We were drained of our colours

urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids We were drained of our colours androiids androiids alucardlova@gmail.com androiids 2013-12-14T23:28:24Z 2013-12-14T23:28:24Z urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:62970 2013-12-15T01:28:00 2013-12-15T01:28:00 2013-12-14T23:28:24Z 2013-12-14T23:28:24Z Well it's 9th and Hennepin And all the donuts have Names that sound like prostitutes And the moon's teeth marks are On the sky like a tarp thrown over all this And the broken umbrellas like Dead birds and the steam Comes out of the grill like The whole goddamned town is ready to blow And the bricks are all scarred with jailhouse tattoos And everyone is behaving like dogs And the horses are coming down Violin Road And Dutch is dead on his feet And the rooms all smell like diesel And you take on the Dreams of the ones who have slept here And I'm lost in the window I hide on the stairway I hang in the curtain I sleep in your hat And no one brings anything Small into a bar around here They all started out with bad directions And the girls behind the counter has a tattooed tear One for every year he's away she said Such a crumbling beauty, but there's Well, nothing wrong with her that $100 won't fix She has that razor sadness That only gets worse With the clang and the thunder Of the Southern Pacific going by As the clock ticks out like a dripping faucet Till you're full of rag water and bitters and blue ruin And you spill out Over the side to anyone who'll listen And I've seen it All through the yellow windows Of the evening train urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:62537 2013-12-15T01:27:00 2013-12-15T01:27:00 2013-12-14T23:27:38Z 2013-12-14T23:27:38Z "The Gardener" I’m not man enough to be human But I’m trying to fit in And I’m learning to fake it Don’t ever meet their friends It tells you too much Or not enough Or worse Exactly the wrong thing Every nuance Every detail Every movement Every smell Sound Phrase Inflection The way she laughs These are all the things that you obsessively fetishize Or make yourself grow to love Although you are supposed to be done growing She is still growing Its like a garden with two flowers One just blooming and casting a shadow Just like yours And then it becomes a struggle Of sunlight Or rain Or weeds She and every she Is doomed to be your idea of her She and every she Is doomed to be your idea of her I’m not man enough to be human But I’m trying to fit in And I’m learning to fa fa fake it But worse so, Back to the point You are no longer the flower And the sun And most importantly the garden Or the gardener A muse Your amusement I am used It's all ruined if you meet their friends She and every she Is doomed to be your idea of her She and every she Is doomed to be your idea of her I’m not man enough to be human But I’m trying to fit in And I’m learning to fa fa fa fake it Fa fa fa fa fake it Fa fa fa fa fake it Fa fa fa fa fake it Ffffffffffffffake it You never wanted To share Your concept of your creation With any other gods or worshippers Your book isn’t burned It was never written Your book isn’t burned It was never written I’m not man enough to be human But I’m trying to fit in And I’m learning to fa fa fa fake it Fa fa fa fa fake it Fa fa fa fa fake it Fa fa fa fa fake it Ffffffffffffffake it urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:62293 2013-09-12T19:28:00 2013-09-12T19:28:00 2013-09-12T16:30:48Z 2013-09-12T16:30:48Z Because my love for you Would break my heart in two If you should fall Into my arms And tremble like a flower urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:62109 2013-09-11T22:20:00 2013-09-11T22:20:00 2013-09-11T19:20:57Z 2013-09-11T19:20:57Z Eleven years further on The future's been and gone Where to now? We'll stand our ground somehow Life under siege For life out of tune All things are meant to be All souls that rise rise rise Eternal conflict see For fear of compromise Life Under siege For life out of tune Bewildered and besieged Confused and confirmed For the man who works to be free The only reality is Life under siege For life out of tune urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:61898 2013-09-11T22:11:00 2013-09-11T22:11:00 2013-09-11T19:11:27Z 2013-09-11T19:11:27Z Who knows Not me I've never lost control urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:61656 2013-08-08T19:07:00 2013-08-08T19:07:00 2013-08-08T16:07:52Z 2013-08-08T16:07:52Z Can't you see I'm trying? I don't even like it. urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:61195 2013-05-06T03:13:00 2013-05-06T03:13:00 2013-05-06T00:13:24Z 2013-05-06T00:13:24Z No one has said what the truth should be And no one decided that I'd feel this way If you felt as I Would you betray yourself But, you can't deny how I feel And you can't decide for me No one should fear what they cannot see And no ones to blame it's just hypocrisy It's written in your eyes And how I despise myself But, you can't deny how I feel And you can't decide for me And it's your heart That's so wrong Mistaken You'll never know Your feathered sacred self But, you can't deny how I feel And you can't decide for me And you can't deny how I feel And why should you decide for me urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:60968 2013-04-27T17:10:00 2013-04-27T17:10:00 