Life is like a box of chocolates...You never know what you're gonna get.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 23:16:20 GMT

You Are 25 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

All this colour.. For nothing?

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 19:27:08 GMT

Indeed the world is wonderful:D And another WONDERFUL day is drawing to a close.. Hmm.. Picked up a book about Oscar Wilde. I love that guy. His tragedy was being born half a century too early. But then again, if he'd been born later, his genius would not have been so appreciated. Nowadays we have all sorts of idiots pretending to be clever..like yours truly:) Anyways..whenever I start reading Wilde, i can't seem to stop. He was THE smartest person around in his time. And society just killed him. Prejudice killed him. And he died laughing. Come to think of it, he reallly did give a new meaning to the words-he who laughs last, laughs longest. He's still laughing. If there is something on the other side, then Oscar is definitely smiling:) Or at least I hope he is. I hope there is SomethinG on the other side.. The more I thing about life, the more I want to stop thinking about it. Especially the meaning of it all. The use of living, the use of dying. The use of washing my hair in the morning, the use of falling in love, getting married, cooking dinner. It's not like I'm depressed or anything, it's just that sometimes you get these gloomy thoughts and feelings.. It'd just be weird to find out that all of this, everything, the world around us, the world we have created is for nothing. Just for us. And that there's no meaning beyond that. Just like love. That we love only for ourselves. And that the other person is practically irrelevant as long as we feel satisfied by loving them. On one hand, love is a one sided feeling. Like, when do you feel love the most-when you love someone or when someone loves you? What I mean is that it is more important to love, than to be loved-what's it to you if some person loves you to death if you have no feelings for them? There's not much use loving someone who doesn't love you back either, but at least you feel the thrill..you have the butterflies..you feel that somewhere under your ribs there is a heart. Sometimes I guess it's better to feel a broken heart rather than no heart at all..
I've noticed that no matter how many times mine has been broken, it still breaks just as easily.. The only thing that changes is the period of healing. It's as if this instinct develops-it tells you that, hey, no worries, it's neither the first time, nor the last.. I don't know whether this is good or bad.. There's this saying that goes- Work as if you don't need the money. Dance as if no one's watching. And love as if you'd never been hurt. How can you do that? i can keep myself from being overly cautious but I can't prolong the time which I need to heal. I can't stop the reaction of indifference.. And then there's always the question of the necessity of pain. Should you suffer for nothing? And how are you able to distinguish Notning from Something? To hell with it all.. :)

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 21:15:41 GMT

Rīt ir kāzuss starptautiskajās cilvēktiesībās un vēl k.d. aizsardzības iestādēs! A ko dara Aija? Mācās teiksiet? H..! Biju vannā, sapinu bizes, un tagad chortojos par to, ka nevienam ģēnijām DC++ nav Sinatras dziesmas Moonriver! NU KĀ VAR TĀDAS DZIESMAS NEBŪT?!?!? Tā gribas Frenkiju paklausīties:))) Un vispār es nez..kā jau vienmēr, šī tak kā nekā ir mana trademark frāze:D Dzīves filozofija savā zīņā.. Moonriver..wider than a mile.. Kāpēc man liekas, ka cilvēki tajā laikā dzīvi prata izbaudīt pilnīgāk? Tagad viss ir tik sekls..mūzika (lielākoties, arī tie, kas domā, ka ir baigi "zemtekstainie", vienkārši grib būt "intelektuāli"..), izglītība, nerunājot jau par attiecībām.. No sērijas: "Nu, kā iet ar meiteni/puisi?" "Jā, jā, baigi labi!" "Smuka/s, ja?" "Jā, jā, ubersexy!", "Kaut cik sakarīga/s?" "Jā, rakstīt prot!" "Gultā viss kārtībā, sekss ir?" "Pfff! Nu ja, ka ir!" "A mīlestība?" "...kas tas tāds?" :( Un tā tā dzīve paiet! Sad but true! Ierēcu šovakar par domu, ka, ja es, ES, of all people, kādreiz zaudēšu ticību tai stulbajai maitai ljubestībai, tad ziniet-ir pienākusi pastarā diena:D Lai cik gudra es nebūtu (šo apgalvojumu es aicinu jebkuru apstrīdēt, ja pastāv tāda vēlēšanās;) vienā ziņā es vienmēr būšu stulba, neracionāla un nu...jā, STULBA:)Es sevi mierinu, ka ja ir kaut viens tāds idiots (es), tad kaut kur jāslēpjas ir vismaz vēl vienam! :DDDD AI:DDD

