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June 7th, 2004
05:38 pm - Ailite
Mees ar vinju nodziivojaam veselu meenesi kopaa 1 istabaa viesniicaa "Turists". 24h dienaa, 30 dienas elpojaam to pashu gaisu, smaidiijaam par tiem pashiem jokiem, straadaajaam, atpuutaamies. Tas ir daudz, lai iepaziitu kaadu. Ljoti daudz. Pat ar saviem draugiem ne ar visiem esmu pavadiijusi kopaa 700 stundas. Vinja bija mana vismiljaaka igauniete, kuru es ljoti miileeju. Katri arii miileeju (mees dziivojaam visas 3 kopaa). Bet Aile bija miiljaaka.
Vienreiz bija ljoti bail (vis baisaakais moments tur). Mees bijaam ljoti paargurushas, jo peec darba bija veel intervija, somas bija smagas. Bet gaajaam divataa uz staciju, uzzinaat vilcienu saraxtu, jo vinjaam ar Katri vajadzeeja uz 1 nedelju braukt uz Vaciju. Bija pretiigs dreegns melns vakars un viens no biistamakajiem rajoniem pilseetaa, kur var sadurt, sagriezt, apzagt, noslepkavot. Bet mees gaajaam. 15min vietaa aizgaajama pa kaut kadu citu cleju un gaajaam veselu stundu gandriiz. Un Aile chiiksteeja kaa mazs beerns, ka vinja vairs nevar. Es arii nevareeju, bet centos vinju uzmundrinaat, ka veel nedaudz. Kad uzzinaajam saraxtu, vinja gribeeja njemt taxi, bet visi taxisti bija kaa sazveerejsuhies. Vinjiem pietika redzeet cita izskata un angliski runajaoshus cilvekeus un vinji sauca taads cenas pa 5min braucienu.. Un meegjinajau Aili vilkt prom, jo nevareeju taksistus krieviski parliecinaat, ka vinji dzne bullshit, ka tas brauciens maksaa labi ja 2 grivnas. Bet vinji visi kaa sazveereejsuhies. Un Aile tupa lejaa no noguruma un gandriiz bimbaaja un atteicas iet, b et es g ribeeja tikt prom aatraak no taam visam drausmaam, visadi vinju paarliecinaaju.. kad vinja sanjeemas un saprata, ka mums tomeer buus jaaiet, vinja pa visu lielo laukumu un melnaa naktii visiem taksistiem izkliedza FUCK YOU!!!!! bet vinji veel sauca nopakalj, ka tas ir drausmiigs rajons, ka narkomani un slepkavas.. Un taa mees gaajaam, atradaam taisno celju, gaajama, llai gan nevareejaam, centaamies buut aatraak, centaamies tikt paari nezheeligajam noguruma un bailju vilnim. no manis beigaas nebija nekaa.... Bet vajadzeja sanjemties, visi jau bija paeedushi vakarinjas un mums bija rovno 30 min paeest, sataisiities un buut centraa, jo ar visiem sarunaajaam iet izklaideeties.
Un tad bija otrais vilnis, mees bijaam ofigenno laimiigas izejot cauri visam murgam, paeedot, taisoties, dzerot kokteeljus un taisoties un skrienot un megjinot paspeet laikaa. Un mees bijaam, ar otro speeku vilni mees priecajamies un diskojaam pa klubu. shnjaucaam vaacu schnuff tabago toletee,reecaam un izklaideejaamies.
Tad veel atceros, kaa Aile ljoti raudaaja, vinjas brauca 3dienas aatraak, mees visi staaveejaam pie zilaas boulinga eekas pieturaa, bija auksts un Aile drausmiigi raudaaja...
Un tad visi tie joki, ik vakara smieshanaas pasaakumi un kas tik veel ne. Pietika pateikt Carmen Gas vai estonian people work hard and smell hard vai ko tadu, kaa visi smeejaas. Jo apaskhaa tam visam savs backgrouends. Un muusu kopiigaa taisiishanas uz pasaakumiem, un lielaa kraasoshanas un Moloko un visaada disco muuzika.. unn muusu klusie riti, kad visi taisijas un dzeera teeju un kaveeja un taisiijaas un beigas tomeer bija laikaa..
