briiviibaa palaista pienenes puuka....kas lido auxtu debesiis un negrib nolaisties...bet pienaak laiks kad ir jaanolaizhas un parasti. noseeshanaas ir saapiiga....taadeelj.... no more love....saules vairs nav.. esmu nonaakusi muuzhiigajaa tumsaa......tagad mani mierina tikai negaisss un lietus.. vislabaakaas izjuutas....nau vairs sauljes kas pasaka ka bez TEVIS nevar dziivot.. ir palikushas tikai atminjas....nau jaunas dziives...nekaadu juutu... nekaa.... tuksha lapa ar puukas vieglumu debesiis....lapa, kura buutu jaapueraxta...bet kas to izdariis un izglaabs no bedres - tukshuma....dveesele nozaudeeta.. sirds salauzta....vairs nav nekaa.... tikai viens liels tukshums....vientuliiba...neesmu es pati..

 

24. Septembris 2003

(bez virsraksta) @ 20:07

Garastāvoklis:: awake
Mūzika: Evanesence - My immortal

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase


when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase


i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
 

Tam vienam vienigajam..... @ 10:22

Garastāvoklis:: awake

paldies tev par to ka tu man biji.... Par to ka atnaci kad es tevi saucu........Par to ka ticeji ka es varu.......Par to ka neaigaji kad es dzinu prom..........paldies.........
 

18. Septembris 2003

(bez virsraksta) @ 02:56

I follow the night
Can't stand the light
:((

 

17. Septembris 2003

:PPPP es atradu hetra man bija taisniiba:PPPP @ 02:05

You think I'd leave your side baby ?
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave down when your down on your knees ?
I wouldn't do that
I'll do you right when your wrong
I- - - - ohhh, ohhh
If only you could see into me

Oh, when your cold
I'll be there to hold you tight to me

When your on the outside baby and you can't get in
I will show you, your so much better than you know
When your lost, when you’re alone and you can't get back again
I will find you darling I'll bring you home

If you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
and in no time you'll be fine

You think I'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave you down when your down on your kness
I wouldn't do that
I'll do you right when your wrong
I- - - I, ohhhh, ohhhh
If only you could see into me

Oh when your cold
I'll be there
To hold you tight to me
Oh when your alone
I'll be there by your side baby
repeat 1x

 

Deeper than crying @ 01:50

Leaving is the longest word that I ever learned
In the time it takes to say it, the whole world has turned
If a heartbeat lasts a lifetime then I have lived before
'Cause I remember standing at this open door

This path is not the one I'd choose to travel
Even as we watch what tied us unravel
And the tears fall like rain
Deeper than crying, the loving still remains

Neither wants to be the one to say goodbye
And neither wants to be the one who's left to cry
But in our secret heart of hearts we both know
That the time for patching up has passed and it's time to go

This path is not the one I'd choose to travel
Even as we watch what tied us unravel
And the tears fall like rain
Deeper than crying, the loving still remains

So I'll be the one to pull our tangled lives apart
I won't dodge the angry words that hide a broken heart
And my calm fare-thee-wells cannot obscure
That deep inside, my heart is also hurtin' sore

This path is not the one I'd choose to travel
Even as we watch what tied us unravel
And the tears fall like rain
Deeper than crying, the loving still remains

 

it doesn't matter @ 01:45

Garastāvoklis:: tuksa
Mūzika: Alison Krauss - it doesn't matter

It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
It doesn't matter if I cry
Don't matter if I bleed
You've been on a road
Don't know where it goes or where it leads

It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
If you've made up your mind to go
I won't beg you to stay
You've been in a cage
Throw you to the wind you fly away

It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
It doesn't matter if I cry
Doesn't matter if I bleed
Feel the sting of tears
Falling on this face you've loved for years
 