Vēl-pārlasīju šito visu pasākumu. Mani secinājumi:
1)kad rakstu depresijā, sanāk TIK salkani:D Nu nožēlojami vnk, pašai kauns!:DDD
2)angliski no manis skan rēcīgāk! Gramatika, man liekas, arī korektāka, nekā latviešu valodā:D
UN
3)es vnk NENORMĀLI, ANORMĀLI, PARANORMĀLI lamājos. Kā vecs krievu jūrnieks. But then again, tas jau nav nedz atklājums, nedz noslēpums:DDD

Laiks laikam iet čučū...un sapņot par..to, ka guļu:)))m Ziemassvētki arī nāk..Ehh, dzimšanas diena un tā tālāk.. Gribētos atkal to bērnības dienu sajūtu Z-svētkos.. Iedomājos, kad būšu mamma un man būs kādi divi trīs mazi nepanesami mini-me, ah, kādi tad būs Ziemassvētki! Aaaa:))))) Bet tas nākotnē..es tvāko 4 gadu laikā un bērni neiet kopā.. Vēl jāiztrakojas..lai pēc tam mazajiem nav jācieš.. Un vispār..citu dēļ mēs ciešam tikai bērnībā. Kad izaugam mēs cīešam tikai un vienīgi savas vainas dēļ.

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 18:58:46 GMT

Es vairs neatceros, kamā es tobrīd biju samīlējusies, bet nu tas teksts pirms iepriekšējā ir vnk nožēlojams:D

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 18:41:56 GMT

Čubināties, vells ar ārā:((((((((

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 21:56:32 GMT

A ziniet, kaada jeega kaut ko zinaat??? NEKAADAS!!! Galvenais ir miileet un aizmirsties!!!!

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 21:43:17 GMT

Tikai pasaki, lai es aizveru acis, un es aizveershu.
Tikai pasaki, lai novelku kurpes un eju basaam kaajaam, un es novilkshu.
Tikai liec man pluukt rozhu eerkshkjus, un es pluukshu.
Liec man izraudaat juuru, un es izraudaashu.
Liec atrast adatu siena kaudzee, un es atradiishu.
Tev tikai jaapasaka man, lai es nestaigaju un es sasieshu sev kaajas.
Tikai jaaluudz man nerunaat un es noriishu sev meeli.
Tikai paluudz man paarkraasot manas debesis melnas, un es paarkraasoshu.
Tikai luudz man izbarot putniem savu sirdi, un es izbaroshu.
Saki man, lai es vairs nelidoju, un es paarstaashu vicinaat spaarnus.
Saki man, lai beidzu dejot, un es vairs neklausiishos muuzikaa.
Tikai pasaki, lai pametu visu, un es pametiishu.
Tikai pasaki, lai akli sekoju tev liidz pasaules malai, un es sekoshu.
Bet tu tikai klusee un neko nesaki.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 21:17:37 GMT

Sodien rakstiijaam diktaatu latvieshu valodaa. Visu laiku figureeja teikums "Un, ja Sveetais Peeteris man jautaatu, ko es veeleetos panjemt liidzi aizsaulee, es vinjam saciitu.." Tikko saaku domaat, ko es vinjam saciitu.. Laikam atminjas...jo kas gan cits ir dziive, ja ne atminjas.. Ja riit es pamostos un neko neatcereetos, cik veerti buutu tie 18 gadi? Tie buutu vien tuksha skanja, ko man kaads vareetu pateikt-tu dziivo jau 18 gadus. Bet ko man tas izteiktu, ja visi shie gadi nebuutu saglabaajushies atminjaa? Ja taa padomaa, reti kad cilveeks dziivo mirklim..Mirklim parasti izskrien cauri un tad atminjaas to izjuut.