Tad naakamaa epizode, kad mees bijaa atrakciju parkaa un tikaam (tikai savaa kompaanijaa) lielajaa apskates rataa.. Aile ar Ayhanu seedeja pretii, mees ar katri otraa ppusee.. Reecaam, smaidiijaam, focheejamies, smeejamies, kaa butu, ja atvertu durtinjas un zikaaptu aaraa, esot pashaa augshaa.. Aile fona auz vakariigi apgaismotaas pilseetas un rozaa debesu fona, smaidosha..
veel mees visu laiku jokojaam, ka vinjai ir chicken boyfriend, jo no duunu jakas krita spalvas, kas bija visur..
vienmeer smaidosha, ofigenno miilja, skaista, ar baalu aadu un zilaam aciim un tumshi bruniem matiem, kaa taada Sniegbaltiite, garajaam kaajeleem. Vienmeer Mis Disco, jo vijna tik ljoti puceejaas uz oficiaaliem pasakaumiem vai party. Vienmeer visiem iedvesa taadu kaa huh..lika ticeet, ka ir iespejas.
Un reizeem, kad ar Katri dikti sasmeejaamies, vinja igauniski bubinaaja, ka tachu ir jaagulj!:) un bija veel lielaaki smiekli!! un tad no vinjas paarnjemeu veidu, kaa vinja vienmeer teica vaardu- internet- igauniski uzsveerti pa zilbeem- inn ter net. Pat tagad taa saku, jo vairs nemaaku pateikt savaadaak.
Peec tam mees sazinaajamies e-pastiem (jo tad bijaam sadaliiti un atradaamies citaas vietaas). Un vinja visu laiku aicinaja muus braukt pie vinjiem, vai braukt uz Krimu kopaa.. Un no gribeetaajiem bijaam tikai mees ar Marco. un taapeec nee..
Tad satikaamies peec jaunaa gada kopaa ar Katri un Aili Riigaa.. Vinjas raxtiija DP. Bija jauks vakars, eedaam ceptus pelmenjus, dzeeraam viinu, skatiijamaies visu musu bildes, smeejamaies un staastiijaam kaa katram gaaja pec tam. Bija tada auksta diena, es tikai gaaju un gaaju pie vinjam, bet vinjas tik taalu dziivoja.. Un tad vinjas no Vacijas par godu manai dz.d. atveda Van Goga kalendaaru un shnjaucamo tabaku. Drausmiigi miilji bija..
No riita eedaam kopiigaas pusdienas. Vinjas aicinaaja dikti iet kopaa veelaak slidot vai arii piebiedroties gaajienam uz shaushanas angaaru. Aile vienmeer iipashi aicinaja un centaas pielauzt un teica, ka bez manis tas nebusu tas, ka miiiiljajai alinakei ir arii obligaati jaabuut. Bet mums bija deriibas, ka OBLIGAATI iesim uz Pulkvedi dzert kokteeljus. Tas bija tik pat pashsaprotami, ka saule leks naakamo riiu, ka piena zobi izkriit. SHis pasakaums bija lielaajaa dziives plaanotaajaa, ka mees obligaati iesim!! Taa pat, kaa kad es buushu Igaunijaa, es obligati iebraukshu ciemos.
Peec tam sazinaajamies ar epastiem un sms. tur es vinjai visu laiku maaciiju, ka uz Chau! ir jaatbild, Tev bikses nav... Un tad kaut kad nesen pirms aizbraukshanas vinja man bija uzraxtiijusi, "Tev pieksis nav!:D!" nekaadi nespeju saprast, kas par Peksi man nav.. un tad atcereejos, ka vinja domaa bikses!!:)
Un veel vinja lljoti gribeeja arii tikt veel kaadaa projektaa. Un ljoti priecaajas par mani. Bet saaka straadaat Saku aluu..
lidojot virs Tallinas domaas teicu Ailei lielo chau!
Pirms nedeljas vinja ieguva bakalaura graadu SSERIGaa..
Es vinjaam abaam ar Katri kaa reiz pirms nedeljas uzraxtiiju meilu, ka apsveicu ar visu, ka gaidu dikti ciemos..
