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@ 2019-05-12 10:01:00

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Garastāvoklis: nostalgic
Mūzika:spring day by bts

hmm
l'oiseau

it has been almost a month and a week since i last posted on here. it always happens this way whenever i decide to re-start writing in a diary: i am active for a bit and then i just disappear. i think this time though i am not on here as much as i used to be because mostly everything in life is going well and i am just trying to enjoy all the good things that are happening. it is also the reason why i have not been going to my therapist almost at all, i think the last time was a month ago or more. of course, there is bad stuff happening basically every day, but it is nothing compared to everything else. there is a week left of school (like, normal lessons), then two exams and then nothing until the graduation, which is in the middle of june. somehow everything is going so well regarding school, i keep getting good grades in every subject, it is insane. i have noticed that ever since i stopped stressing about grades they just went up by themselves? i wish i had realized this earlier, but, you know, better late than never. i have been hanging out with some of my classmates with whom i almost did not talk at all during tenth and eleventh grade. it is so fun to finally be with new (kind of) people. i have also kind of pushed my best friend out of his comfort zone by introducing him with the two girls i now hang out with. we hung out the day before yesterday and it was so much fun. i am glad that i finally have time for myself and my friends as well. everything seems balanced and filled with positivity. the universe is on my side. it feels like some higher power is trying to make everything go well for me, which is such a relief after all the shit i went through in both tenth and eleventh grade. twelfth grade has definitely been the best year of my life so far. from getting my two best friends back and re-discovering love for myself to hanging out with new people, building a stronger relationship with my sister and just being my optimistic self again. it feels like coming home after a long journey. of course, the world is great, but home will always stay home. i love all the people that are close to me. i appreciate them. and i will miss them so fucking much. 얼마나 기다려야 또 몇 밤을 더 새워야 널 보게 될까 만나게 될까 (the translation on google might be rough, it is better to find the genius romanization)



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