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 21:38:00 GMT

Euz, tikko mani te paarnjeema nelielas paardomas...Salasiijos vienu gudru graamatu par ebreju misticismu, citiem vaardiem sakot, kabalu. Tur bija taada viena rindkopa, ka cilveeks nevar atpaziit to, ar ko nekad ieprieksh nav saskaaries un ilgoties peec taa, ko nekad ieprieksh nav izjutis.. Iedomaajieties, ja vareetu nezinaat, ko noziimee miileet, buut miileetam.. Visi sirdesti tiktu momentaa izdzeesti...nekaadu saapju..nekaa..mieriiga eksistence. No malas tas vareetu shkjits skumji, nozheelojami...bet pasham....vieglaak buutu..daudz..Kaads taadu dziivi izveeleetos?

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 18:51:56 GMT

Some men are haunted by ghosts...some by their past...I'm haunted by the memory of how it felt to be loved...

*;))))))))))))

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 21:56:59 GMT

Taaaa...likaaas, ka ir te jaaieraksta... MANI ZHETONVAKARAA IECEELA PAR KARALIENI;)))

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 16:11:38 GMT

"DIENA" ir plebejistiskaakaa, dzeltenaakaaa, STULBAAKAA aviize LV robezhaas, un vieniigais iemesls, kaadelj es to lasu ir, lai sekmiigi nokaartotu LU jur.fak. iestaajeksi. Skaudiigaaku, pretiigaaku un, veelreiz atkaartoshu, PLEBEJISKAAKU aviizi es nezinu. Idioti kuudii muusu idiotisko tautu:/

BAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! (nu apmeeram taa, kaa to aita izrunaatu*;)

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 21:29:09 GMT

Nu karo4i taa..jaaaa...yooo....uuuh...Labi, beigshu atveidot OZO=D Shodien atskjiriibaa no vakardienas aizvilkos gan uz skolu, gan uz kursiem... Secinaajumi? Mazi beerni Latvijaa ir vai nu gariigi atpalikushi vai arii tuvu tam.. Atliek vien mierinaat sevi, ka veel 6 meeneshi un *PUFFFF*, nekad vairs nebuus taadus jaaredz..vismaz masveidaa ne;DDDD Kuri bija veel okidoki, vareeja iereekt, par lietuvieshu dizho valdieku vaardiem , ka apiemeeram, Jagailis (tjipa kaa Dona dziesmaaa "Ja es buutu veej..GAILIS..." :D , tad tur veel bija Kjikutskis vai k-kas tml., un visu paarspeeja Gjindmiinis vai kaa tur..nu iisumaa izsakoties, gjindenja un miineetaaja saliktenis... Iereecaam arii par to, kaa Lietuva 15.gs bija baigaa lielvalsts, a mees letinji koa? Tiem piedereeja teritorijas liidz pat Melnajai juurai, mees izshtukojaam, ka latvieshu zemniecinjam pilniibaa pietika ar 3 hektaariem pljavas un alus mucas, nafig iet un karot, taisiit valstiun tamliidziigas glupiibas=D

Jaaiet guleet, lai riit ar JAUNIEM speekien vareetu atkal iet uz to kolosaali-radikaali-ideaali-bljagj-nahuj-spektakulaari-forsho SKOLU! YIPeeee;(((( Bet man tomeer ir mazs priecinjsh- riit uz 2-to stundu :DDDDD

HaaaaaaHAHAaaaa!!!!!!!

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 19:30:21 GMT

Yo, yo yo! Beidzot man arii ir laiks te paseedeet un k-ko nodrukaat... Laikam jau jaaseko visu paraugam un iisumaa jaadescribo J-gada sagaidiishana... Nu, no saakuma likaas, ka nebuus nekas iipashs, be beigu beigaas izveertaas par super-duper pasaakumu - dejoshana, eeshana, dzershana, chubinaashanaas un puukaina nakshnjoshana. Life couldn't get any sweeter*;D Par laimi pat nepiedzeeros un atceros pilniigi visu (ko nevareetu teikt par pagaajusho Jauno gadu, peec kura es kljuvu paziistama kaa 'blondiine, kurai garsho shnjabis un *MAliBu*;)))) Nu ta taa..tomeer neskatoties uz to, ka iipashi ar lielo slikto alkohhhholu neaizraavos, nakaamajaa riitaa taa vai taa agraak par trijiem no gulta izliist nevareeju:/ bet nu tam vareetu buut arii daudzi citi iemesli (piem., slinkums, apzinja, ka ilgu laiku vairs trijos celties nevarees, etc.)

