i wake up this morning like from coma. cant eat. cant sleep. just keep running all night for hours and hourd and hours. till next trafick light, till next busstop, till next ... i keep running so long till i get lost, till cant find way back home, till need to take taxi to get back home. and then i need again and again ansver the same questions from taxidrivers. way so beautiful girl running at 2 am in the night? way im not afrade that somebody can kill me or rape me or kidnape me... and all i can asver is... im not afrade. i lost my fears few days ago.
my head so light. coz'i cant eat. sick of everything...especially when people keep asking and asking how im doing? am i well?
im not. IM NOT!IM NOT! IM NOT! IM NOT! IM NOT!!!!
SHUT UP!

today kids talking with me. they saing that i am beautiful. and i believe. just for today...