Visu laiku diensgraamataa miljakaas un smiekliigaakas bildes ar draugiem. Un vienaa mees visi kopa esam pie Denisa ciemos, tieshi seezhu kopaa ar Aili, visi priecaajs un smaida lielos smaidus!
Sho 5dien 4.6.2004. Seezhot dzelzcelja stacijaa, gaidot vilcienu un cerot uz jauku nedlejas nogali- atsuutija iiszinju:
Aile no riita gaaja bojaa autokatastrofaa.
Braucot 6dien ar aatrumu 200km h man arii gribejaas aiziet bojaa autokatastrofaa. Kropluma un invaliditates sajuuta. Negodigums, kur neko nevar mainit, neko dariit. Nezinu, ko ir jaadara, bet gribas izdarit kaut ko Ailes pieminjai. Miiljaa Aile.
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09:15 pm
Dear friends,
Thank you all for your support, love and prayers. It feels good to know that there are so many people in the world that cared about Aile. Still care...
I have been to the accident place together with several other friends. We do not know yet why the accident happened... She suddenly drove into the opposite direction, and there was nothing the truck driver could do... Nobody of her friends here believes that she was trying to pass a car, the place was too dangerous for that - a curve with very low visibility.... Maybe early morning...sun...something with the car... the police are investigating...
The car burned after the crash, so there is not much left of Aile... But we are certain that everything happened so fast that she did not realise what was happening herself... and suffered no pain.
There are even no marks of braking on the road. The truck driver has said that he wanted to save her, do something, but the flames were too high and hot... There would have been nothing to save anyways...
We put a picture, flowers and candles on the accident spot... It is on the road from my hometown to Tallinn, so i will be passing it tens and tens of times in the future...
I feel pretty calm myself, I keep busy. Just terribly sad and emotionless. But life goes on, it just stopped for a while for all of us. Please never lose hope or faith in God. Aile believed in everyone having their Own Path to walk in life. Ours go on and on. Aile's favourite movie was 'A Walk to Remember', watch it and rememer her sometimes... And those who have not read 'The Alchemist', do so... They contain hope and dreams...
The funeral will take place on the next Saturday, June 12 in Tallinn, at 3.30 PM, Estonian time.
Keep in touch, everyone, and stay strong, you have my love. I will give you news if i have some...
Hugs,
Katri
PS: The tabloid of Estonia had the story on the front cover on Saturday, you can see some pictures of the car at http://www.sloleht.ee/index.aspx?d=05.06.04&r=1&id=157940 I hate the newspapers making money on pain and accidents... There will be a story bout Aile in tomorrow's paper as well. I spent almost 1 hr in the pulishing house together with the family to stop the article, but with no luck... They were just doing their job... And mentally kicked us out.
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09:39 pm - In Memoriam: Aile Lillepalu 17.01.1983 - 04.06.2004
Dear Friends,
I can not believe i'm writing this letter , waiting for someone to wake me up from this worst nightmare i have.I never lost a friend before, especially a friend like Aile ; she had so nice,colourful personality
that was making a person feel great when nearby.Spent a month with her in Mariupol and have never seen somebody so positive before or after her.I can't believe that happened,i've been crying for allnight and thinking why..She was so young,lovely..I don't know how to deal with this sorrow, almost losing my mind and my belief in God..Why so untimely,she was an angel on the earth.How God leted it to happen.Trying to soothe myself, thinking like God always wants the good people nearby, in his heaven.Then it becomes more clear and i save myself from becoming mad.I agree with Pari,there is something better planned for her..I know you're there in Heaven Aile,i won't forget you forever.May you rest in peace,i miss you..
Katri, i can't imagine your sadness even i'm suffering so much now,but a person like Aile must have gone to Heaven , there is no other way..Be strong and be sure that she's away and safe from all badness of the world.If there's something i or we all can do just let us know,we'll be happy to do anything for Aile's memory.Give my consolades to Aile's family and tell them i do believe she's already in Heaven now..
We all should be very strong and try to be positive ,i'm now smiling while looking at the smiley photographs of Aile.I know she would like to see us all positive, while she's watching us from there.She was always smiling in the project,therefore when we think of Aile we should smile too.
Please be careful everybody and take care..
Ayhan
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