Shodien "nobastoju" skolu. Ja to vispaar par bastoshanu var saukt, nemot veeraa, ka notika stundas triis? Nu vai cik tur.. Pieceelos 8. Knapi pamodinaaju veel 1 indiviidu, kas sheit palika pa nakti..pareizaak buutu teikt, ka gandriiz nepamodinaaju:) Nu tad taa, aizlaidu sho uz darbu, zvaniiju savam Saules Zveerinjam Santai, lai prasiitu, vai vinja ies uz tik elpu aizraujosho filozofijas stundu..UN TAD es tiku apgaismota, ka tikpat labi var arii neiet =D Nu..ielikos guleet iisi pirms 10...modinaataju uzliku uz 12...domaajiet e tad arii pieceelos? XYU! No gultas izliidu labi ja ap bez 15 diviem;D Nu karo4e taa.. Meerkakja aatruma rezhiimaa sakravaajos, safrishinaajos, braucu uz centru... Satiku draugu, paeedaam. Izdomaaaju, ka ekonomikas lekcija shovakar manam veel joprojaam no Z-svetku briivdienaam novaardzinaatajam organismam buus par smagu, mieriigu sirdi aizgaaju uz treninju un izfitnesojos. PSC, kad nedeeljas 3 neesi neko dariijis, ir TIK gruuti;DDD bet nu nekas, veel paaris treninji un viss buus "chikinekaa";DDDD

Labs ir, ieshu augshaa chuchinjaat...riit jau skolu atkal bastot nevarees:'((((

VECAIS gads:DDDDDDD

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 16:01:33 GMT

Tahaaaaaaa.....Kaads ir ieveerojis, ka jo retaak es te paraados, jo labaak man klaajas? :D Nu varbuut 2005-jaa kaukas tomeer mainiisies... Veiksmiigu visiem gadu, blah blah blah.... Nepaasforseejiet ar svineeshanu un turieties pa gabalu no pirotehnikas... THE QUEEN HAS SPOKEN.

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 22:18:03 GMT

Blja besis........fuck.....kaa kaut kaads KRANCIS var shitaa sabojaat gariigo?>:((((

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 22:42:49 GMT

Who would have guessed it..yet another beautiful day has gone by...if you consider non-stop rain beautiful that is;P What ever happened to the weather? There's this really old song, the lyrics go along the lines of "just blame it on the weathermaaaaaan", hell yeah, i blame it on him, stupid little fucker. The only thing every single school kid in this country really anticipated during the whole fucking school year was summer. SUMMER not below zero temperature rainforest winds and showers! My computer is slower than a limp snail..if there even is such a thing.. I think i might just smash the computer screen any day now..the anger has been building up for weeks;D might as well let it all come out... No, bad idea, my parents would kill me..better do it to the lap-top;D

I'm chilling out...Baby bash reaaaaallyyy iiis good...mmm....Went on a date a few days ago..and that's mega progress for me, considering that dating is my least favourite free time activity.. I dunno why, but i've never seen the thrill....i mean, what's the point of looking pretty and pretending to be cooler than you are..and you usually just manage quite the contrary anyway-you either seem to stuck up, fed up, or just arrogant..jeez.. why can't that dating stage just be avoided.. Don't get me wrong, i love spending time with the oppossite (is it double "s"?) sex and all but i can't stand all the shit that comes along with it..i hate not being myself..pretending to be different..but you can't do without it..and that SUCKS:(

Do any of you guys believe in destiny? Cuz i'm starting to... A few things have happened recently..just out of the blue..and they're not even inter-connected..at least not in a clearly visible way..won't make sense if i start writing about it here...but there are some coincidences..that are well....WAY too coincidental to be considered coincidences;D

;DDDD

Fri, 28 May 2004 11:42:30 GMT

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

Thu, 27 May 2004 14:03:46 GMT

Alright, so it's five o'clock on a Thursday afternoon..and I'm home alone staring at my fucking computer screen like some thirteen year old nerd from a geek moevie..That last sentence didn't actually make sence, considering that "nerd" and "geek" are practically synonims. Mind you people, that it's a THURSDAY night!! Not Friday or Saturday or whatever other day normal people usually go out on.. My favourite day is Thursday..And I'm not going anywhere tonight. Fuck. As a matter of fact, while turining the lock of my door just an hour ago I waas struck by a question -Why the fuck? And it's still in the air hanging above my head. Went to the hair-dresser's today. I've got poker straight hair. I've got a perfect manicure. I'm a fucking blonde with brains. Then WHY the FUCK am I not going anywhere tonight? Huh? "Is it me, am I too fat?" ;DDD Actually the only ever correct answer to that question is undoubtedly: YES. I once read in a book that "You can never too rich or too thin. Then somebody said "but look at Kate Moss, she's practically a broom on a stick" Oh yeah, poor girl, I'd never want to be the ex of Johnny Depp.......FUCK YOU ALLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bladj nahuj