2013-04-27T14:10:19Z 2013-04-27T14:10:19Z You must have brought the bad weather with you The sky's the colour of lead All you've left me is a feather On an unmade bed It's always me whenever there's trouble The world does nothing but turn And the ring it fell off my finger I guess I'll never learn But it's over, it's over, it's over I'm getting dressed in the dark Our story ends before it begins I always confess to everyones sins The nail gets hammered down And it's over, let it go So don't go and make a big deal out of nothing Well it's just a storm on a dime And I've always found there's nothing That money can't buy I've already gone to the place I'm going There's no place left to fall And there's something to be said For saying nothing at all And it's over, it's over, it's over It's done forgotten and through No one cares what it's all for You'll be buried in the clothes that you've never wore So keep your suitcase by the door It's over, let it go No one cares what it's all for You'll be buried in the clothes that you never wore So keep your suitcase by the door It's over, let it go You gotta let it go Let it go, let it go urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:60852 2013-04-26T23:52:00 2013-04-26T23:52:00 2013-04-26T20:52:36Z 2013-04-26T20:52:36Z But We Desecrate At A Touch! And Touch Defiles Afloat On The Evening Tide It's Light and It's Sadness Growing Fainter and Fainter Growing Fainter and Fainter This War of Emotion The Fate of Our Age It Rains Slashed and Sweaty To The Brow of Our Death Cut Off From Despair The True Deceit With Dedication With Will So Purged of Purity Perished in The Night Where Every Dream With Every Hope In Someone Else Has Been Betrayed The Passion The Devotion The Knowing The Nothing The Echoes The Names The Sadness The Blame urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:60659 2013-04-25T00:16:00 2013-04-25T00:16:00 2013-04-24T21:19:18Z 2013-04-24T21:19:18Z Loss and lost and losing Do not weep All this is passing Do not weep All this is passing So high I could come So far I shall fall He waves words of farewell Oh, do not weep All of this passing To fail is human To fall is human To hope is human Do not weep As the sound disappears urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:60211 2013-04-22T01:10:00 2013-04-22T01:10:00 2013-04-21T22:11:06Z 2013-04-21T22:11:06Z Baby let me set it off do you mind it I get it off Set it off <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pfLjgMOREa0">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pfLjgMOREa0</a> urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:60062 2013-04-17T01:45:00 2013-04-17T01:45:00 2013-04-16T22:45:55Z 2013-04-16T22:45:55Z If I'm quick to offer my love It's just cause I don't believe Sometimes I get the suspicion My love is a mockery But for you I want to be real And let you in on the deal Come and tell me the one thing You don't want me to know It's always the only worthwhile Topic of discussion Cause it's no compliment To be the perfect lover To not share your confusion It's no compliment And if we are brave and confess We're not in love anymore We're united in our fuckedupness Naked upon the floor Cause it's no compliment To be the perfect lover To not share your confusion It's no compliment urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:59656 2013-04-11T18:13:00 2013-04-11T18:13:00 2013-04-11T15:15:37Z 2013-04-11T15:15:37Z Seemed like the real thing Only to find urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:59522 2013-04-05T21:34:00 2013-04-05T21:34:00 2013-04-05T18:35:11Z 2013-04-05T18:35:11Z Eyes will drift to the sky In time While arms keep holding tight There's a party in full force Still the guests Can't help but watch the door Expressing your uncertainties Through years of anniversaries Then five years down the line You say, "She was never my type" Lovers are strangers There's nothing to discuss Hearts will be faithful While the truth is told to someone else (x2) When you look off Tell me who you really love (x2) Fall comes by surprise Looking into strange eyes Like school kids who are not friends In the streets they are connected Huddling in the dark The only number you call Magic moments are not lost They'll outlive all your doubts Lovers are strangers There's nothing to discuss Hearts will be faithful While the truth is told to someone else (x2) When you look off Tell me who you really love (x5) urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:59263 2013-03-15T04:21:00 2013-03-15T04:21:00 2013-03-15T02:29:23Z 2013-03-15T02:29:23Z It go- [Hook] Ride to it, ride to it Cause you never know When a bullet might hit And you die to it, die to it Die to it, die to it Live your life, live it right Be different, do different things Don't do alike He did, cause he ain't what you is But we can win, wait Let's get straight to the point [Verse 1] To the meaning of life What's my purpose? Maybe the surface/maybe this Earth is Ain't a good place to be How far is heaven? Let's see Is it in the clouds like they said it would be? I wonder when I die Will he give me receipts? I wonder will the eyes of the lord look at me? Look at me, look at me, I'm a loser, I'm a winner I'm good, I'm bad, I'm a Christian, I'm a sinner I'm humble, I'm loud, I'm righteous, I'm a killer What I'm doing, I'm saying that I'm human