Tuksums @ 01:10

Nav.... neka i neviena.....neviens nekad mani nesaprtaiis........gribu ieiet mezaa un kliegt.aiz aizvainojuma....aiz bezpeciibas.........aiz tuksuma....iieksaa viss varaas....es pat nezinu vai labk buutu kliegt vai viekarsi ieliist istabas sturiitii un izradaaties....par daudz...s.a.b.i.e.d.r.i.i.b.a.s......cilveku.kaut viss izcibeetu...........speeka nav..nav velesanas..nekaa naf..vienkaarsi apnikus uz visu i visiem.........esmu vientulniece.........neciesu sabiedribu............varu panest tikai noteiktas dozaaas un ne vairaak........visasa taas probleemas...nauda..........vecaki........draugi...........visas vinju probleemas........man tuliit vienkarsi uzsprags glava......es nevaru ........nevaru nokartot visu. pie velna kapeec????????? bezspeciiga un nikna aiz bezspeciibas.......neka nav.......negribu butt......ieksaa ir tads aukstums ka nevilus jadrebinaas.......es taaa negribu.....blaaviens kapec es nevaru likt tevam parstat dzert ..?...kapeec es nevaru atrisinat maates probleemas ar naudu....?... kapec es nearu dazam savaam draudzneem pardzivoto padarit par nebijusu........?....kapec es vispar neko nevaru esmu bezjedziga radiba.....no manis shajaa pasalee nav nekads jegas.........nebuutu manis......manam pasam milotaakajam cilvekam nebuutu tik ilgi ar mani janonjemas.....maniem darugiem nebuutu par mani jauztraucas....nekaa nebuutu man nekaa nebuutu un arii nevajadzeetu ............negribu.............

 

15. Septembris 2003

Miilestiiba @ 22:12

Kas ir miilestiiba, kkimija , viekaarsa reakcija uzz kada konkreta cilveka smarzu ka rezultataa izdalaas endofrinas vielas.....
negribetos ticet.....
Es domaju ka cilveki kuri ir bijusi kopaa... nu vinjiem tas ir bijis lemts..... lemts to piedzivot, izdziivot un pardziivot un tikai tik ilgi un ne vairaak ne mazak....
bet var buut ta ir tikkai nejausiba, nejausi sastapts saktiens, mikla izjuuta kas paraug par kaut ko lielaaku?????
Kas ir milestiiba???

 

12. Septembris 2003

(bez virsraksta) @ 17:23

buu me off uz triss dienam buchas visiem miljumiem. :***
PS efix es arii gribesu ieverteet jauno tel :)))

 

(bez virsraksta) @ 17:23

Nu tagad es off uz triis dienam bucvhas visiem miljumiem:)))))

 

(bez virsraksta) @ 03:05

Esmu nogurusi no visa...............

 

(bez virsraksta) @ 00:52

Man saap galva......

 

11. Septembris 2003

(bez virsraksta) @ 15:50

Es vairs nezinu ko dariit shodien zudeju kadu kas man ir patiesam tuvs un i mean really, .....tuksums........vispkaart tikai viens vieniigs tuksums.......... es pat nezinu ko pasaakkt ....... bljaaaaaaaaaavvvvvvies es juutos tik bezpeeciiga mans mazais puukainais radiijums gulj blakus istabaa nokritis no septiitaa stva otro reizi un es pat nevaru vinjam palidzet blja ka es ienistu tadu jedzienu ka naudu ja man ta buutu tad s shamejo varetu aizvest pie vetarsta bet tagad nekaa man atliek vienkarsi sedet un gaidiit vai riit buus labak vai nee un ja nu nebuus , ja nu es vinju riit atradiisu aukstu un sastingusu...... es to vienkrsi neiztureesu, es dzoju viena un katru reizi kad nacu majas vinjs mani sagaidiija kad bija slikti samijoja un ........un ko tagad varu dariit es........ es esmu bezpeciiga..... briesmiigi.....trula gaidisana.........

 

(bez virsraksta) @ 15:48

Garastāvoklis:: sad

es guleeju gulta un caloju ar savu labako darudzeni un mammu, bija jautri, kakis glaudas klaat. murraja.............izgaja uz blakona............blikskis......bliikkis tur lejaaa........... es tiesam negribeju celtes no gultas, negribeju iziet uz balkona un ieraudzit ka vinja tur nav, zinat ka vinjs nokrita, ........negribeju lai ta buutu, negribeju zinat... redzeet..noticet..............es nogaju lejaa, saku apskatiit asvaltu, nebija, nevareju atrast, cereju ka kludiijos ka vinjs palika augsaa, ka nebija nokritis , nebija te lejaa, , bet tomer vnjs tur bija, guleja un pat neizdvesa ne skanu tikaimeginaja piecelties, un atnakt lidz manim, man bija tik bail, kaut nu vinjs dzivotu, kaut nemirtu ko es bez vinja darisu, ........kaut nu.............................
 

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