Mon, 17 May 2004 20:00:59 GMT

Nee, tieshaam nositiet kaads mani es jau saaku lamaaties kaa vecs krievu juurnieks.. Pizdec a man pie deeeeee...... BLjaaviens..nu faaaaak blja! Pizdec... Es pati jau esmu viens liels lamuvaards... Pof.. Normaaliem cilveekiem shitaa nav.. Slima es esmu, nekas cits es neesmu... Nu galiigi B.L.O.N.D.A.!!!!! Vieniigais labums, kas no maniim ir ir tas ka shodien bija ahujenna labstreninjsh..laikam beidzot esmu sajeegusi, ka saaku liidzinaaties gaazei-ienjemu trauka formu..pzdec labs prikols, ne? (te ir juutams sarkasms tiem, kas sapratiis) Un vispaar... MANI VAJAG IELIKT TVAIKU IELAAA Nee, saak jau taa shitas viss izbesiit.. Es zinu, kas jaadara.. Aizieshu 4dien uz Pulkvedi..piedzershos..izksatiihos kaa jau pagaashreiz snog shshibatjiljno, jaatrod kaads one-nighter un viss buus okidoki.. Vismaz uz vienu vakaru. Bet nu bljaaaa....kaa man riebjas vienas nakts sakari... Izteikt nevaru, kaa man tas besii.. Nerunaajot jau par to ka peedeejaa laikaa es palieku tik slima, ka man neviens nemaz nepatiik (iznjemot protams kaut kaadu ..... kas mani pasuutiija dirst (manas vainas peec)). Vot vakar piemeeram, biju SPICEE un redzeeju tur dzeku kuru vareetu gribet/njemt. Kur tur probleema?? TAS BIJA VIENIIGAIS DZEKS 3NEDEELJU LAIKAA, KAS MAN PATIKA!!!! Vot taa luuk! Bljadj nahuj...

Atvainojos par lamuvaardiem un ja kaadam liekas, ka es esmu analfabeete un nemaaku likt komatus, tad tas taa nav - es veinkaarshi esmu tik dusmiiga ka ja likshu pareizi veel komatus, sashkjaidiishu tastatuuru.

Es tev liekos kaa meitene maza, kurai aplam daudz valjas ljauts...