Now people just [Hook] [Verse 2] It go 1, 2, 3 Two in the front One in the back seat Seat, seat, seat Looking for a victim of an AK-47 100 round each, each, each But why must we retaliate? Is it human nature? I don't know I look for the answers later Make a right, there they go! Some times gotta [Hook] [Verse 3] As I open this book and then burn up some of this reefer My plan is to figure out the world and escape all my demons I'm dying inside, I wonder if Zion inside the heavens A condom, a rollie, pain, a fat blunt and a mack 11 That's all I see in my life and they tell me to make it right But I"m right on the edge of Everest and I might jump tonight Have you ever had known a saint that was taking sinner's advice? Well it's probably you, am I right? If I'm wrong, you a fucking lie When I lie on back and look at the ceiling, it's so appealing to pray I wonder if I'm just a villain, dealing my morals away Some people look at my face then tell me don't worry about it I give em back they deposit, no money, just total silence I'm running, they say I'm wildin' a youngun with lack of guidance That's hundreds of us with problems: more money, more drugs and violence Look at the soul of an out-of-control artist That's dealing with life the hardest That's on my life, but regardless I'mma [Hook] [Verse 4: BJ the Chicago Kid] Yea, life can please ya But death can tease ya On the day Niko had that seizure I lost one of my biggest believers, ahh Close deaths make you think about your life Like if I had that same chance twice What would I do different? I'd tell her I loved her more Do more But tease her bout crying on that picture Now when I'm done recording Swear I let the beat bang in her name Make her shake her head in heaven saying They at it again Make them clouds turn to speakers Don't take too much smoke from the reefer Love being in the room with her peoples Now my love life murking it Family having surgeries Hate it that the truth that chose for they life to be under me Lord, what kind of life is this? Mama I just wanna sing Mama said, "According to get everything You gotta risk everything" So I'm smoking my kush reading Corinthians Smoking my kush reading Corinthians (3x) urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:58887 2013-03-11T01:31:00 2013-03-11T01:31:00 2013-03-10T23:45:41Z 2013-03-10T23:45:41Z [Hook] I know a lot of people that smile in my face But talk behind my back every time I’m gone So when they call my number, I don’t never pick up I don’t owe you shit, bitch, leave me alone I’m going big, suck my dick I’m going big, suck my dick I’m going big, suck my dick I’m going big, suck my dick Too many niggas, not enough hoes And some of you niggas, acting like hoes Stay to myself like loners do Get high by myself, I’m not in the mood To politic or be fake with you We apologize if you ever knew Too many niggas, and not enough hoes And most of you niggas, acting like hoes Everything I do is ? I’mma take my time, I’mma master it You should be mindful of a mastermind urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:58706 2013-01-08T18:55:00 2013-01-08T18:55:00 2013-01-08T16:56:11Z 2013-01-08T16:56:11Z Get used to saying no Turn your back on the deceiver Whose whispers in your ear complicate your life Willpower, energy, example What has to be done is done Without wavering Without worrying about what others think Let obstacles only make you bigger Get rid of those useless thoughts Which are at best a waste of time Don't waste your energy and your time Throwing stones at the dogs that bark at you on the way Ignore them Don't put off your work until tomorrow Don't succumb to that disease of character Whose symptoms are a general lack of seriousness Unsteadiness in action and speech Foolishness In a word: frivolity If you clash with the character of one person or another It has to be that way You're not a dollar bill to be liked by everyone If your character and that of those around you Were soft and sweet like marshmallows You would never become the person destiny's ordained Don't stop to think about excuses Get rid of them, and do what you should You say you can't do more? Couldn't it be, that you can't do less? You never want to get to the bottom of things At times because of politeness Other times -- most times -- because you fear hurting yourself Sometimes, again, because you fear hurting others But always because of fear With that fear of digging for the truth You'll never be a man of good judgment Don't be afraid of the truth Even though the truth may mean your death urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:58381 2012-09-21T18:19:00 2012-09-21T18:19:00 2012-09-21T15:21:32Z 2012-09-21T15:21:32Z Maybe lately, maybe I've been crazy, but I think that you love me. Maybe, probably, it's permanent; I love you totally. Maybe, maybe, I'm in to spending every day together just with you. Lately, lately, I've been thinking it could be forever just us two. Maybe when we're older I'll be less afraid. Maybe when it gets colder you could come to stay. If I'm with you. urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:58364 2012-07-11T11:41:00 2012-07-11T11:41:00 2012-07-11T08:43:12Z 2012-07-11T08:43:12Z I wanna write myself On the walls of your heart Because the knot that holds us all together Throws us all apart I'm gonna stop myself Before I say something