killer

I want to disappear.

viss.es negribu.beigas.bija jau labi.bet to idiotu deel es atkal atkritu atpakal.atkal dumjas domas galvaa.man vajag uz laiku pazust.tad es redzeeshu,vai gribu mirt.saka,ka iisteniba mes nekad negribam mirt, vienkaarshi gribam dziivot savaadaak.bet nu es nepiekriitu - es pat negribu dziivot labi.es gribu pazust.nekad vinus vairs neredzeet un nedzirdeet.neatcereeties.

viss riebjas.neko negribu.nemeeginaasu.neticu.nemeegini man iemaaciit. es neko vairs nesaprotu.gribu vnk pazust un nekad atkal neparaadiities. liekas, ka nekad vairs nebuushu OK.un nemaz vairs negribas.vnk paaraak ilgi viss jau ir galiigaa dirsaa.nekam neticu.neko nesaprotu - vismazaak sevi. dziive nav domaata man.viss labais un skaistas nav prieks manis.

The stillness of the loud voices

The end of my cries

The turning of dawn

The shadow of farewell

Death, how I long to find Thee

 

You are my salvation

You are my release

From the pain

Of this world

Death, how I long to find Thee

 

I miss the stillness

I miss the calmness

But most of all

I miss the feeling

Of tears on my cheeks

 

When the night seems

To last forever

When the pain

Never stops

I long to find Thee, Lady Death

 

As trees turn to grey ashes

I have cried my final tears

Not even that comfort

Have I left

I long to find Thee, Lady Death

 

I want to run away

To forget the pictures

My brain makes me see

But I can’t stop

I long for thy comfort, Lady Death

 

Please, I beg of you

Let me take my last breath

With dignity

Don’t turn me

Don’t make me into something

I could never be

 

Pain and anger

Despair and fear

Hate and wrath

Is all I have left

I long for thy comfort, Lady Death

 

On the brig of madness

On the borderline

Of darkness

Please let me go

With something still alive deep in me

 

The light in my eyes

Died a long time ago

The warmth in my arms

Have turned cold

Please let me leave

 

Let me leave

Before the last

Flicker of light

Melts away

 

Make me a promise

Make me a vow

Let me go

Let me be

 

Lady Death, I wait for Thee

Lady Death, I long for Thee

Lady Death, only you may

Be able to

Save me now

 

Loneliness and darkness

Heartbreak and despair

All have it come

And all have it gone

I am alone

 

I have felt all

The pain

And heard

All the lies

All my myself

I stand alone

 

So, take me now

Take me away

Let me be

Let me die

So I may live again

 

 

 

/nadja lee/

...ceru ka tagad mani rezd :DD

tkz...kapee...

es vnk ieniistu...man riebjas tas ka ir taadi cilveeki kas nekaa nezin un vnk saaak kaut ko braukt augumaa...superiiga dziive...vecaaki mani ieniist staasta par to kaa viniem gruuti utt... c`mon! es vnk besiijos araaa.... kam es viniem esmu vajadziiga? kam??? nekam...varbuut vieniigi es pati kaut ko izdariisu... baac... kaa man patiik saadi texti...shut up!!!! baaac es to neiztuireesu....es neiztureesu....laujiet man pazust... luudzu.....baac..es ieniistu...es juutos tik drausmiimgi! forsi....teevs vakar saka ka es mulke maaate sodien saka kaa jaa taa ir ... baaaac! tagad seezu piepc un vnk raudu....par ko man taads sods? es esmu kaut ko neparezi un slikti izdariijusi? ja taa ko? es nedomaaju ka esmu kaut ko taadu pelnijusi...es nesaprotu... tie ir mani vecaaki! damn! kaa vini taa var? tad nevajadzeja beernus ieviest! es taa domaaju. kapeec? kapec vini grib buut taadi? es zinu- agraak taa nebija! bet pedejaa laikaa tas ir neizturami...es negribu uz maajaam naakt es gribu pazust no vinu dziiveeem...vini liek man justies vainiigai par to ka es existeeju!!!! kaa ta var? es nesaprotu...un negribu...kapeec vini tad gribeeja muus? beernus? baa! neesmu vainiga ka nedomaaja >:((((.....

es nevaru ciest, ka es nekad nekaa nesaku...tas ir taa- man it kaa ir daudzi jautaajumi kadam ciuveekam, bet es nekad nejautaju...es nezinu...dazreiz atkal ir taa ka muldu visaads mulkibas...maybe tasir atkariigs no taa ar ko runaju?

tkz.....stulbums....man 1 labz ciuveex teica ka es vinu biezi parsteidzu...un es jautaju kaa?slikti? vins teica ka nezin...it kaa nee bet arii pozitivaa nozime tas nav... baac....man apnicis ka visi ir iedomajusies mani tadu ka grib redzet!!! baaa... vai es vairs nevaru but es? ar visiem minusiem? besii............... fuck! vienk fuck! es vnk nejecu ka taa var...man ir noriebusies cilveeki... reizem es vnk nevienu negribu redzet...tapat...un tad reizem man gribas lai apkart ir daudzi! es laikam neesmu normal...un sito teikumu man biezi atgadina :DDD loshi...