Sat, 15 May 2004 21:57:22 GMT

Iegaaju iz4ekot savu meilu..atkal vieniigais, kas tur bija - kaukaadi 3 spamu meili bulkaa.. Kaa man pleesh sirdi, ka tur vairs neraadaaas uzraksts Inbox(1)...Man pat nav logjisku vaardu, ko par to pateikt..Reetai tak pa 4 meeneshiem buutu jaasadziist, ne? Blja! Tikai kaut kaada apdolbiita blondiine kaa es tik ilgi vareetu kaut ko taadu tureet sevii.. Job blja!... Pleesh sirdi kopaa, it sevishkji, kad klausos to jobnuto "Luugumu"..kaa tie vaardi atbilst!!!! BLJA! Riebjas shitas viss kretiiniskais pasaakums, ciest nevaru sevi zheelot (iisteniibaa man patiik, bet negribu atziit), nahujvispaar es toreiz biju tik idiotiski, kretiiniski, neandertaaliski naturaali STULBA? Tas bija apmeram taa: izasaucu sev taksi, tad ieraugu, ka naak mikrinjsh un tad man baigaa dilemma, nevaru izlemt, kuraa kaapt. Taksis pa to laiku aiziet, un mikrinjsh ne tikai izraadaas vecs un smirdiigs, bet arii iet nepareizajaa virzienaa... Kaa es to nozheeloju.. Es nekad neko savaa dziivee neesmu nozheelojusi, nevienu no visaas trulajaam lietaam, ko esmu dariijusi, pilniigi nevienu neesmu nozhelojusi iznjemot...shito... Jo tagad tas viss taa grauzh mani nost..tik ljoti.. Un tas viss ir tik bezjeedziigi, ka raudaat jau ar vairs nav tolka, tas vienkaarshi visu laiku tur ir un tuvaakajaa laika netaisaas arii nekur iet.. Un katru reizi, kad es eju savaa jobnutajaa Yahoo! meilaa es gaidu to Inbox(1)...un kad es to ieraugu uzreiz virsuu naak atminjas un tas idiotiskais orgaans manaa kruushkurvii saak kauko mudiities. Un tad es ieeju tajaa Inboxaa un tur nav nekaa...nekaa, kam tur buutu jaabuut..un tad es esmu gatava iet un dauziiit savu stulbo galvu pret betona sienu, jo taa ir mana vaina. Vot dzeru tagad karamelju teeju...un nepaliidz..nemaz. Ja vareetu pagaatni mainiit... muchacho</span>, izgudro man laika mashiinu! Iedoshu tev bu4u;"D Nee, bet iisteniibaa tam nebuutu nekaadas jeegas..es neticu pagaatnes nozheeloshanai..un pat ja man buutu iespeeja atgriezties pagaatnee un mainiit kaut ko..jebko, es to nedariitu, jo lietas notiek taa, kaa taam ir janotiek un nekaa savaadaak.. Nekad nevar zinaat, kaa shodiena iespaidos riitdienu.. Kaut vai manaa gadiijumaa - ja nebuutu bijis mikrinja, es nebuutu palaidusi garaam taksi, bet tajaa pat laikaa, ja nebuutu bijis mikrinja, taksis arii nebuutu bijis.. Hrenovijs piemeers karo4e, jo to ar kaukaadiem stulbiem baanjiem izskaidrot visu nevar, bet galvenaa doma shitajaa visaa ir taa ka brunete ir stulba blondiine (ljoti), kas shobriid pati sevi moraali spiidzina. Arii ljoti.

Shodien atcereejos arii par savu nabaga miiljuminju, kas mani pavisam nesen veel pameta...Zheel man mana mazaa saulstarinja..Mans mazulis...Kaa es tevi miileeju...

Un tas vaards vien jau..Depresiivs...Blje, nevienam nav nojausmas, ko man tas vaards izsaka..ko man tas noziimee...un C....caalis taads...es vinju nosistu un nomiileetu vienaa piegaajienaa... Iisaak sakot nositiet mani kaads.

Wed, 12 May 2004 20:23:31 GMT

Taa satraucos, par atkal paraadiishanos shitajaa cibaa ribaa, ka aizmirsu pashu galveno pieimineet - BLJADJ JOB TVAJU MATJ KAADA MAN IR AHUJENNNAAKAA FRUSTRAACIJA!!! Nee, cilveeki, pilnaa nopietniibaa..pie pirmaas izdeviibas Jaggie kaadu izvaros..a nu ko tur dariit..hormonu veetras dara savu..bet nu pizdec shitik traki man gan sen nebija bijis;DDDD P.R.A.S.A.A.S.

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 20:57:35 GMT

The deal with this is that you've never been mine
And even if I could turn back the hands of time
It wouldn't change a thing because nothing has been
And there's not a God damned part of your soul I've seen

I lie quietly alone in my bed at night
Trying to figure out how the hell to end this fight
But try hard as I might I can never see
A way for me without you to simply be

You are always there deep down in my blood
My feelings for you are drowning me like a flood
You're sort of always there and you sort of always listen
But when I turn back I only see your eyes glisten

I don't know if you saw me or heard a word I said
But tell me: do you really want to spend every single night alone in your bed?
Not letting anyone in and never anything out
Tell me: how do you not just blow up and scream and shout?

I may adore you more than life in itself
But sometimes I think that you simply need some help
Someone to open you up to a new conception
Or something to make you lose your inner protection

Do you really not want to let anyone in?
Or do you just consider loving yourself a sin?
Don't you know what's real life all about?
Maybe you don't see the things you just can't do without

Don't you know that it's really just about togetherness?
Just tell me: have you never heard of love and happiness?
There is a way other that to merely just exist
Tell me: don't you even feel it when you get really pissed?