true Because the answers That roll from my tongue Are nothing to do with you And I hold a piece up to the light Hold a piece up to my eye Found a missing piece from my set Found a person I had not met Hold a piece up to the light Hold a piece up to my eye Found a missing piece from my set Found a person I had not met Sometimes is a lonely place So tow me over to the light, The sound, the sound it is in sight Found my heart was contained within a cell Found my heart in this tuck-a-way-me world I hold a piece up to the light Hold a piece up to my eye Found a missing piece from my set Found a person I'd not met Sometimes is a lonely place Sometimes I held the missing piece urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:58035 2012-06-30T19:40:00 2012-06-30T19:40:00 2012-06-30T16:41:09Z 2012-06-30T16:41:09Z Show me the face Of the one I'll love Cause I've run out Of preconceived notions Show me the face Of the one I'll love Cause I've satisfied All my preconceived notions Show me the face Show me the face Show me the face That could break my heart next All of the ones I dreamed All of the ones I could conceive Have spent the night with me So show me the face urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:57722 2012-06-10T18:46:00 2012-06-10T18:46:00 2012-06-10T15:46:07Z 2012-06-10T15:46:07Z The night is still And the frost it bites my face I wear my silence like a mask And murmur like a ghost "Trick or Treat" "Trick or Treat" The bitter and the sweet The carefree days Are distant now I wear my memories like a shroud I try to speak but words collapse Echoing "Trick or Treat" "Trick or Treat" The bitter and the sweet I wander through your sadness Gazing at you with scorpion eyes Halloween... Halloween A sweet reminder In the ice-blue nursery Of a childish murder Of hidden lustre And she cries "Trick or Treat" "Trick or Treat" The bitter and the sweet I wander through your sadness Gazing at you with scorpion eyes Halloween... Halloween urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:57446 2012-05-06T16:02:00 2012-05-06T16:02:00 2012-05-06T13:03:32Z 2012-05-06T13:03:32Z A little mouse creeps as the mighty tomcat sleeps He's been up for forty nights, he needs his forty winks To think of all the mischief his teeth did sink I can nearly taste it Some scars heal and practically fade away While some reveal a past you can't escape And others still are entirely fake So what's it going to be, my long lost brother? Show your scars Are you going to be my long lost brother After all? I don't really need a long lost brother Tearing me apart Let's start knocking them nine lives off I know what you are, I know what you're doing I know what this is, it's a bloodletting When the cat's away, it's said the mouse will play Oh, but this little mouse was brainwashed to behave Now the cat's out of the bag and someone's got to pay Here kitty kitty All my life I've been made to do what's right Well, all my life is going to end tonight And you my pet are my first sacrifice So what's it going to be, my long lost brother? Pass or fail Are you going to be my long lost brother? Heads or tails I never really had a brother But it doesn't hurt to be double sure I know what you are, I know what you're doing I know what this is, it's a bloodletting I know what you are, I know what you're after You're a dead ringer, you're a doppelgänger Kill the demon, kill your doppelgänger Kill the demon, kill your doppelgänger Kill the demon, kill your doppelgänger Kill the demon, kill your doppelgänger urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:57233 2012-04-06T00:12:00 2012-04-06T00:12:00 2012-04-05T21:12:35Z 2012-04-05T21:12:35Z I know what's going on I know how you going on I got the ra ra Go ahead and throw the ball I don't be running at all I got my own goal I stand in one place And make sure I just hit the ball Can you keep a secret From them other people If I tell you 'bout wha-gwan? And would you let me know If I forget the secret Took my eye off of the Ball? Cause Bingo, now I'm hitting the 6 [x4] You drink too much Rum You make me wanna run I make no assumption Ass will get the hump on What's the point of talkin' gun? I done been blitzed and bombed That's why I don't run For the sake of havin' fun Un nu mums ir diagnoze. urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:57007 2012-04-03T20:27:00 2012-04-03T20:27:00 2012-04-03T17:28:57Z 2012-04-03T17:28:57Z Farewell I'm sure gonna leave you I will love you till the day that I die Farewell I'm sure gonna leave you I will love you till the day that I die Farewell Farewell I'm sure gonna leave you I will love you till the day that I die I HATE YOU DON'T LEAVE ME urn:lj:klab.lv:atom1:androiids:56695 2012-03-31T00:35:00 2012-03-31T00:35:00 2012-03-30T21:36:33Z 2012-03-30T21:36:33Z Smoking on a Benson Tryin' to get me undone Let Me Go I don't want your attention Under Submission Out of frustration I'll do it I'll scream for the nation Painted nails, sunsets on horizons Palm trees silhouette smells amazing Blindfolds under home made lanterns Somewhere in the Amazon They're holding me Ransom [x2] Hello This is M.I.A. Could you please Come get me [x4] Minutes turned to hours And Became our dates When We Shared raindrops That turned into Lakes Bodies started Merging And the lines got grey Now I'm looking at him thinking Maybe He's okay