Date:	2005-02-01 01:29
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	thoughtful
Music:	TearsForFears

"All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World"
/TFF//MW/

Nothing is more than enough to feel content...

Date:	2005-01-23 04:06
Subject:	Tranquilty
Security:	Public
Mood:	jealous
Music:	MonsterMagnet

Every time thee utter a word... Every time thee cry... Every time thee wisheth... Beware!
There shalt always be someone who heareth thee... And I shalt for shure...
And I shalt unleash all Hell upon thee if I wilst...
For Michael is my name...

Date:	2005-01-21 05:43
Subject:	Questions...
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Massive Attack

"Why" is the worst of them. You can think-up a reason for everything. You may say whatever comes to your mind, but you'll be wrong anyway! You don't know the reasons and don't actually understand anything. You just think you have found the truth and your perception has given you the knowledge of how things work and what is this place you live in.
Ta-da!!! You've been misled! You are deeply mistaken and don't really understand anything. You are just a cog in a totally senseless accident. There are no reasons. There is no sense. Everything is senseless. Learn to live with this truth and you'll find it much more delightful and pleasant to carry on your miserable existance...
But from another point, better not. Your petty small world might not endure the truth. It miht just burst. Better continue believing you are important, significant and unique. Keep to your ridiculous concepts. Live on your miserable lives. Soon you'll forget what I've told you and go back to your rotine and will live happily ever after, till death do us part. And it surely will...

Date:	2005-01-07 00:54
Subject:	Serendipity...
Security:	Public
Mood:	curious
Music:	tranquility

I'm quickly recovering... First day outside my dwelling. Short sightseeing. Bulletproof - rather nice and interesting. Left a memo, passing by... There was much interesting and some things even touched me. But rather to keep silent, observing and digesting... But anxious curiosity creeps in me. I'll take a walk along all your thoughts tomorrow aswell. ;)

Date:	2005-01-05 21:26
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	indifferent
Music:	Bjork remixes

Event??? Oh! You mean like all our lives are simple chains of events. ;) Then The Event, I guess, would be creation of Ciba account. As far as I understand, all this thing is actually about "expressing yourself". And as most of verbal "self expression", this aswell is mostly bullshit. ;) As I see it, mind isn't fixed. Thoughts and views change, leaving any written message just a mark in past (usually false, thus bullshit!). Opinions may differ from different views, even in one persons mind (thus again - bullshit). There are some certain absolute truths, not worth discussing (thus all else is bullshit). Everything is relative and in most cases irrelevant (thus bullshit, as it may seem). Ofcourse, sometimes moments glance at things can teel more about person, than could ever be expressed in words, and thus important, relevant and significant! Not without reason creative work likes "brain-storming". ;) But if we grant these mementos too much attention and importance, we make ourselves look important, significant and unique (which also is complete bullshit). This way we could only arrogantly glorify ourselves and loose sense of reality, so to say - ground beneath our feet... So let us share common point of view (another bullshit) and do our best to pour less bullshit into this overwhelming chalice, to distinguish corn (words worth writing) from chaff! ;) And just to calm you down, I'll menion my perfect understanding of my own irrelevance and a bit bullshitty nature of all mentioned above. ;) That would be it for now. After publishing this I shall bear my weary thought to blunder in filthy and trivial overall pattern of society. Hope to hear a thought or two from those with clear mind out there. ;)