It's like you never think about it when you are all alone
You probably don't even talk about it with your friends on the phone
I try to understand you but it's not like I always can
It sometimes seems to me that your heart comes with a ban

Is there a way that I can unlock your heart?
Is there anything I can do on my side and part?
Sometimes I think there's no way to live through this strain
But there are times when I don't even feel the pain

Why don't you ever consider the girls you meet?
Do you honestly think they'll someday be right there at your feet?
You probably don't but then I can't figure you at all
Most guys your age live like they're having a ball

You tell me: when did you have your last real kiss?
Or is it the one in your life that you truly miss?
I know there aren't many things that you've done
But tell me: why don't you think that I might just be
the one?

Is it me: am I doing something wrong?
Or maybe your mind is just not too strong
Which one of these it is I may not ever know
Later maybe I will-when you finally see me go
Do you really like to see me cry?
Just tell me: why did you have to say goodbye?

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 20:46:42 GMT

nu ko lai jums visiem labu pasaka? a???? nu? psc.. nekaadu domu laikam. he galva tuksha kaa tukshs papiirgrozs... shodien biju uz stockmann atklaashanu.. apkaart vazaajaas visaadi vacatio modelji, no kuriem es kaadu pusi pazinu.. he nu puikas jau smukinji ko lai saka...hehe.. un man jau vaajiiba uz tiem smukajiem puikaam.. diemzheel.. eh, ja tik taa nebuutu, mana dziive buutu super...
par ko tad nu es iisti gribeeju rakstiit.. jau aizmirsu. tieshaam vairs neatceros. varbut kaut kad tuvaakajaa laikaa... eh..
nu psc.. saak man uznaakt tas jobanutais vienaldziigi globaalais gariigais... nu kas dziive tomeer ir pa sviestu, a?!?! es esmu blonda brunete un shodien sev nopirku melnas zekjes ar snoopy un melnus adiitus duurainiishus, lai tie man kaa viegla veeja pluusminja attaali atgaadinaatu par beerniibu.. es nez... lab es zin.. bet aj... dazhreiz visgruutaak ir atziit lietas, ko zini... tik gruuti.. vot vienu lietu man ljoti gruuti atziit.. shausmiigi.. taa mani grauzh un grauzh un grauzh.. es to zinu, bet skalji pateikt nevaru, jo kad tas viss paartaps skanjas vilnjos tas taa buus un atpakalj celjsh pachibees.... eh....
un lab..otra lieta, tas jau poh, es to visiem ik pa laikam atgaadinu:man vajg dzeku;DDDDDD nu ko tur lai dara, es tak esmu tikai cilveeks. vajag kaut kur izlaadeeties.. he... stockmann shodien... vieniigie smukie dzeki, iznjemot modeljus, ko es tur redzeeju.. nu.. teiktsim taa..bija jau redzeeti..vienam dzekam ar kuru man bija nu.."dariishanas" ;D, tie ir druagi. xe besii vinjus redzeet.. vislaik atgaadina.. bet nu smuki.. bet tas pohuj. lielaakaa dalja smuko dzeku ko es paziistu ir vai nu iedomiigi plaanpraatiigi ambaalji, kuri ta vien domaa, ka jebkura meitene vai no aadas izlektu lai tik vareetu vinjeim ...... psc.. bet nu gadaas protams arii taadi labi, smuki, forshi.. bet ne tagad..psc....eh......life sucks...suck back;pppppp

nu????!!!!

Wed, 15 Oct 2003 16:33:56 GMT

He.. seezhu maajas, taa kaa jaaiet uz treninju bet slinkums...ehh, gn jau driiz:P
kaut kad paviam nesen man naaacaas no viena dzeka mutes dzirdeet fraazi "njedatroshka". tad nu man arii radaas jautajaums DZEKI: kur juus pie visiem nelabajiem novelkat liiniju starp njedatroshku un ubaaziigu?? no really, i don't get it! ja jums pieveersh uzmaniibu juums uzreiz liekas, ka meitene ir maniakaala, apmaata vai mauka, savukaart ja juus ignoree tad juus vai nu izmantojat fraazes kaa "neaizskaramaa, kuce" vai arii peekshnji saakat aktiivi pieveerst sev uzmankibu un kad juus vairs neignoree atkal saakas "eu, vinja ir traka". nu c'mon.. kriitat juus man uz nerviem, teikshu godiigi....